Tonight I fly to San Diego. Tomorrow I get my first round of injections.
PRE-TRIAL SCREENING T LEVEL
On my little HTC thingy (which I was able to use and submit all through my trip to SE Asia--miraculously, it had a global roaming SIM and was neither lost nor destroyed by yours truly), I've been faithfully reporting my T daily. I only missed one day, and ironically it was just an ordinary day after I had returned to the USA! For the record, loudness and annoyance have been steady, alternating between
4 and
5 (maybe someone with better perspective would call it a 3). The 1-10 scale is inherently subjective, but in terms of making a baseline of comparison others can relate to, I would say it's not loud enough to drown out conversations at any volume (and I pray it never becomes that). And yet (infuriatingly) it's also too high-pitched to be masked (save by running water or cicada noises (similar to
@Martin69...and like him, I was also under huge health anxiety around the time T started). I can still sleep without a masker (well, I wake up often throughout the night, but I was battling insomnia for months before T hit). I can sometimes forget about the T and not notice it for hours at a time now.
PRE-TRIAL HEARING TESTS
My hearing tests all came back normal...tymp, including one that went into the super high frequencies. For a 31 year old, my hearing tests are as good as could be expected. I have dropoff starting at 12.5 (becomes a ski slope at that point, with 30db @ 12.5khz, 40db @14khz, 50 db @16khz. Given that my T is super-high-pitched, it's at least possible that there is damage there causing the T, but it's equally likely this is a normal reading for a 31 year old
So many thoughts...
- What if I get placebo and spend 3 months of the window of opportunity doing nothing? (at least I'd get the 1st real guaranteed round before 6 months is up)
- What if I happen to be the unlucky minority who has issues with eardrum closure or worsened T?
- What if I just have the wrong sort of T that can't be touched by this and I'm barking up the wrong tree? If stress was the trigger, I think most models of how that works are purely in the brain, although there are some people on TT hypothesizing about a "glutamate storm"...
I would like to thank the
@attheedgeofscience for his tireless advocacy in favor of...well, science
Without all the information he has worked to bring to this site, I don't think I ever would have gone through with this. And thanks to
@OddV for having a good experience. I must have read his experience a hundred times for hope.
If anyone is really bored, I may try to livestream it on Periscope (my twitter handle is @SirKneeland)