Hi everyone. This is Emrik. I find this forum EXTREMELY helpful. I really mean it. This is THE forum where I could find some peaceful advice and friendly members. So, I thought, I can share my story just to feel that I could talk to someone about my pain where the listeners understand.
On January 12th, 2017, I was testing a new Subwoofer from Bose. I was so excited. When I was setting up my home theater system, I wanted to make sure that my new subwoofer is working. So, I searched for a high bass music from youtube and played. Also, I increased the volume. Oh, that was the time I wish I knew!!
. The subwoofer made my head shaking a bit. Maybe for 1 minute, I was listening to it. After that, I did not realize that I was attacked by Tinnitus. The next morning, I could hear the high pitched sound. I was wondering, why it is still there. Anyway, I searched the internet and wow, what the hell !! I learned it is called Tinnitus. And THERE IS NO CURE. Ironically, I found the medical pages where it says, Tinnitus is suicidal. As if, People NEEDS to Suicide.... I can't explain, how helpless and paranoid I started to become from that moment.
I passed my first and second day, and No, it did not go away. I started searching Google and ... oh no, more and more horror stories. I was thinking, I will loose my job, I will be broke and if I won't be able to sleep and spend some time by myself, what is the point living.
One night, I could not sleep, because of the high pitch sound, I was more paranoid and I could hear more sound. Then, I started jumping, crying, screaming with fear and I started holding my loving family members as if preparing to terminate my life because, according to the internet, THAT WAS THE WAY. (I know, I acted stupidly. I know, the fear that it won't go made me act stupid.)
My family members forcefully took me to the Emergency in the local hospital. I did not want to go because I already learned that doctor has no cure. But, my family members could not understand why I was saying so. The asked 'Do you know more than doctors ?' Of course, there must be a cure. Anyway, the doctor in the emergency was annoyed to find that, I went to Emergency JUST FOR T !!. She said, we cannot do anything about it. You will have to just live with it. Yeah, I knew that a doctor would say so. Because I read on the internet.
Okay, then, I found that there is a Tinnitus clinic in Montreal. I went there, they found I had a high-frequency hearing loss. But, other than offering rTMS and some sound therapy (which did not work on me), they could not offer anything solid. I went to ENT, and ENT doctor said, I have my ear perfectly fine. My Tinnitus can be gone if I calm down and get rid of stress (he noticed that I was almost crying with stress). Anyway, I did not find any useful result from ENT either. I sought help with 2 different GP. GPs are awesome. They can directly tell that, you can die with Tinnitus. Tinnitus can never go etc..etc..
I read that Anxiety and Stress can cause Tinnitus. In Montreal tinnitus clinic, the director also told me that. But, who does not have some level of stress and anxiety !! He said subwoofer is not the cause of my tinnitus. The cause is something else. I got more confused. I understand that the answer to the question 'Will my T go away' depends on the cause of my Tinnitus. But, no doctor is helping me to find out exactly what is the cause of my T.
Recently, I found this forum where someone was saying, T can go away by 1-3 months. Now, that is my only hope. Every day, I try to convince myself that my T will go away by 1-3 months. I came across a thread https://www.tinnitustalk.com/threads/is-there-a-chance-my-tinnitus-will-go-away.5972/
That thread is really inspiring me as I see, many members are saying that it can go away by 1-3 months. Only after reading some positive conversations in this forum, I could calm myself.
In this forum, I found another member who also got T from Subwoofer, and I was very excited to find that Subwoofer can be a Cause of T. If that is true, then, just for a few moment of Subwoofer may not cause permanent T. But I am sooooooooo scared to ask that member directly if his T went away or not. IF he says, NO it is still there, then, I will get a big shock, which can make my T worse.
It is almost a month. I had few days when I was doing better, I did not notice T and I passed many moments when I completely forgot T.
Everyone talks about sound masker, white noise, black noise etc... but no colorful noise helps me. Rather, those noise makes me more frustrated as if I am disabled. Also, I feel like, my T competes with those noises and become louder so that I can hear my T over those stupid noises.
Recently, I have some moments when I do not notice T, then I feel hurray, my T is gone. Oh!! as soon as I think so, T comes back.. Now, I can realize that, it can be possible to completely CURE myself of T, if it were possible to simply ERASE the part of my memory where I know about T. Because, The moment, I remember that I have T, that very moment, it attacks me and go louder.
Yes, I was exposed to some loud music several days ago, before the day when I was attacked by T. I was standing by Big speakers in a TV shop where the music was really loud. Not sure, if that started the condition for T and finally it was triggered by the subwoofer.
I do not have any habit of listening music in loud volume using headphones. And very few times in my life, I went to Night Clubs.
Now, I dot not know what to do. I know, everyone's case is unique. Based on my case, do you have any good news for me? Is there any chance that my Tinnitus will go away? Do you have any advice that can help?
On January 12th, 2017, I was testing a new Subwoofer from Bose. I was so excited. When I was setting up my home theater system, I wanted to make sure that my new subwoofer is working. So, I searched for a high bass music from youtube and played. Also, I increased the volume. Oh, that was the time I wish I knew!!
. The subwoofer made my head shaking a bit. Maybe for 1 minute, I was listening to it. After that, I did not realize that I was attacked by Tinnitus. The next morning, I could hear the high pitched sound. I was wondering, why it is still there. Anyway, I searched the internet and wow, what the hell !! I learned it is called Tinnitus. And THERE IS NO CURE. Ironically, I found the medical pages where it says, Tinnitus is suicidal. As if, People NEEDS to Suicide.... I can't explain, how helpless and paranoid I started to become from that moment.I passed my first and second day, and No, it did not go away. I started searching Google and ... oh no, more and more horror stories.
I was thinking, I will loose my job, I will be broke and if I won't be able to sleep and spend some time by myself, what is the point living.One night, I could not sleep, because of the high pitch sound, I was more paranoid and I could hear more sound. Then, I started jumping, crying, screaming with fear and I started holding my loving family members as if preparing to terminate my life because, according to the internet, THAT WAS THE WAY. (I know, I acted stupidly. I know, the fear that it won't go made me act stupid.)
My family members forcefully took me to the Emergency in the local hospital. I did not want to go because I already learned that doctor has no cure. But, my family members could not understand why I was saying so. The asked 'Do you know more than doctors ?' Of course, there must be a cure. Anyway, the doctor in the emergency was annoyed to find that, I went to Emergency JUST FOR T !!. She said, we cannot do anything about it. You will have to just live with it. Yeah, I knew that a doctor would say so. Because I read on the internet.
Okay, then, I found that there is a Tinnitus clinic in Montreal. I went there, they found I had a high-frequency hearing loss. But, other than offering rTMS and some sound therapy (which did not work on me), they could not offer anything solid. I went to ENT, and ENT doctor said, I have my ear perfectly fine. My Tinnitus can be gone if I calm down and get rid of stress (he noticed that I was almost crying with stress). Anyway, I did not find any useful result from ENT either. I sought help with 2 different GP. GPs are awesome. They can directly tell that, you can die with Tinnitus. Tinnitus can never go etc..etc..
I read that Anxiety and Stress can cause Tinnitus. In Montreal tinnitus clinic, the director also told me that. But, who does not have some level of stress and anxiety !! He said subwoofer is not the cause of my tinnitus. The cause is something else. I got more confused. I understand that the answer to the question 'Will my T go away' depends on the cause of my Tinnitus. But, no doctor is helping me to find out exactly what is the cause of my T.
Recently, I found this forum where someone was saying, T can go away by 1-3 months. Now, that is my only hope. Every day, I try to convince myself that my T will go away by 1-3 months. I came across a thread https://www.tinnitustalk.com/threads/is-there-a-chance-my-tinnitus-will-go-away.5972/
That thread is really inspiring me as I see, many members are saying that it can go away by 1-3 months. Only after reading some positive conversations in this forum, I could calm myself.
In this forum, I found another member who also got T from Subwoofer, and I was very excited to find that Subwoofer can be a Cause of T. If that is true, then, just for a few moment of Subwoofer may not cause permanent T. But I am sooooooooo scared to ask that member directly if his T went away or not. IF he says, NO it is still there, then, I will get a big shock, which can make my T worse.
It is almost a month. I had few days when I was doing better, I did not notice T and I passed many moments when I completely forgot T.
Everyone talks about sound masker, white noise, black noise etc... but no colorful noise helps me. Rather, those noise makes me more frustrated as if I am disabled. Also, I feel like, my T competes with those noises and become louder so that I can hear my T over those stupid noises.
Recently, I have some moments when I do not notice T, then I feel hurray, my T is gone. Oh!! as soon as I think so, T comes back.
. Now, I can realize that, it can be possible to completely CURE myself of T, if it were possible to simply ERASE the part of my memory where I know about T. Because, The moment, I remember that I have T, that very moment, it attacks me and go louder.Yes, I was exposed to some loud music several days ago, before the day when I was attacked by T. I was standing by Big speakers in a TV shop where the music was really loud. Not sure, if that started the condition for T and finally it was triggered by the subwoofer.
I do not have any habit of listening music in loud volume using headphones. And very few times in my life, I went to Night Clubs.
Now, I dot not know what to do. I know, everyone's case is unique. Based on my case, do you have any good news for me? Is there any chance that my Tinnitus will go away? Do you have any advice that can help?
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