Now, I'm sure that this theory isn't original, and I'm also sure that every smartass who gets tinnitus comes up with some Grand Theory of Tinnitus that will lead to a solution.
But I've thought for a long time about how I think about tinnitus. I've noticed how I think about tinnitus with and without masking, with and without stress, etc.
I've come to the conclusion that both before and after "getting" tinnitus, I can only think about one thing at a time. When I say that I am thinking about more than one thing, I actually mean that I am quickly switching between things.
This was hard to believe at first, but when I really paid attention to my thoughts, I never saw anything to contradict this. I've never been thinking about something not related to tinnitus, and also thinking about tinnitus, at exactly the same moment.
So the tinnitus isn't the problem, the only problem is the mechanism that "moves" ,my thoughts from one target to another. It is a huge problem, but that's where the problem is!
So, why do I have a mechanism that constantly moves my thoughts onto tinnitus, when that is the worst thing I could possibly do? What purpose does this mechanism have? Why is it reinforced?
I have decided that there is only one possible theory: I am addicted to being unhappy. Never mind the tinnitus. I'm an unhappiness junkie. I've lived in unhappiness for so long that I crave it.
But I've thought for a long time about how I think about tinnitus. I've noticed how I think about tinnitus with and without masking, with and without stress, etc.
I've come to the conclusion that both before and after "getting" tinnitus, I can only think about one thing at a time. When I say that I am thinking about more than one thing, I actually mean that I am quickly switching between things.
This was hard to believe at first, but when I really paid attention to my thoughts, I never saw anything to contradict this. I've never been thinking about something not related to tinnitus, and also thinking about tinnitus, at exactly the same moment.
So the tinnitus isn't the problem, the only problem is the mechanism that "moves" ,my thoughts from one target to another. It is a huge problem, but that's where the problem is!
So, why do I have a mechanism that constantly moves my thoughts onto tinnitus, when that is the worst thing I could possibly do? What purpose does this mechanism have? Why is it reinforced?
I have decided that there is only one possible theory: I am addicted to being unhappy. Never mind the tinnitus. I'm an unhappiness junkie. I've lived in unhappiness for so long that I crave it.