@streifzug, i'm so sorry man :( Some people say this about benzo's and AD's. Can you tell me why you regret? How was the effect?
@2094v - I carry them because there is not a moment that goes by that I don’t think about taking them for the rest of my life.
Hey - I see your on … man I’m having a bad two days. I found a place to be happy. When I find it, I live a little more then boom! Gets worse. How are you?
@streifzug - I feel like I have a chance when I’m living a little. So I handle the volume, I do a little more in life, still the basics then worsen. Once again I habituate to some degree, live a little more, worsen. I can hear mine clearly in the shower no ear plugs. Honest. Loud. I tell my family if you heard this level all at ounce … you would die of a heart attach.
@streifzug - you know when I feel better. When I try to do simple things. Ride my bike. I’ll ride for a few days thinking at least I can do that…. Then worsen. A lot. Honest. I’ve been worsening constantly.
@streifzug - This is heart breaking because I know how you feel. All I can say is that you are not alone. I pray for all of us on here.
benzos stop working after a while and like you say, you might not be able to come off ever if you're unlucky
Then I’m done. I getting frustrated with family that think if I take meds I can get back to life. I have reactive T, N and pain H, Bad. Tried meds everything they kill my ears. I get worse. So I don’t blame them but what can I do.
I see you began Benzo’s. I want to do the same daily. Why are you tapering? If I go on there would be no coming off.
T changes parallel to sound therapy/masking and music now. It does not feel immediate, though. Comes about slowly. (1)
@streifzug - why are you coming off. Did they stop working. After how long. Hoe much did you start and did you ever tapper up?
Sorry I see you answered below. Too bad everything that helps creates new problems and is short lived,
i was on quetiapine before clozapine. it's a good med. clozapine and 2mg of melatonin usually help me sleep.
down to 2/3 of 0.5 clonazepam after 1 1/2 year everyday use. only small cuts (5% every 2 weeks max), but T seems to worsen every time. (1)
Everyone deserves to be happy during our short life on earth. We should be laughing more and experiencing joy on this magnificent planet.
hah... you know the trophy points actually upset me.. because it makes me realize that I am still here on this site.
@streifzug - I could of written the above myself. I think the same. I am not sure how long you have been suffering? I can tell you that I know people with extremely bad tinnitus and have an excellent life. It does happen. I am 1 year and a month in. If you are stable not worsening you will be okay in time.
My T started 12th of Dec 2019 and only ever got worse. In Dec '22 after a dental procedure it's gotten so bad that I caved in and started taking clonazepam daily... I hope that once I tapered it off my T will heal some, but given my luck I highly doubt it :/ Stable T would be nice though!
wake up 3:00 am. toss and turn for hours. dark thoughts. get up and make coffee. cry. it's gotten so fucked.
@Marshall mine sparks like electricity and radiates into my head. Heard it’s TTS. I don’t think I can live with it much longer.
