Hello. My name is Rodrigo, I'm 18 years old, I live in El Salvador, located in Central America.
I finally had the balls to come and open my account here in Tinnitus Talk, something I had been afraid to do for this 2 months I've had the T, but tonight I decided "You know what? Fuck it, if it's going to heal, it'll be, if it's not, well...whatever" and here I am, finally accepting the fact that, yes, I HAVE TINNITUS.
It wasn't easy to get to this point though, I first noticed my T one night when I was trying to sleep, I've had the T before as a result of an Otitis, but it faded away after a few days or weeks, don't really remember. Having the T was always one of my worst fears, and life has challenged me this way. As a normal person, I got desperate, I cried, I yelled, I lost sleep, I became an emotional wreck. I have visited my ENT just once, because he says that my Tinnitus comes from a blockage on the eustachian tube, probably caused because of a jaw problem I have. So I'll visit him again in a few days since the treatment he gave me has done nothing. I won't lie, I'm very afraid, I still get anxious about the T at times, because for a while I couldn't hear it, but now it's back, I think it never went away, I just stopped paying attention to it because of a technique someone posted in here, but now I'm paying attention to it again, and here I am, afraid, but not defeated. I was an emotional wreck for a couple of weeks, I even looked for ways to commit suicide without feeling any pain, but later on I decided I couldn't be such a weak person. I have always been the kind of person who likes to fight even in the hardest of situations, and this will not be the exception, I will go to the last resource I have to fight my T, and if it doesn't go away, I won't fall apart and cry over it my entire life, I will keep living, because I have so many goals and dreams to accomplish in my life. I want to finish my major, I want to graduate, I wanna move to Sweden and I wanna have my own P.R company, I want to have a fancy apartment, share it with my loved one and enjoy life, drink a margarita in Santorini, eat pasta in Italy, kiss my loved one in Paris, go shopping with no budget, buy a dog, love my family. I have so many things I want to fight for, I won't let a stupid sound stop me from that, I will fight everyday, and if I ever feel I can't, I will get strenght from who knows where to keep fighting!
This is my short, but for me, meaningful story.
It's nice to be here, we are all fighters, we are all fabulous as I like to say.
Cheers! For a wonderful life.
Rodrigo.
I finally had the balls to come and open my account here in Tinnitus Talk, something I had been afraid to do for this 2 months I've had the T, but tonight I decided "You know what? Fuck it, if it's going to heal, it'll be, if it's not, well...whatever" and here I am, finally accepting the fact that, yes, I HAVE TINNITUS.
It wasn't easy to get to this point though, I first noticed my T one night when I was trying to sleep, I've had the T before as a result of an Otitis, but it faded away after a few days or weeks, don't really remember. Having the T was always one of my worst fears, and life has challenged me this way. As a normal person, I got desperate, I cried, I yelled, I lost sleep, I became an emotional wreck. I have visited my ENT just once, because he says that my Tinnitus comes from a blockage on the eustachian tube, probably caused because of a jaw problem I have. So I'll visit him again in a few days since the treatment he gave me has done nothing. I won't lie, I'm very afraid, I still get anxious about the T at times, because for a while I couldn't hear it, but now it's back, I think it never went away, I just stopped paying attention to it because of a technique someone posted in here, but now I'm paying attention to it again, and here I am, afraid, but not defeated. I was an emotional wreck for a couple of weeks, I even looked for ways to commit suicide without feeling any pain, but later on I decided I couldn't be such a weak person. I have always been the kind of person who likes to fight even in the hardest of situations, and this will not be the exception, I will go to the last resource I have to fight my T, and if it doesn't go away, I won't fall apart and cry over it my entire life, I will keep living, because I have so many goals and dreams to accomplish in my life. I want to finish my major, I want to graduate, I wanna move to Sweden and I wanna have my own P.R company, I want to have a fancy apartment, share it with my loved one and enjoy life, drink a margarita in Santorini, eat pasta in Italy, kiss my loved one in Paris, go shopping with no budget, buy a dog, love my family. I have so many things I want to fight for, I won't let a stupid sound stop me from that, I will fight everyday, and if I ever feel I can't, I will get strenght from who knows where to keep fighting!
This is my short, but for me, meaningful story.
It's nice to be here, we are all fighters, we are all fabulous as I like to say.
Cheers! For a wonderful life.
Rodrigo.
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