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    Ten Year Tinnitus Anniversary!

    Ten Year Tinnitus Anniversary!
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    Hi, I haven’t been on here in a long time.

    Hi, I haven’t been on here in a long time.
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    [Danny Boy Memorial Fund] A New Frontier In Patient Driven Research

    Jesus I remember how flippant and pissed off I was with the cavalier attitude Danny Boy had towards obscure research chemicals and other meds for tinnitus. As someone who nearly died three years ago of substance abuse related to my tinnitus I should have been on here supporting people more...
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    Feeling Like I Can't Do This

    SeekingAlpha I can't imagine a psyche ward would have been fun with full blown T spike. Too quiet in there..adds to the torture. Plus a lot of those meds will only up the T. People get very pissed off and angry when you even allude to suicide on a forum like this. It's like there's a massive...
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    Fed Up... Anybody Else Thinking About Ending It All?

    The worst part about even thinking of suicide is botching it and ending up in an even worse place. I know someone who unintentionally tried to kill himself with too many sleepers and anti-anxiety meds. The tinnitus was grinding his sanity to dust. It made him irrational and irresponsible about...
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    Namenda (Memantine)

    Its a bit speedy, so take it early in the day. I feel that it increased my tinnitus like most dissociative type drugs i.e. ketamine, DXM ect. It has a very positive effect on your overall mood however, and leaves you with an anti-depressant afterglow for a number of days. It you wanna get...
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    Does Everyone REALLY Get Used to This?

    See, I am currently in a good place with T. Took a couple of years...but if I had hearing and the sound kept getting higher I'd be quickly enough kicked off my whole "I'm habituated" high horse. My condition is no joke but motto is things can always get worse.... And I'm read some awful...
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    Sinister Types Who Spread Tinnitus!

    Hi, I got tinnitus through my own bad decisions. But many many musicians,DJ's and performers contracted this sickness through their bread and butter work....I hear many are pissed off. Like the angry herpes victim, the pissed off Hep C I.V user or the lowly down trodden aids ridden...
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    Scientists Have Developed New Version Of Aspirin That Crosses Blood Brain Barrier

    Pie in the sky wishful thinking.......
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    The Positivity Thread

    It grinds you down, it's relentless, pitiless, robs you of your sleep, your joy, your sense of hope . It leaves you a shattered shell cowering in a bottomless pit of despair. Suicide...it..it seems a lot easier than staring at that ceiling all night long with your ears screaming at you...
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    Hissing Noise

    yes they did....still loud T but not bomb like level
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    To Be in Silence or Not to Be?

    I use a river sounding app every night...because my ear tremor made my tinnitus seem like nothing.... Its essential for sleep. Silence is hell
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    Hissing Noise

    Oh I do man...no hyperbole. I had T so bad it was how I imagine somehow who had the unfortunate luck of sitting within an earshot of a road side bomb in Iraq or some other hellhole.....death almost seems like a relief in that situation...after 10 days of complete insomnia....haha
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    Does Everyone REALLY Get Used to This?

    No not everyone. Imagine the person who goes deaf with high level T and no masking potential? The sorrow and the pity... A million scenarios where your own T seems a mere annoyance. I know both sides....and I thank god(if he exists) that my hearing is pitch perfect and my T is manageable ...
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    Hissing Noise

    my tinnitus has become more of a hiss over the last few years. Originally it was a screaming dooooooough tone like a broken speaker...so relaxing on a quiet morning( lol. I love my hiss...thank you lord! The fear that you have cognitive damage or that you're going insane is what causes the...
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    Tinnitus for 7 Weeks, Terrified and Suicidal, Only 19 Years Old — Please Help!

    The first seven weeks of tinnitus.... It grinds you down, it's relentless, pitiless, robs you of your sleep, your joy, your sense of hope . It leaves you a shattered shell cowering in a bottomless pit of despair. Suicide...it..it seems a lot easier than staring at that ceiling all night long...
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    People Are Cruel to People with Tinnitus and Depression

    Pray...praying is for the damned. I've never been that desperate.
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    Feeling Like I Can't Do This

    I'm no poster child for success I still have it. When I get wound up and angry fovus on it and drive myself up the wall. But those situations are the exception to the rule these days. I just eventually decided fuck you tinnitus. Yeah buzz away I have better things to worry about. At first I...
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    Feeling Like I Can't Do This

    The 2-3 period is when it becomes an unimportant issue for many people. After 18months I got a lot better at dealing with it. I'm over 3.5 years in now. Over the last year it has become something I barely notice at all. I went nuts the first 18 months. Tried everything to stop it...ever...
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    The Negativity Thread

    Its that feeling the world has just taken a dump on you. I remember it well.... You have a long way to go man.
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    The Negativity Thread

    When it started I have extremely bad migraines and kinda a spasm on my eyelid. That all faded over a month except the T. My right leg felt numb. I had overdone it with very unhealthy drugs. So I don't know if my ear developed the problem because of that or noise exposure. I have had every...
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    The Negativity Thread

    I am also not sure if my tinnitus is related to loud music or using drugs that may have precipitated the problem. I also have no hearing loss at all. I can hear a pin drop...literally. A mosquito in the room, a hiss when a lightbulb has a problem. Stuff my wife says she can't even hear. My...
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    The Negativity Thread

    Vaba how long do you have tinnitus by the way? Some classic posts on this tread man. I would use your posts a an example of what people shouldn't do while dealing with tinnitus haha!lol. Habituating is the only option though...simple as man. It's the negativity thread so lets get negative...
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    The Negativity Thread

    I think being negative has a perverse pleasure for many. I have been a member here for a long time. I only pop in the odd time. A lot over the last few days though. I actually find my tinnitus increases even making posts on this website. Well my perception of it certainly increases. How...
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    Gabapentin (Neurontin)

    All depends on your doses and length of use. I would never use it daily or for months on end. The side effects mess with my gym commitment. It causes stiffness and swelling in the joints. Not good. The worst withdrawals I've ever had were from phenibut. Gabapentin is just a few days of...
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    The Closest You've Come to Tinnitus-Related Suicide?

    Fair play Mricha37 its great to hear about people breaking on through to the other side and saying screw you to T. But the sack up comment towards Yaba is not going to make him wanna get out of the rut he is in. He'll just be less comfortable talking here. The negative thread is for negativity...
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    Life Is Cruel Sometimes

    My bad sorry. I thought you were elderly man. I was out of line...My sarcastic joke was out of place
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    Can Fleeting Tinnitus Leftover Ringing Last a Week+ or Is This Something Else?

    Fleeting tinnitus with a sense of fullness and or pain in the ear is often associated with eustachian tube issues. My right ear doesn't usually have tinnitus but sometimes it jumps on real loud and fades out over a few minutes. I usually have a sense of pressure at the same time. Try sudafed...
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    Life Is Cruel Sometimes

    On a plus note you didn't develop Tinnitus until you were old enough to have a heart condition. Think of the decades of silences you enjoyed more than many of us here ever will. Always look on the bright side of life!
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    The Negativity Thread

    The negative thread...I love it. Makes you feel all fuzzy inside reading about people at the end of their tether.... But on a serious note though: "Hux, The hardest part of tinnitus is not know when it will end". That says it all for me. The not knowing when it will end...the false nagging...
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    The Closest You've Come to Tinnitus-Related Suicide?

    Getting T ten days after I turned 30 was like the onset of an early mid life crisis...lol. I am very against benzos and goofy meds in general because of the cognitive issues. I hate noticing when you've become more stupid. It's depressing. I recently had a small slip up. I was taking...
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    The Closest You've Come to Tinnitus-Related Suicide?

    People close to you have their own problems. Some as bad, if no worse than T. My wife had a scare with ovarian cancer. She discovered the cells on time but still it was a life and death kind of anxiety. As much as she loves and supports me there is only so much she can listen to. So now I...
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    The Closest You've Come to Tinnitus-Related Suicide?

    I think it feels quite shameful to admit to being brought down that low by this sickness. I think quite a large number of people do have black moments or in my case unconsciously act out in a very self destructive manner because of sleeplessness and anxiety. As I must reiterate the first year...
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    The Closest You've Come to Tinnitus-Related Suicide?

    I never consciously decided heck I'll do it tonight. The problem was the isolation from my wife, friends and family. After allowing me to whine about it for a couple of months and getting everything checked out people didn't wanna hear about it anymore. It was the whole "live with it, deal...
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    The Closest You've Come to Tinnitus-Related Suicide?

    Hi, I've been on this merry-go-round of misery for 3.5years. I am actually pretty fine with T at this stage but during the first 18months I almost topped myself through benzo, alcohol, dissociative addiction. I suppose I'd like this thread as an example for people who are about to take their...
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    Gabapentin (Neurontin)

    If you're stressed out by your tinnitus and can't sleep gabapentin will help you relax and forget about the T...and let you sleep. But that nice high it gives you only works once a week max at say 2-3grams over a day. Any more often and it looses the "magic" and just makes you stupid as a...
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    Autifony Therapeutics Phase II Study for AUT00063, for the Treatment of Hearing Loss and Tinnitus

    maybe have a separate thread for this annoying gene debate. this conversation is totally off topic.
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    What Is This Section About?

    yes something that can cut through the mountains of data and opinions on tinnitus would be very useful. A no no guide would be helpful. People pitch in and talk about things that are really unhelpful like loud music for example. A lot of people feel tinnitus is in their heads rather than their...
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    How Do You Feel About Having Tinnitus at a Young Age?

    I got it when I was 30....and it did change alot of things for me. I didn't take it very well and kept feeling sorry for myself by comparing my wife's desire to relax in a quiet room with my total fear of quiet environments. I consider myself as someone who just shouldn't have gotten T I'm...
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    RL648_81: Synthesis and Evaluation of Potent KCNQ2/3-specific Channel Activators

    I'll admit my remarks were a tad too flippant but I suppose I thought people knew me here. However its been months since I've posted...so many of you thought I was an ignorant asshole belittling your suffering but I'm not. Sorry if I was misunderstood
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    RL648_81: Synthesis and Evaluation of Potent KCNQ2/3-specific Channel Activators

    I signed up because I have had really loud tinnitus in my left ear since Feb 2013. By the end of 2013 I started having tremors in my right. Tones change daily and volumes as well. It nearly destroyed my marriage and I had a break down of sorts whereby I became very strange after perlonged...
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    RL648_81: Synthesis and Evaluation of Potent KCNQ2/3-specific Channel Activators

    Lucky I'm not looking for friends aha... I think a non drug based treatment would be the best solution in the long run anyway...if one is possible some day. So say it works and magically its available next year... you're still basically hooked on the medicine for life and what if your...
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    RL648_81: Synthesis and Evaluation of Potent KCNQ2/3-specific Channel Activators

    The lab tests mentioned to figure out the relative strengths of different research chemicals use rodent models i.e mice. However, how these drugs seem to react on paper after rodent testing is often very different when they are given to higher primates and humans. Even if this drug works it'll...
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    Thiamine Pyrophosphate (TPP) Stopped My Tinnitus!

    Wow what a great story but also sad how you ended up back in the tinnitus strait jacket. I think my tinnitus is also eustachian tube related. Mentally I think you have the right idea... go with the flow. I am in a good mental place with my T these days. The last scare was back in June last...
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    Gabapentin (Neurontin)

    I take it to chill out usually once a week with some red wine. One time I took it every other day for a couple of weeks. I got some side effects with my eyes. Started getting double vision. Not good. It didn't do my T any good...just chilled me out.
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    Retigabine (Trobalt, Potiga) — General Discussion

    Well obviously this medication is resolving many people's tinnitus, in the short term. But it doesn't work for everyone and the side effects would certainly keep me away from it. However, you'd think there would be alarm bells going off at research institutes about this class of drugs. I am...
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    Dream Treatment: Increasing Time Away From Tinnitus

    Wow that would be awful. I was woken once by it two years back during a very bad sinus infection. It was like that guy in episode two of the newly rebooted Xfiles series...terrifying isn't the word. The pitch was so intense I was shivering with anxiety. I hate spikes like that(luckily...
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    Do You Tell Your Friends About Your Tinnitus?

    I wouldn't tell people outside my close family or one or two select friends. I am uncomfortable that people on the street may think I'm mentally ill or something. We live in the real world where many people are quite ignorant and that's a simple fact I'm afraid.
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    Dream Treatment: Increasing Time Away From Tinnitus

    When I wake I don't have tinnitus it comes on only after I start becoming aware of my surroundings. Melatonin is good for vivid dreams and helps me knock off at night. Lack of sleep due to tinnitus increases tinnitus which then causes more insomnia. This vicious circle is the single worst...
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    L-Baclofen Group Buy — We Can Get It Synthesized — Anyone In?

    Apologies to the Yoillsolveit then.. However if its a different version of Baclofen that's only under research and hasn't been marketed yet I think I'll skip it...sounds too much like a research chem. I come across someone on drugs-forum who experienced quite severe withdrawals off...
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    L-Baclofen Group Buy — We Can Get It Synthesized — Anyone In?

    The author of this post already ran into trouble with phenibut. He mentioned using baclofen to get off it. I have no experience of this drug but I've read a bit about it. Although it is a lot less addictive than phenibut you would eventually have problems. Read some other forums to find out...
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    Brivaracetam — KV3.1 Modulator

    This thread smells of total nonsense. The wholesale speculation on how this drug works in the brain, its potency compared to trobalt etc is so misleading I fear how it could influence some very desperate person in their first year of tinnitus. The ethos of what I'm hearing here is akin to...
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    Phenibut

    I've been on Phenibut at the 2 gram level and thought I was cured. I mean you still have a muffled hissing sound but it's nothing compared to hardcore tinnitus. Even the next day the tinnitus is still heavily muffled... sounds great? Well no! Not at all... the piper has to be paid. I used...
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    Steroids: Prednisone / Dexamethasone / Others (Oral and Intratympanic Injections)

    great to hear you've had a good experience. But be careful you can't use it past 5 days otherwise it will cause you health difficulties. I've tried all those supps too. Didn't work for me...but if your tinnitus is short term maybe you have some inflammation which may clear up soon. good luck
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    Trobalt/LLLT/AM-101/ACRN: Post Here If You Experienced a Reduction in Tinnitus

    Its a life sentence. My tinnitus only started to bother me less after I gave up all hope of curing it. The first year is hell because you are still full of hope that some new innovative cure is just round the corner. The agony of frantically searching for some vitamin that will "reduce...
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    Retigabine (Trobalt, Potiga) — General Discussion

    When you stop taking it does the tinnitus go back to the way it was before or does it actually rebound and become worse?. I think I would have probably tried it a year or so back but I'm used to it now. It's an annoyance now that I can currently live with (fingers crossed it doesn't spike in...
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    Dissociatives and Tinnitus

    I have heard of dissociative drugs like ketamine being mentioned as possible cures for tinnitus because they block glutamate in the brain. Personally I got tinnitus from MXE. I over did it three years ago and woke up with considerable neurological pain and tinnitus roaring through my left ear...
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    Steroids: Prednisone / Dexamethasone / Others (Oral and Intratympanic Injections)

    Prednisone can be helpful for an ear tremor (it's different than tinnitus but more difficult to mask). It has no affect on tinnitus.
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    GABA Supplements (Including Picamilon)

    Picamilon wow I almost forgot about this one. It is ever so slightly calming...which can be helpful when T is bad but when I stopped using it my tinnitus went from 3/10 to 9.5/10...like in the suicide ballpark. It took days to level out again. Terrifying. Alcohol, benzos,gabapentin,GHB...
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    AM-101 Clinical Trial — Participants Updates and Discussion

    Well I got the injections during the summer of 2015. I got them about 6 weeks apart because the eustachian tube pressure was messing with my balance and the tremor maddening. The hole isn't big enough to totally equalize pressure like grommets would. During that winter break last January I...