Damaging my ears has completely destroyed my life and I can't help to think of all the things I would be doing right now if I haven't got it. The fact that I did it to myself makes it all so sad. Even though I haven't noticed any improvement over the last 9 months I was hoping I was improving somehow anyway. But waking up this morning, being super tired, it was like standing close to a jet-engine. How did I end up here?! Trying to stay positive but everything has just lost meaning.
Just while writing this I felt a big sway in my head and I am thinking if it's because of my inner ear being damaged or if it's just the stress of all this.
If it could just start to improve a little bit I would be able to be more positive, but it feels like I am just stuck here and I can't imagine tinnitus being louder. When the sound is at its worst, I also have a feeling of it getting louder and louder and louder, even though its probably at the same level. It's going through the roof.
Sorry for the venting, I felt I just needed it.
Just while writing this I felt a big sway in my head and I am thinking if it's because of my inner ear being damaged or if it's just the stress of all this.
If it could just start to improve a little bit I would be able to be more positive, but it feels like I am just stuck here and I can't imagine tinnitus being louder. When the sound is at its worst, I also have a feeling of it getting louder and louder and louder, even though its probably at the same level. It's going through the roof.
Sorry for the venting, I felt I just needed it.
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