Last month, it was 25 years ago since my tinnitus started for real (not counting the very mild version three years before that). That also means it's been part of me for almost half my life. (I'm 51 in August).
The first months 25 years ago (after the first week of ignorance) were hell, but then I could live with this. Life came back and didn't change very much at all. I often went to nightclubs during the first five years, always using my custom-made molded earplugs, and I was fine. My tinnitus never worsened despite the probable very high music volume.
Since then, I've had a few episodes when I've believed that it's gotten worse, and maybe during all this time, it has gotten slightly worse, but even though some of those "spikes" have knocked me to the ground, so to speak, I've always managed to make it through and the spike eventually fading away.
I have an old thread here that I go to look at when this happens, and I always come to the same conclusion. My spikes are always the same. Most likely, it is triggered by what tinnitus feeds on most: worry and being thought of.
I'm spiking as we speak since I decided to break my own vow for the second time in almost 20 years and go to a concert two weeks ago today. I used earplugs and measured the sound (with my phone, which was not 100% reliable) to around 90 dB. That ought to mean my ears were exposed to around 65-70 dB, which shouldn't be a problem, and afterward, my ears felt fine but tired from the earplugs, which they always do when I've used them longer than a few minutes.
Now, however, it's behaving like all other spikes. And even though I do worry, I'm not breaking (yet), but it is very annoying. The sound doesn't seem to have increased much, if at all (when I isolate it), but still, I'm aware of it much more, and it feels as if it's louder when I'm not isolating it. Subconsciously, I must be wondering if it was stupid of me to go, and so on, because besides that, I can't really see a reason for this. I know that it's almost only thinking of it that triggers it.
I don't know why I started writing this, but I just wanted to vent. Also, it felt a little stupid writing in the other six-year-old thread, so I write here to remind myself in the future that this spike will fade eventually like all my future ones (I hope).
Take care of everyone with tinnitus, especially those who just got it. Even though it can feel like the end of the world, you will most likely habituate and get used to it so that it hardly bothers you.
The first months 25 years ago (after the first week of ignorance) were hell, but then I could live with this. Life came back and didn't change very much at all. I often went to nightclubs during the first five years, always using my custom-made molded earplugs, and I was fine. My tinnitus never worsened despite the probable very high music volume.
Since then, I've had a few episodes when I've believed that it's gotten worse, and maybe during all this time, it has gotten slightly worse, but even though some of those "spikes" have knocked me to the ground, so to speak, I've always managed to make it through and the spike eventually fading away.
I have an old thread here that I go to look at when this happens, and I always come to the same conclusion. My spikes are always the same. Most likely, it is triggered by what tinnitus feeds on most: worry and being thought of.
I'm spiking as we speak since I decided to break my own vow for the second time in almost 20 years and go to a concert two weeks ago today. I used earplugs and measured the sound (with my phone, which was not 100% reliable) to around 90 dB. That ought to mean my ears were exposed to around 65-70 dB, which shouldn't be a problem, and afterward, my ears felt fine but tired from the earplugs, which they always do when I've used them longer than a few minutes.
Now, however, it's behaving like all other spikes. And even though I do worry, I'm not breaking (yet), but it is very annoying. The sound doesn't seem to have increased much, if at all (when I isolate it), but still, I'm aware of it much more, and it feels as if it's louder when I'm not isolating it. Subconsciously, I must be wondering if it was stupid of me to go, and so on, because besides that, I can't really see a reason for this. I know that it's almost only thinking of it that triggers it.
I don't know why I started writing this, but I just wanted to vent. Also, it felt a little stupid writing in the other six-year-old thread, so I write here to remind myself in the future that this spike will fade eventually like all my future ones (I hope).
Take care of everyone with tinnitus, especially those who just got it. Even though it can feel like the end of the world, you will most likely habituate and get used to it so that it hardly bothers you.