A Message to Frightened 'Anxious Newbies'.

[Sailboardman]

Positive posts, Gill, but you must have mild T, with minimal hearing loss. I'm 13 months in and my T is louder than my car going 60 mph, with all windows open. It's basically unmaskable.

There's T and then there's severe T. I feel so sorry, for all of us, who have it bad.

I'm happy for you and all those who can habituate. God Bless!

Sailboardman

 

[Jesse Pinkman]

For the majority of people who develop T, it reduces significantly or disappears completely, usually within a year (I understand the stats for this are 75-80%).

What does it mean to develop T? How long must you have had it? Im sure that if 80% of those who starts hearing tinnitus gets rid of it, then 79% gets rid of it within a day or 2. Or are quick recoverers not among these statistics?

 

[LadyDi]

Although I'm really struggling with this, particularly today I'm glad to hear there is hope for the future. Has anyone tried any kind of Therepy?

Hi @patwalsh: I did cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) in conjunction with Neuromonics, which is a sound therapy similar to TRT. The CBT helped me tremendously, particularly in terms of anxiety and panic.

 

[Gill Hayes]

Hi Sailboardman, I would say my T is mild to moderate these days. And, yes, you are correct I have minimal hearing loss - which is appropriate for my age. There have been times tho when I could hear little else over the noise of my T and it was a very bad time indeed.
I know how severe T can be and I read posts from people like yourself on here with severe T and I am humbled by your strength and resilience - respect to you all. I believe Dr Nagler on this site has severe T but habituated to it eventually with the help of TRT. My understanding is that habituation takes varying amounts of time from person to person and that some people benefit from therapies such as CBT or TRT to help with the process. But I also understand that habituation happens 100% of the time unless there is something preventing the process. Dr Nagler's "Obstacles To Habituation" post in Doctors Corner was a great help to me and I would recommend everyone with T reads it.
I can only speak from my own experience with this awful affliction and how things have been for me up until this point and I sincerely hope it helps those who are new to T to know that things do get better in time. How long that time is can vary so much from person to person but things do get better.
Best wishes to you Sailboardman in your journey to better days with this awful affliction. Xx

 

[Kathi]

Thank you for sharing your story, and for being so encouraging.
Just wanted to point out that for those at the 1 year, 18 months, 2 year plus mark, tinnitus and hyperacusis can still fade, and habituation is possible further down the line too. Our brains do not have marked and matching calendars. Doctors agree that there is no statistical evidence recorded of these timeframes. It is unusual for patients to also stick with the ENT/audiologist past these timeframes. Plus, don't forget, everyone's tinnitus is different, and we all hold different healing potentials, stresses, scenarios.
The very meaning of plasticity is "change". Our brains are changing all the time.
Go to Julian Cowan Hill's page on youtube re his recent video phantom tinnitus anniversaries.

Thanks for reminding me Lisa that we're all different--I'm at 19 months in--just like you--and was starting to feel upset that I'm not part of the 80% who's tinnitus resolves or reduces at one year according to the statistics given by the OP. I'm doing well but I still hear my tinnitus most days --I just don't react to it in an emotional way anymore so I think that's as good as it's going to get for me. I have habituated my reaction but I doubt I'll ever be one of those that 'has to listen for their T'.

 

[Gill Hayes]

Hi Jesse Pinkman, I have read several times that for MOST people who develop tinnitus it LESSENS or disappears completely with time.
I personally know 4 people who have, or have had tinnitus, and for 2 of those people it disappeared completely after several months and the other 2 still have it (years later) but have habituated to it and don't hear it at all these days unless they actively listen for it. My T is definitely improving week on week and I hardly notice it most of the time now. So this kinda backs up what I've read from several reputable sources so I have no reason to disbelieve the stats.
I think having an optimistic and positive attitude is very important with any condition and especially with tinnitus ! Of course some people may not agree with this and I guess we all deal with adversity in our own way. Xx

 

[Lisa88]

@Kathi
Please don't believe these so called "stats". They are based only loosely on how long a client hangs on to his/her ENT/audiologist. Of course, most of us don't stick around our ENTs for that long.
The 1 year marker is a myth. Even the doctors/ENTs admit that there is absolutely no hard evidence to back up these stats.
Please go to Julian Cowan Hill's page on youtube, and hear what he has to say about these so-called anniversaries. Hundreds of his clients experienced a fade/resolution after the year mark.
@Gill Hayes
Once again, I would be very careful about writing such stats on here with the words "reputable" sources. If you ask these sources for evidence, they will not be able to provide any.
Please go to Julian Cowan Hill's link on youtube re his recent video, anniversaries on t, and you will hear how hundreds of his clients have experienced what you are, but years later.

 

[Gill Hayes]

Hi Lisa88, at no point did I write that habituation doesn't happen after the one year mark ! Of course it does, it can happen years after onset. I certainly didn't mean to mislead or upset anyone. That is why I used the words 'most' and 'often' and not 'all' and 'always'.
I wrote from personal experience and about information I have gathered from this site (particularly Doctors Corner), The British Tinnitus Association, ENT UK and other specialist sources including several audiologists. I can't remember where I got the 75% - 80% from and maybe I was wrong to include it. If I could take it out I would ! The reason I posted the information is because it really helped me to have hope and optimism in the first few weeks / months and hoped it would do the same for others. I didn't make up the information, it is there for all to find (whether it is right or wrong), as I did. Please don't shoot the messenger. Xx

 

[Kathi]

@Kathi
Please don't believe these so called "stats". They are based only loosely on how long a client hangs on to his/her ENT/audiologist. Of course, most of us don't stick around our ENTs for that long.
The 1 year marker is a myth. Even the doctors/ENTs admit that there is absolutely no hard evidence to back up these stats.
Please go to Julian Cowan Hill's page on youtube, and hear what he has to say about these so-called anniversaries. Hundreds of his clients experienced a fade/resolution after the year mark.
@Gill Hayes
Once again, I would be very careful about writing such stats on here with the words "reputable" sources. If you ask these sources for evidence, they will not be able to provide any.
Please go to Julian Cowan Hill's link on youtube re his recent video, anniversaries on t, and you will hear how hundreds of his clients have experienced what you are, but years later.

Thank you for leading me to Julian Cowan Hill! I watched the video on the 18 month anniversaries, etc. and how such ideas can be counter productive and truly negative. These ideas of benchmarks cause fear when one reaches these benchmarks and tinnitus is still there. I also watched what he says about habituation and I now realize that I'm doing very well. I really like what he has to say about many things and plan to continue to try to 'let it go.' Hugs to you for this positive resource.

 

[Lisa88]

@Gill Hayes
Not only habituation, but also fade and even resolution is possible after 1 year/1.5 years etc. Julian Cowan Hill has experienced this hundreds of times over with his clients. I think this is a positive message that seems to get lost on the forums. That 80% fade at 1 year marker was also a hopeful sign when I first started t, but those with t who pass that mark need not fear. Plasticity, fade, habituation etc is all still possible after these phantom markers.

 

[Gill Hayes]

Absolutely Lisa88, I wish I had included those facts more fully in my post. The last thing I want to do is worry longer term sufferers that habituation won't happen for them because of course it will. I was careless in my post by omitting this.

I watched the Julian Cowan Hill video and others of his - brilliant ! Very informative and re-assuring. Xx

 

[Kathi]

Thank you @Gill Hayes for showing that we can discuss opinions in a polite and helpful fashion. That is why I treasure this board. Thank you @Lisa88 for the same reason. Now, it's such a beautiful day out --and I'm off from work--so I'm going to take a brisk 4 mile walk. Hugs to you both.

 

[Gosia]

Gill, I stick to the same stats. They seem to be given by American Tinitus Assos7ation, the British website you mentioned, by dr. Nagler..and when I came on the forum my first question was about this. I got confirmation that this applies to all sorts of T, no matter the underlying cause. What is your hearing loss and have you checked it above 8khz? I think it can only help believe and be optimistic which will calm us down and thus reduce T. Still, we're no kids and even if we believe we still consider the other version lay happen, but as you said, we're closer to having meds than ever. I can't believe the USA sends stuff to reaserch on Mars but they don't find a way to deal with T! How many billions are wasted in wars and army ? It makes me angry when they ask sufferers to DONATE FOR RESEARCH, as if without our money they could't progress, but that's another topic.
Strangely enough you don't find the same stats on french or polish websites. French brutaly say T is there to stay in most cases. But in most fases it also fades without dissapearing.

 

[Gill Hayes]

Hi Gosia, my hearing loss is appropriate for my age and is in the higher frequency range. I'm pretty sure my T developed because of a prolonged period of intense stress, now over thankfully !!
My understanding is that most T does lessen or disappear in time, I think the issue lisa88 and Kathi had is that I wasn't clear that habituation, fade, even complete recovery can happen years after onset and they were quite right to point that out.
I agree with you regarding funding for wars, army, research on Mars etc etc when so many people are suffering with this awful condition and, in comparison, little money has been invested into researching an effective treatment. Thank goodness that seems to be changing and thank god for Autifony - let's hope they come through for us ! It just takes one pharma company to develop an effective drug and others, particularly big pharma with all their billions, will strive to develop better more effective versions - it just takes that first drug to come out. We've just got to be patient in the meantime and get on with our lives as usual until our T lessens, fades, disappears or we habituate. What ever happens we'll be ok.
Wishing you well, stay strong and positive honey ! Best wishes. Xx

 

[billie48]

Thank you Gill for sharing the wonderful success story. I am particularly impressed with your display of positivity, choosing to believe the positive side of things you have read or learned. By being positive, the brain is more relax and calm, leading to less stress and less worry about the future. The less stress, the easier to habituate to T. I also have high regard for the positive way your deal with different opinions and your ability to maintain friendly discussions. It speaks highly of your character. I hope you will stay around TT (whenever you can) to help out the newer sufferers with your positive attitude and with your wonderful success story.

 

[soundmachine]

So much for stats...I'm almost 1.5 years and it's still going strong. I have times when it gets very low...but I guess I'm one of the unlucky 30%. I pretty much think most of those stats are bogus anyway. But we all can cope. Glad to read a positive report!

 

[Chris Alexander]

Gill, you are actually awesome.

Cheers

 

[billie48]

Gill is just trying to help by posting her success story. The quote of the statistics of recovery % is not way out of the line according to this post on Oregon Tinnitus & Hyperacusis Treatment Center, which quotes an article by Nick Thomas, as published in the Seattle Times, June 2007. I include the line with the statistics below

Is there a cure? Not yet, but a variety of treatments, including sound therapy described in this article, have helped some people live with the condition. Eighty-five percent of tinnitus sufferers do get better.

http://www.tinnitus-audiology.com/nm_articles_torment_of_tinnitus.htm

That number is actually higher than the % used by Gill and she probably found similar % used in other articles she has read. So she is not way out of line with the statistics. We will never know the true % because there is a silent majority of people with tinnitus who never seek treatment and who don't need support forums. How often we read members saying they know of friends, colleagues & even family members who have T but never talk about it and are doing fine. No one number will describe each person's condition and experience. Let's not get too worked up on the exact number, but focus on the positive message of the story. Once again, thank you @Gill Hayes for the positivity radiated in your story and for taking the time to write the story to help others.

 

[TMLB]

Thank you for your positive post. I have had T for two years now and found your words encouraging. My T has gone down since I first experienced it ....it had a significant negative impact at first -- I guess a nervous breakdown could be called that But it has gotten better. It is still intrusive but by doing what I would have done prior to T, has been the most beneficial. That and I no longer keep searching out information -- I do have reputable books on T that I read to educate myself, and attended a Tinnitus Workshop help by a psychologist who has T and provides counselling.

Now I just need to keep reminding myself as you noted near the end of your post that it will get better when it gets better and that it can't be sped up.

If anyone else is reading this post I would suggest if you want sound information on tinnitus to visit the American Tinnitus Association website (you can join for $50/year US). The site does provide good information and when you pay the $50 you have access to their Progressive Tinnitus Management workbook and get a newsletter. Books written by professionals respected in T include: Living with Tinnitus and Hyperacusis (written by McKeena, Baguley and, McFerran) or Tinnitus Treatment Toolbox (by J.L. Mayes an audiologist who has T but now rarely hears it). Both books available on Amazon.com

 

[billie48]

Thank you for your positive post. I have had T for two years now and found your words encouraging. My T has gone down since I first experienced it ....it had a significant negative impact at first -- I guess a nervous breakdown could be called that But it has gotten better. It is still intrusive but by doing what I would have done prior to T, has been the most beneficial. That and I no longer keep searching out information -- I do have reputable books on T that I read to educate myself, and attended a Tinnitus Workshop help by a psychologist who has T and provides counselling.

Now I just need to keep reminding myself as you noted near the end of your post that it will get better when it gets better and that it can't be sped up.

If anyone else is reading this post I would suggest if you want sound information on tinnitus to visit the American Tinnitus Association website (you can join for $50/year US). The site does provide good information and when you pay the $50 you have access to their Progressive Tinnitus Management workbook and get a newsletter. Books written by professionals respected in T include: Living with Tinnitus and Hyperacusis (written by McKeena, Baguley and, McFerran) or Tinnitus Treatment Toolbox (by J.L. Mayes an audiologist who has T but now rarely hears it). Both books available on Amazon.com

@TMLB, it is nice to meet another British Columbia Canadian on the board. Like you, I really, really appreciate such a positive success story by @Gill Hayes and am really glad her positivity has a good influence on you. We need more of these positive stories to give hope to the new T sufferers. All the best to your recovery.

 

[r_ve]

Thanks for this post. Im now almost 7 months into it and I still think about it daily. At times where I am busy thinking about something else I almost cant hear it, but mostly its not the sound itself that disturbs me. Its the fact that I finally got to enjoy my life and the tinnitus took away the careless mind of myself. All my life I was sitting at home alone, no friends, etc. and I finally found friends which I could go out with, have fun with at loud parties, not caring about tomorrow. This time lasted for half a year til fire crackers that exploded near my ear ended this episode of my life (Im 19 years old). You can say what you want, going out with ear protection and always watching out if the music now is too loud is not nearly half as fun as without all these problems. I think about many things, way too much, already developed a sleeping disorder (an insomnia) that lasted for months just by my thoughts alone without any outer pressure.

As I said, on days where I am not thinking about it, I cant hear it. But im still thinking about it like 1-2 hours daily and its a pain. I just want to forget but my brain is like " nope I wont let you accept the fact that you have T ".

Sometimes I still have hope that it will subside sometime but people around me are like "no, if youre 6 months in already, it will last forever"

HOW AM I GOING TO LIVE MORE THAN 50 YEARS WITH IT (I hope 50 years :>) IF THE LAST 7 MONTHS WERE A PAIN AND ALMOST NOTHING HAS CHANGED SINCE I GOT IT?

 

[Karen]

HOW AM I GOING TO LIVE MORE THAN 50 YEARS WITH IT (I hope 50 years :>) IF THE LAST 7 MONTHS WERE A PAIN AND ALMOST NOTHING HAS CHANGED SINCE I GOT IT?

Hi, r_ve,

I'm so sorry you're experiencing this right now, but I want you to know that things will improve. As long as you protect your ears from further damage, you can go back to living life the way it was before. However, for some of us it may take longer than others. I've had severe tinnitus now for five years (mild tinnitus before that), and it has taken me longer to habituate to it. But now, I'm back to living my life pretty much the same way as before.

The best thing you can do is to keep your mind active, stay as positive as possible, and get back into life. It may take you a year, or longer, but I believe you'll get there. Sleep will certainly help, so if you can find a natural sleep aid that works for you, that might make a big difference. Have you tried: Magnesium (it is very calming), melatonin, valerian root, or chamomile tea? Those are natural aids that will help you with sleep, without knocking you out like prescription sleep aids might do. It's worth a try!

Also, you are very young (19!), and there are drugs in clinical trials right now that are very promising. I believe there will be a breakthrough in your lifetime for tinnitus relief.

Please don't despair, don't ever give up, and take it one day at a time. All will be well!!!

Best wishes and hugs,
Karen

 

[Danny Boy]

Thanks for this post. Im now almost 7 months into it and I still think about it daily. At times where I am busy thinking about something else I almost cant hear it, but mostly its not the sound itself that disturbs me. Its the fact that I finally got to enjoy my life and the tinnitus took away the careless mind of myself. All my life I was sitting at home alone, no friends, etc. and I finally found friends which I could go out with, have fun with at loud parties, not caring about tomorrow. This time lasted for half a year til fire crackers that exploded near my ear ended this episode of my life (Im 19 years old). You can say what you want, going out with ear protection and always watching out if the music now is too loud is not nearly half as fun as without all these problems. I think about many things, way too much, already developed a sleeping disorder (an insomnia) that lasted for months just by my thoughts alone without any outer pressure.

As I said, on days where I am not thinking about it, I cant hear it. But im still thinking about it like 1-2 hours daily and its a pain. I just want to forget but my brain is like " nope I wont let you accept the fact that you have T ".

Sometimes I still have hope that it will subside sometime but people around me are like "no, if youre 6 months in already, it will last forever"

HOW AM I GOING TO LIVE MORE THAN 50 YEARS WITH IT (I hope 50 years :>) IF THE LAST 7 MONTHS WERE A PAIN AND ALMOST NOTHING HAS CHANGED SINCE I GOT IT?

I'd say in 2-3 years Autifony will be out and you'll have a massive reduction like say 80-90%. Treatments are on the way and us British are leading the way to save you! Anyway, I suggest you get an anti-depressant such as St john's wort as it's not ototoxic and has been proven to be as effective as prozac. In addition, I would get some masking mate.

I suggest this site as it really does help-

http://www.generalfuzz.net/acrn/

If you are really desperate and really can't handle tinnitus there's always trobalt, but I would recommend it as a last line drug and not to use it if you can cope. You can get it in Spain like many others have and you don't need a prescription there. But seriously, last line drug mate.

Also, if you need something for sleep I recommend asking for the new z drugs as they are non-ototoxic.

Good luck buddy!

 

[r_ve]

Please don't despair, don't ever give up, and take it one day at a time. All will be well!!!

You know, Im so thankful for your post. It just gave me a little boost of confidence. But I know that I will just fall into the same thinking tomorrow when I wake up, again. I always try to be positive about it, distracting myself when it gets bad, listening to white noise etc., but its so damn hard to keep it up for many weeks or even months if nothing is changing at all and deep in yourself, you are afraid of the noise.

I understand the need to protect my ears. I just want to to know when sound is going to be damaging because I cant estimate it at all. I like to hear music loud and sometimes, I just get ahead of myself and turn the speakers up for 1 or 2 songs. Its not like I turn the volume up to max, but around halfway to max and Im still thinking if this is too much because I dont know at all, really.

I really hope that there will be a cure in my lifetime (which I am positive about) but on other forums people say that tinnitus is so damn complex that it will take a few centuries till maybe a cure is developed.

Right now I am testing out a new therapy where you listen to frequency filtered music to reduce the volume of your T. The therapy is recommended, clinically tested and a positive effect on T has been proven. I have only read and heard positive thinks about it online and from my doctor who has tinnitus himself and I hope it will reduce the volume. This is one of my only lights out there.

The problem with my sleeping disorder was 3 years ago. There was just one cure and that was to not give a shit about sleeping badly and being tired the next day anymore. Because my only problem was my thinking. I was even afraid of going to bed and not falling asleep. Somehow the same thing doesnt work for my T however. :/

Actually, to be serious, it did get better the last few months, but the progress is so slow, that I feel it will take 2-3 years until I finally habituate and accept it.

But anyway, thank you for your post, it just gave me a little hope!

Good luck buddy!

Thanks for your post, really appreciate it. Yeah, Ive read about a british article about treatments for tinnitus coming out within the next five years. That would be so awesome. Thanks for your tips. Will follow them if it gets badly again. Right now, the writing has helped a lot, feeling better right now at the moment.

Really, thanks man for your tips.

 

[Danny Boy]

You know, Im so thankful for your post. It just gave me a little boost of confidence. But I know that I will just fall into the same thinking tomorrow when I wake up, again. I always try to be positive about it, distracting myself when it gets bad, listening to white noise etc., but its so damn hard to keep it up for many weeks or even months if nothing is changing at all and deep in yourself, you are afraid of the noise.

I understand the need to protect my ears. I just want to to know when sound is going to be damaging because I cant estimate it at all. I like to hear music loud and sometimes, I just get ahead of myself and turn the speakers up for 1 or 2 songs. Its not like I turn the volume up to max, but around halfway to max and Im still thinking if this is too much because I dont know at all, really.

I really hope that there will be a cure in my lifetime (which I am positive about) but on other forums people say that tinnitus is so damn complex that it will take a few centuries till maybe a cure is developed.

Right now I am testing out a new therapy where you listen to frequency filtered music to reduce the volume of your T. The therapy is recommended, clinically tested and a positive effect on T has been proven. I have only read and heard positive thinks about it online and from my doctor who has tinnitus himself and I hope it will reduce the volume. This is one of my only lights out there.

The problem with my sleeping disorder was 3 years ago. There was just one cure and that was to not give a shit about sleeping badly and being tired the next day anymore. Because my only problem was my thinking. I was even afraid of going to bed and not falling asleep. Somehow the same thing doesnt work for my T however. :/

Actually, to be serious, it did get better the last few months, but the progress is so slow, that I feel it will take 2-3 years until I finally habituate and accept it.

But anyway, thank you for your post, it just gave me a little hope!



Thanks for your post, really appreciate it. Yeah, Ive read about a british article about treatments for tinnitus coming out within the next five years. That would be so awesome. Thanks for your tips. Will follow them if it gets badly again. Right now, the writing has helped a lot, feeling better right now at the moment.

Really, thanks man for your tips.

Trust me Autifony's drug is working really well and you won't need to wait 50 years, whoever said that is rather foolish and shouldn't depress people. Hope is what we all need and honestly, I already know treatments will be out sooner than we all will expect! Good luck to you and honestly don't listen to those people, listen to us.

 

[Karen]

Right now I am testing out a new therapy where you listen to frequency filtered music to reduce the volume of your T. The therapy is recommended, clinically tested and a positive effect on T has been proven. I have only read and heard positive thinks about it online and from my doctor who has tinnitus himself and I hope it will reduce the volume. This is one of my only lights out there.

I'm glad we were able to help you this evening, and glad to hear that you're trying this sound therapy. I truly hope it works for you; maybe that's why your tinnitus has improved slightly. Keep it up, and see what happens. Do let us know how it has worked for you!

I certainly understand what you mean about the sleep disorder. When my T and pulsatile tinnitus started five years ago, I had a sleep disorder, too. I was really afraid of bedtime, because lying down in the quiet was so awful. (I have a high-pitched tone, plus I can hear my heartbeat in my ear, 24/7). It has taken me awhile to get back to where I can go to sleep normally again -- but it really is possible!

The main thing is, you have to be patient with this disorder. I know it's hard, but do give it time, and don't give up!! That's the best advice I can give you. Things will look better in time!

Hugs,
Karen

 

[Danny Boy]

I'm glad we were able to help you this evening, and glad to hear that you're trying this sound therapy. I truly hope it works for you; maybe that's why your tinnitus has improved slightly. Keep it up, and see what happens. Do let us know how it has worked for you!

I certainly understand what you mean about the sleep disorder. When my T and pulsatile tinnitus started five years ago, I had a sleep disorder, too. I was really afraid of bedtime, because lying down in the quiet was so awful. (I have a high-pitched tone, plus I can hear my heartbeat in my ear, 24/7). It has taken me awhile to get back to where I can go to sleep normally again -- but it really is possible!

The main thing is, you have to be patient with this disorder. I know it's hard, but do give it time, and don't give up!! That's the best advice I can give you. Things will look better in time!

Hugs,
Karen

Also Karen is now immortal...She drinks the immortality tea ^_^.

 

[Keithbob]

Love this post. There's me worrying about getting on with life without normal things like tea.coffee.beer etc.
Cheered me up no end.
Xx

 

[Chris Alexander]

@r_ve

Hey man - sorry things are not that good for you just now. I developed T on June 1st 2015 and it hit me like a ton of bricks - or specifically the anxiety hit me. After a month it gradually died down and now I get the occasional spike for a minute or so but it is still there.

However my advice to anyone is to get any panic/anxiety you under control. This is the real root of the problem, not the T.

As for slepping - get an anti histamine called ' Phenegran '.... one of the side effects is that it makes you REALLY sleepy. It is over the counter however you need a prescription to get it for sleeping. Just tell them you have hay fever.

Keep your chin up buddy, we have all been there ( even now I still have my panicky moments ) but things will get better.

Good luck

 

[Vipul B]

Hello guys,
I am a 37 year old male. Life was very smooth until I got tinnitus 3 months back all of a sudden in my right ear and has ruined my life. My T is so loud that I can hear it 24 hrs no matter what I do or how busy I am. I hear 3 to 4 sounds, all of them at high, screaming frequencies. Particularly, one sound is like short circuiting of electrical wires which doesn't let my my mind ignore or habituate to it. I did MRI, CT scan, audiometry and tympanometry which confirmed that I have a mild-moderate (30 - 45 db) hearing loss at all frequencies in right ear and mild fenestral otosclerosis. I visited many doctors and all have different stories. Some say I have conductive hearing loss and some say I have sensori + conductive hearing loss. A Neuro surgeon said that a blood vessel is going very close to my auditory nerve which needs to be separated/insulated by operating on my brain. But I don't believe this as my T is not pulsatile. One ENT specialist said that my otosclerosis is not that significant to cause such a loud T which means I have a sensori neural loss too. I am going through a very bad phase and having suicidal thoughts. I am currently taking help of hearing aid with masking music (Widex Zen therapy) to suppress T. I want to share a strange observation. Whenever I wear my hearing aid, after a minute I start hearing T from my left ear. But when I remove the hearing aid, after some time T disappears from my left ear and gets concentrated in my right ear. Did any one else also have this experience? Does it mean I have T in my left ear too? Moreover, the short circuiting type sound is not being masked by the hearing aid. Because of this, my hearing aid is also not helping much. Friends, give me hope.