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Gabapentin does not help T spike but it does make music sound much better. Ugh. Too bad I can't enjoy it at all :(

Was filling papers for green card replacement and it says the cost is 700 dollars.What the hell. Looks like I'm permanently illegal now lmao

I lost my green card and I don't have any other documents at all. Thank god that one pharmacy chain in Texas that doesn't ask for ID lol

On the other hand I found a new doctor who is able to prescribe me gabapentin. Thank got I didn't order it from India illegally for $50...

While acoustic trauma occured yesterday at 10:05 pm, my T spiked only today at 1:22 pm. This means you can get spike even a day or two later

Yayyyy. I got a T spike in my left ear today! Yaaay! And all of this because I took off headphones for A SECOND when mom was at home. Yay!!!

The worst thing is to sleep in earmuffs for construction workers. My head and neck hurts. But my mom is so damn loud. I want peace...

Why did I take off my headphones for a minute knowing damn well I'm with my mom and she can do something horrible. What whas I thinking...

Okay, I took off my headphones for 2 seconds and this happened. I am not taking them off when she is at home or I am outside. Fuck it

Mom dropped a glass vase in a new apartment without carpets and furniture. The sound was INTENSE. Smartwatch showed 91 db. Why._.

The dead silence about Auricle device is so unfair to people who are suffering on a daily basis for many months and years :c

I hope moderate vibration is not dangerous to ears... uncomfortable as hell but not dangerous

My new apartment has a huge HVAC unit right above my bedroom. The whole room is vibrating 24/7... But I love my bedroom :c

Update. I'm surprisingly fine. Can't believe Clonazepam and 20mg or prednisone saved my butt (once again). Still in shock tho

Literally my life depends rn on 1 mg of clonazepam and 20 mg of prednisone. I know you have to take 50 for acoustic trauma but I'm scared..

I was always getting spikes in my T but it was never the loudest of the sounds. September 9 is the day when I ruined my life once again lmao

I can't believe. No way those scary stories about headphones are the truth. You can't use them even if volume is below 10%...I am shaking

I can't believe I worsened my T by 50% less than 2 months before my one year anniversary of this hell

I am getting flashbacks about November 24th... autumn is just not my time of the year is it?

It happened. Severe spike while listening to music on a 5% volume out of 100. I am out of words...I took 10mg prednisone immediately. Idk...

My smartwatch registered 107 decibels while I was sleeping and they were blowing leaves. I was in earplugs but...oh well. I hate it there :(

I was deep in my sleep when they started blowing leaves right by my window. Now my ears ringing 40% louder. I had no time to react! Fuck.

This day is so fucked up man. That apartment is so fucking bad. I don't want to move there. But I already paid fucking money...

And it's legal for landlords to not clean black mold in my state. But I don't want to get asthma...

Was seeing my new apt today. Every vent is in black mold. I know they won't clean it. I don't know what to do. I already paid for apt...

I love living in a small town of 300K people instead of NYC or Chicago. So cool when none of 70 doctors in your city heard of your problems

My ENT confirmed that no neurologists prescribe nerve pain medications for Nox/TTTS in my state... Why the fuck this happened to me.

Getting fake diagnosis to get the most basic meds is not new for me but neuropathy sounds complicated. Plus, they might force me to do MRI..

Is getting fake neuropathy diagnosis hard? I've called 9 neurologists in my state. They refuse to treat Nox nerve pain/TTTS. Time for plan B

Noooo. I got hissing T and diplacusis again in my left ear. It went away 3 times so I pray this time it will do the same thing. God please.