I will try to keep this as brief as possible as I'm now about to go out, but thought I'd let people know how things have gone on a year on...
Basically, if you look back at my posts, I was a complete mess - I was set on suicide, I thought my life was over and that I'd never be able to enjoy anything again. The first 6 months or so were hell, but I'm so glad I kept going. I've had set backs which are guaranteed to happen, but I've always got through them. I had the one person who was initially keeping me going through this cheat on me, which pushed me even closer to suicide.
One year on -->
I have a new job.
I've been to Tokyo on a trip of a lifetime and had the best week of my life.
I bought a new car - Nissan 350z, one of my dream cars which I never thought I'd buy.
The above 3 things would have NEVER happened if I DIDN'T get tinnitus. I see this as a huge positive and that tinnitus actually has some positive to it (as hard as this may be to believe) It's made me think totally different about life, and made me realise I need to enjoy it and make the most of it. Before I would never enjoy life like I should, I'd always have second thoughts and never do anything.
In terms of the rest of the positives...
I go to the cinema on a regular basis (With earplugs)
I regularly go out to pubs/bars, wearing ear plugs if necessary.
My anxiety towards tinnitus has virtually gone.
I go to football matches.
I even have a new girlfriend now who is very understanding about T.
My life is 90% back. I try to avoid going to clubs and gigs but have been to clubs a few times wearing ear plugs.
My T rarely ever bothers me anymore. Recently I seem to have had a spike which has made me think about it a bit more, but I know I have to stay positive and not let it beat me, then the tinnitus will decrease.
The thing I've realised the most about everything is the role ANXIETY plays on T. Trying to stay calm has been the most important factor for me. Any stress or anxiety always made things appear far worse than they actually are. I know there is a vicious circle which you feel you will never get out of, but you will, it takes TIME. Never give up, always have hope, you will habituate, you will get better and you will enjoy life again.
I've probably missed out lots so if anyone has any questions please ask away, just trying to show people life does get better after T.
Basically, if you look back at my posts, I was a complete mess - I was set on suicide, I thought my life was over and that I'd never be able to enjoy anything again. The first 6 months or so were hell, but I'm so glad I kept going. I've had set backs which are guaranteed to happen, but I've always got through them. I had the one person who was initially keeping me going through this cheat on me, which pushed me even closer to suicide.
One year on -->
I have a new job.
I've been to Tokyo on a trip of a lifetime and had the best week of my life.
I bought a new car - Nissan 350z, one of my dream cars which I never thought I'd buy.
The above 3 things would have NEVER happened if I DIDN'T get tinnitus. I see this as a huge positive and that tinnitus actually has some positive to it (as hard as this may be to believe) It's made me think totally different about life, and made me realise I need to enjoy it and make the most of it. Before I would never enjoy life like I should, I'd always have second thoughts and never do anything.
In terms of the rest of the positives...
I go to the cinema on a regular basis (With earplugs)
I regularly go out to pubs/bars, wearing ear plugs if necessary.
My anxiety towards tinnitus has virtually gone.
I go to football matches.
I even have a new girlfriend now who is very understanding about T.
My life is 90% back. I try to avoid going to clubs and gigs but have been to clubs a few times wearing ear plugs.
My T rarely ever bothers me anymore. Recently I seem to have had a spike which has made me think about it a bit more, but I know I have to stay positive and not let it beat me, then the tinnitus will decrease.
The thing I've realised the most about everything is the role ANXIETY plays on T. Trying to stay calm has been the most important factor for me. Any stress or anxiety always made things appear far worse than they actually are. I know there is a vicious circle which you feel you will never get out of, but you will, it takes TIME. Never give up, always have hope, you will habituate, you will get better and you will enjoy life again.
I've probably missed out lots so if anyone has any questions please ask away, just trying to show people life does get better after T.