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  1. Nicola8478

    It Will Get Better!

    I'm not 'advocating' anything I'm just saying how things are for me. And if you're not intelligent enough to answer without being insulting then don't bother. Clearly your mother didn't raise you right.
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    It Will Get Better!

    I just quickly wanted to say it will get better. I went to the lowest point. Took two overdoses. Was in a mental health hospital for 6 weeks. But I made it. I still have my moments but I go to the movies again. I go to concerts again. And just saying I had the worst hyperacusis and it has...
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    Ready to Go

    @Anselmo Yes I’m sorry I didn’t. The Mirtazapine has had a terrible effect on my T and H and I just don’t know to do. If this is a permanent spike I can’t live with it it's too much. No I didn’t sleep. Maybe an hour and it was so loud and brutal when I woke up. Nothing had changed. That went on...
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    Ready to Go

    @glynis ok thank you
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    Ready to Go

    @Samantha R that’s trouble I think meds made like this in the first place so I just made myself worse when I should have known better and I can’t get over it. Same thing again this morning. Dad screaming at me when I tried to explain. Called me a little bitch. And I’m ruining his life. This is...
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    Ready to Go

    Thank you everybody. I woke up again and it’s blasting. I’m so scared. I really think I need to stop the meds. I was on them month should I just leave them now or ween? Thank you. As I say I haven’t taken any for a few days now. So sorry be a pain but I’m really not sure I can cope with this at...
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    Ready to Go

    Thank you everyone. Rough night. It’s very loud and brutal again which it never used to be so I’m quite scared this is side effects that won’t go. Keeps going over and over on my mind I shouldn’t have started again cus now this. But thank you for you messages xxx
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    Ready to Go

    Thank you very much @glynis i appreciate that xxxxxxx
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    Ready to Go

    @Anselmo even though I took a Citalopram earlier? Sorry for all the questions
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    Ready to Go

    Thank you everyone for all your advice. I don’t Glynis but I’m alone a lot so I get into deep depression. Especially the way things are at the moment. So unbearable. I can only hope it changes or I just don’t know. Wish to god I’d have tried to cope without meds and not got into this hellish...
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    Ready to Go

    @Anselmo It was 15mg then 30mg then back to 15. T seems to have gone haywire though. Just tiny drills, high pitched. 24 7 and I can’t physically bare it. Doctor just gave me 10mg of Citalopram to try for 7 days. Not entirely sure though I can bare this for 7 days. I take on board what you say. I...
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    Ready to Go

    Went to my Doctor and he still suggested trying the Citalopram other than that wasn’t much help. I’m still stuck like this again Dad not really listening. I just don’t know what to do
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    Ready to Go

    Thank you all for your concern I do appreciate it. I just feel like I had warnings these weren’t good and so carried on. Tinnitus has turned so high pitched it’s actually hurting and the worse the hyperacusis gets the louder and more painful it gets. I honestly do not think I can live with it...
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    Ready to Go

    Thank you @Samantha R. But since I started back on the meds things have gone horribly wrong. All doctors tell me different things and one said just stop cus you haven’t been on them long. Then one says something else. It’s so bad and so reactive. Even more so now. I go out in the car it...
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    Ready to Go

    I've loved my life. And now it’s nothing. I’m nothing. I’m just here and the world is going on around me. The meds which I said I would never touch again has made my tinnitus & hyperacusis completely unbearable to live or sleep with. My relationship with my Dad is pretty much over. I want him...
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    Frantic

    Hi I’m needing more advice I do apologise. The Doctor has given me Citalopram and said to try those they may be better but then I didn’t take anymore M last night either. I told her I was worried but said try and come back Thursday. I honestly don’t know where to turn
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    Frantic

    @Samantha R Yes and she said it’s only been 4 week just stop. I’m going back this morning. Why did I start these things I’m just in a bigger mess now. Last night was pure hell. It was so loud and powerful I cried most of the night. It’s so high pitched like it’s tearing my ears apart
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    Frantic

    @Samantha R Yes they are Mirtazipine I’m weening off. Just each time I take them something awful happens. It’s still the same now and I’m terrified it’s not gonna stop it’s so brutal. Have managed to get in to see my GP this evening. Also like a fool I fell asleep and missed one last night...
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    Frantic

    I don’t know what to do. Woke in the night after taking another of the pills the doc is trying to ween me off and tinnitus is out of control. None stop powerful drilling in my ears and it won’t stop. I’m all alone and if this is a spike that sticks I won’t make it to the end of the day it’s so...
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    Severe Multi Tone Tinnitus — Looking for Support and Curious!

    I have a LOUD high pitched dentist drill sound plus something that sounds like church bells and also some kind of tune playing. I know that sounds mad. The drill is the worst cus I have hyperacusis and it reacts to sound so sometimes it’s out of control that one. Truly horrible
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    Could Use a Little Bit of Support

    Sorry. Forgot to answer your question. I try to mask it but I have a hard time as the H makes it very noise reactive, so sometimes it irritates the T x
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    Could Use a Little Bit of Support

    @Samantha R I’ve have it very severely for about 2 or 3 months now. Also ended up in hospital as you did. Thank you for all those recommendations I shall look into all of them. Have been to my GP today and she has started me on the weening process for Mirtrazipine. I’m nervous about taking them...
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    Could Use a Little Bit of Support

    Thanks again for all your kind words I don’t mean to appear ungrateful by still whining in my last post. I shall read that Billie thank you x
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    Could Use a Little Bit of Support

    Thank you. I just feel I’ve brought this on myself. I already had one spike through meds and now I’ve gone back on them and it seems to have happened again but worse and I don’t know what to do. I’m litterally at my wits end. I feel so alone. I don’t know where to turn. I’m in hell and I feel...
  25. Nicola8478

    Could Use a Little Bit of Support

    Apologies for always complaining but my tinnitus & hyperacusis is so bad at the moment and who knows how long it will last or even calm down to it’s usual hideous level. It reacts to everything. And just gets louder. I didn’t want to get back into meds because it may have contributed to how I am...
  26. Nicola8478

    Advice on Mirtazapine — Can I Start Weaning Off Them by Breaking Them in Half?

    Thank you for the advise. I appreciate it x
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    Advice on Mirtazapine — Can I Start Weaning Off Them by Breaking Them in Half?

    Was also on Lorazepam too for three weeks which the doctor is now stopping because it’s additive. Great, what a mess
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    Feeling So Very Sad and Hopeless

    I understand your feelings completely. I’m a mess. My tinnitus is loud and intrusive and reactive and I have hypercusis. I’m on meds which I don’t really want to be but am barely making it through the day with them anyway. I want to get off them the good they do. My life feels like pure hell...
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    Advice on Mirtazapine — Can I Start Weaning Off Them by Breaking Them in Half?

    I’ve been taking Mirtazapine 30mg for about 3 and a half weeks. I’m not keen and I have very bad sound reactive Tinnitus and Hyperacusis. Life has been pure hell of late and I think I need to try the no more drugs route. Is it safe to begin breaking them in half now to start weaning off them...
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    Taking Tramadol, Mirtazapine and Zapain — I'm Sure These Are Spiking My Tinnitus

    I’m on 30mg of Mirtazapine and 1mg of Lorazepam twice a day at the moment. Not the best but I feel like I don’t have a choice at the moment as it’s either that or back on the ward or worse I’m afraid. Between a rock and a very hard place
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    So Desperate! So Scared! Tinnitus Loud — Seeing an Audiologist Tomorrow

    They have me some white noise generators to try for the H. Have to go back again shortly. Thanks for asking. X
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    So Desperate! So Scared! Tinnitus Loud — Seeing an Audiologist Tomorrow

    I shall do. Thank you everyone x
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    So Desperate! So Scared! Tinnitus Loud — Seeing an Audiologist Tomorrow

    I have to see an audiologist tomorrow about treatment but I don’t even know how I’m going to get through the night. Tinnitus is so loud and there are so many noises, plus the hyperacusis. I’m so scared I’ll never be me again because too much damage has been done. When it gets to full volume...
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    Poll: Has Tinnitus, Hyperacusis, Hearing Loss Made You Feel Suicidal?

    Yes absolutely. Just got out of hospital. Seeing an audiologist for my tinnitus and hyperacusis on Monday. Habituation is my only hope I think.
  35. Nicola8478

    God Doesn't Exist. Well If He Did... He Would Help Me Bring to Justice the Person Who Assaulted Me

    There’s so many factors to mine I wouldn’t know where to start. Mainly have to sue myself I think. All I can hope for now is help and strength to stand up and fight
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    First Week in Hospital Done

    Thank you very much I appreciate it x @dingaling @Holly1987
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    First Week in Hospital Done

    Thank you @New Guy and @fishbone and I meant noise of course not mouse hehe
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    First Week in Hospital Done

    Had medication spike. Now probably got another mess going on from an MRI. Truly getting to a point where I wanna just go out and make the most of the life I do have. Have CBT counselling coming up and being offered white mouse machine and other stuff. Tinnitus sounds like the highest...
  39. Nicola8478

    On the Brink

    Last night I ran out of my house and walked for 5 hours in the dark. Determined never to go home again. My plan was to lay down somewhere when it got dark and and cold and hopefully not wake up. This Sertraline spike is so bad and loud and intense. I feel debilitated. Then I hear a year...
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    Positive Sertraline Related Otoxicicity Stories?

    Has anyone got any positive Sertraline stories? I’m very desperate at the moment.
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    Poll: Describe Your Tinnitus Sounds

    People with severe loud tinnitus like me, what are your sounds? Mine is half picked up on pulsatile tinnitus so it’s like a high pitched spinning wheel. The other is like a flat line of a heart machine but about 10x the intensity. Night times sounds like an electric generator on full blast...
  42. Nicola8478

    Please Bear with Me with This Post...

    So sorry for my episode today. After all the lovely advice you all gave me yesterday. It’s just so damn loud and intrusive and I can’t help blaming myself over and over. I think the when I accept that part I may be able to move on a little. Start putting this ‘thing’ where it belongs. Loud or not
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    Please Bear with Me with This Post...

    Thank you Billie. Sleep tight x
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    Please Bear with Me with This Post...

    My tinnitus is so loud today I can’t deal. Hyperacusis also. My dad is sick of me and I’m trying to be positive but this is so painful and unbearable. I keep thinking if I hadn't taken Sertraline I wouldn’t be in this nightmare and now I’m stuck. My dad actually said if you kill yourself I...
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    Please Bear with Me with This Post...

    @Ed209 Thank you so much for that and I will put all you have told me into practice. Much love and luck to you x
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    Please Bear with Me with This Post...

    @fishbone Thank you I do apologise for the cursing x
  47. Nicola8478

    Did Your Ears Ring Louder When You Went Cold Turkey Off the Pills That Made It Louder Initially?

    About 3 weeks. It’s so horrible . I’m very scared at the moment. Trying but very scared
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    Please Bear with Me with This Post...

    @Turner Thank you x You too x
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    Please Bear with Me with This Post...

    I'm sick of myself. And I'm really sick of this loud nonstop ringing in my head and ears. Which I’m pretty sure was spiked by anti depressants, which seems like madness in itself. Over the last week I've become a shell of a human and all the colour has been sucked out of my world. It's put a...
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    Alcohol and Its Effect on Tinnitus

    Ive stopped taking Sertraline cus it’s caused spike and have just been putting a bit of brandy in my tea to relax me at night. Is this ok so you think?
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    Antidepressants (SSRIs, SNRIs, MAOs, TCAs, TeCAs)

    I think Sertraline has mine worse and now I’m petrified. Right back to where I was :(
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    Did Your Ears Ring Louder When You Went Cold Turkey Off the Pills That Made It Louder Initially?

    I took Sertraline and Propeanalol and the ringing has kicked in loud and own read all what people have said about the same thing happening and now I’m very frightened
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    Did Your Ears Ring Louder When You Went Cold Turkey Off the Pills That Made It Louder Initially?

    Just wondered if anyone’s ears rang louder when they went cold turkey off the pills that were probably making them ring louder in the first place? Thank you.
  54. Nicola8478

    About as Down as I Can Get...

    @glynis Thank you Glynis
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    About as Down as I Can Get...

    @Ed209 Thank you x
  56. Nicola8478

    Sorry to bother you but saw you have high frequency sounds and now I do too. I think and it’s...

    Sorry to bother you but saw you have high frequency sounds and now I do too. I think and it’s quickly eating me up. My life has stopped and it’s affecting my personal relationships too. It’s so loud and intrusive and I have pulsing tinnitus on top. I’m slowly fading away right now. How did you...