Hello everyone, been reading for a bit and just wanted to introduce myself and add my story here.
One month ago I did the stupidest thing I've ever done.
Since working from home, I decided to get myself a top of the line audiophile-worthy setup to listen to music while I work. Expensive studio headphones, specialized DAC and amp. It was pretty good for a while, but then my DAC started giving me scratching sounds and I unplugged the whole thing and was just listening through the laptop plug. But then a month ago, I thought, I'll switch the plugs a bit and see if I can fix the scratchiness and get the setup working again. I plug everything back in, things light up again, and then, like an idiot, I decide to test my headphone setup by putting them directly on my head and pressing play to some techno music that was queued up in Spotify. What I hadn't noticed is that my amp was turned up, all the way up.
I blasted my ear with one of the loudest things I've ever heard. According to the headphone's sensitivity, resistance, and the output of my amp, it was around 130 dB. I have a hard time believing that math, to be honest, so it may have been less. But it was intense. I quickly turned it down, so my ears were only exposed to that sound for a few seconds, but immediately after I just felt this pain in my neck and was so incredibly thirsty. My ears didn't start ringing immediately, but things felt very off.
At first I was concerned about hearing loss. Did a few tests online, and it seemed okay? So I was feeling better, but my ears felt odd. And then the tinnitus started. At first it was mild. Got it checked at a clinic, and they said "Eh, couple of days, you'll be fine, you just have a lot of earwax." Then it just kept getting louder and louder. I've been through a few things in my life: heart attack, cancer. Heart attack actually wasn't too bad, and I was okay with the lifetime consequences of that, and the surgery for cancer sucked, but at least every day improved. This is just... something else entirely.
Went to see a doctor, and they cleaned out the earwax using a kind of irrigation thing, hoping that it was just earwax related, and they prescribed me Ciprodex. This actually just made it even louder, and it changed the tone for a few days.
I refused to take the Ciprodex, and then recently found out that Fluoroquinolone, which is in Ciprofloxacin, has an FDA warning for people with my specific genetic condition, and for people who have heart problems (along a bunch of other wonderful things it can do.) The warning is not for the ear drops, but I'd rather not play around on the off chance that this could rip open my aorta.
My doctor insists Ciprodex is super safe, and since my ear canals are quite red, that it must be some sort of infection, and that the tinnitus is just in my head, something I made up by imagining this is one of the consequences of the headphones. Not a whole lot of alternatives around, but I'm hoping that it instead subsides naturally. Still, every day, neck pain, headache, and of course, the tinnitus (and some hyperacusis, but actually fairly lucky on that front, minus when dishes clang together.)
So, I've been trying to still take the steps to get to the bottom of any issue, see if there has been hearing loss (audiologist appointment soon, ENTs are really unavailable where I am though), and just learn to not fight against the tinnitus and coexist with it. You all know how hard it is... It depends on how strong I'm feeling on a day to be able to cope with it or just wallow in regret. There's no point in wallowing though, we can't time travel and I'm just making myself miserable, so all I can do is live with it until it either goes away, gets better, or I get better at dealing with it. I have to not catastrophize, and not get too attached on how this wasn't there before. That this life now, this is early, and to go with the flow. But it's one thing to know this, and it's another to really be it.
So, that's my story, of how I got too hung up on sound quality, spent a bunch of money on something dangerous, and then didn't check the volume before pressing play, and now I'm here.
One month ago I did the stupidest thing I've ever done.
Since working from home, I decided to get myself a top of the line audiophile-worthy setup to listen to music while I work. Expensive studio headphones, specialized DAC and amp. It was pretty good for a while, but then my DAC started giving me scratching sounds and I unplugged the whole thing and was just listening through the laptop plug. But then a month ago, I thought, I'll switch the plugs a bit and see if I can fix the scratchiness and get the setup working again. I plug everything back in, things light up again, and then, like an idiot, I decide to test my headphone setup by putting them directly on my head and pressing play to some techno music that was queued up in Spotify. What I hadn't noticed is that my amp was turned up, all the way up.
I blasted my ear with one of the loudest things I've ever heard. According to the headphone's sensitivity, resistance, and the output of my amp, it was around 130 dB. I have a hard time believing that math, to be honest, so it may have been less. But it was intense. I quickly turned it down, so my ears were only exposed to that sound for a few seconds, but immediately after I just felt this pain in my neck and was so incredibly thirsty. My ears didn't start ringing immediately, but things felt very off.
At first I was concerned about hearing loss. Did a few tests online, and it seemed okay? So I was feeling better, but my ears felt odd. And then the tinnitus started. At first it was mild. Got it checked at a clinic, and they said "Eh, couple of days, you'll be fine, you just have a lot of earwax." Then it just kept getting louder and louder. I've been through a few things in my life: heart attack, cancer. Heart attack actually wasn't too bad, and I was okay with the lifetime consequences of that, and the surgery for cancer sucked, but at least every day improved. This is just... something else entirely.
Went to see a doctor, and they cleaned out the earwax using a kind of irrigation thing, hoping that it was just earwax related, and they prescribed me Ciprodex. This actually just made it even louder, and it changed the tone for a few days.
I refused to take the Ciprodex, and then recently found out that Fluoroquinolone, which is in Ciprofloxacin, has an FDA warning for people with my specific genetic condition, and for people who have heart problems (along a bunch of other wonderful things it can do.) The warning is not for the ear drops, but I'd rather not play around on the off chance that this could rip open my aorta.
My doctor insists Ciprodex is super safe, and since my ear canals are quite red, that it must be some sort of infection, and that the tinnitus is just in my head, something I made up by imagining this is one of the consequences of the headphones. Not a whole lot of alternatives around, but I'm hoping that it instead subsides naturally. Still, every day, neck pain, headache, and of course, the tinnitus (and some hyperacusis, but actually fairly lucky on that front, minus when dishes clang together.)
So, I've been trying to still take the steps to get to the bottom of any issue, see if there has been hearing loss (audiologist appointment soon, ENTs are really unavailable where I am though), and just learn to not fight against the tinnitus and coexist with it. You all know how hard it is... It depends on how strong I'm feeling on a day to be able to cope with it or just wallow in regret. There's no point in wallowing though, we can't time travel and I'm just making myself miserable, so all I can do is live with it until it either goes away, gets better, or I get better at dealing with it. I have to not catastrophize, and not get too attached on how this wasn't there before. That this life now, this is early, and to go with the flow. But it's one thing to know this, and it's another to really be it.
So, that's my story, of how I got too hung up on sound quality, spent a bunch of money on something dangerous, and then didn't check the volume before pressing play, and now I'm here.