Awesome! Huge congrats, luck. I honestly knew they were going to hire you lol. There's too much quality in you (both professionally and as a person). Can't pass that up. I'll take a look at this disability confident scheme too. Much appreciated.
I was contacted by them today and they said they would like to get to know me better (good sign!?). We set up another on-site meeting for Monday. I'll be spending half the day there meeting a bunch of people in the company and answering some of their questions.
Guessing I'll need to show them that I'm really interested (which I am) and enthusiastic about working there and a good fit. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't nervous. Meeting a bunch of new faces has always made me anxious (social anxiety as a teenager). But I've gotten way better at it as I've grown older (especially with tinnitus now), I feel like tinnitus has changed me, the stuff I used to worry about before tinnitus seem trivial to me now, so hopefully the nerves won't get to me that much.
Hey, I was wondering how you've been faring in your new job so far? Are you liking it? I know you haven't been doing too great healthwise which sucks. You had to take a day off due to it, but I'm sure they were understanding.
So sorry to hear, I can't imagine how hard that is. I wish I knew what to say to help you through this. Hope it'll pass for you soon...
I am with @ZFire. Wishing you better days and hoping your condition settles down into remission status and better.
Sorry @ZFire, that was a horrid post to get back in return. You caught me in a very dark moment. I'm just so frustrated because I was reclaiming my life again after tinnitus, and now this. It's not fair to my daughter either.
Well, that's nice to hear at least. You don't have to apologize for anything btw. That's what I like about you, you keep it real, tell it how it is.
I actually messaged my doctor today asking him about Amitriptyline, he told me it's a similar tricyclic to Nortriptyline (which I'm still taking), but not entirely. Amitriptyline turns into Nortriptyline once it's in the body according to him. I'm guessing the side effects might be similar then too which in that case, you might have some dry mouth, nausea, and drowsiness in the beginning like I did. No tinnitus spikes or anything like that at all though.
Just have to keep reminding myself about all the good things in my life. I'm actually thinking of asking my doctor to switch me to Nortriptyline. Seems people do better with this drug.
I hope you're hired! And the WFH part sounds really good
Hey Juan, thanks! You know every time I google nosiest cities in the world, NYC always seems to make the top 10 from most of the lists I've seen. But yeah you're right, there are cities in India and China that are way more noisier. Those places have much bigger population size after all.I hope you're hired! And the WFH part sounds really good
As for noise, how would NYC be in the top 10 noisiest cities? My guess is any Indian city would be noisier, also Chinese cities, and a ton of other places...
For me one lovely city is Vienna. It's quiet, clean, in general things work properly... In Spain the main source of noise are motorbikes, absurd gardening (gardening to keep lawns in a place with no rain at all - besides wasting tons of water...), cleaning the streets (how did they fare with a rake a few decades ago, are those leaf-blowers really needed?)
Construction noise is another big problem here. Central Park is truly one of the few safe spots and I'll always use the park as an alternative route to get to my destination. It has a great cycling path.Is it expensive to maintain a car in NYC? I mean, are parking spaces expensive, as in Tokyo or Hong Kong?
I currently live near Barcelona. I try to avoid going to the city; actually I only go there less than once a month on average, and some years I have been to Barcelona city like... twice in the whole year. Barcelona is just horrible in terms of noise. There are these super loud motorbikes everywhere, and all the delivery drivers. The main noise source are motorbikes and there are a ton of them, and drivers make them loud on purpose, they alter the bikes to be noisier. Restaurants, cafés and bars tend to be noisier than elsewhere in Spain... and that means very noisy.
It can get real expensive. It depends on where you live (the 5 boroughs of NYC). But if you live in the Manhattan borough, hell no to owning a car. It's a nightmare and too much of hassle. Garage parking is crazy expensive. It costs anywhere between $600-1000 US dollars monthly. Public parking is free but you can spend hours just trying to find a spot because they're either all taken or other desperate drivers beat you to that spot. There's also many areas where you're not allowed to park. You need to be at the right place at the right time. It's all luck really.
I am very happy that you got the job. Congratulations! I read your other posts so that's how I know.
Yes to some extent. It's like you said, keeping yourself very busy and distracted with other things makes you stop thinking about tinnitus and even the reactivity too. When I was preparing for interviews extensively, I could hear it loud and clear, but I didn't care because I was too caught up with trying to do all I can in getting hired. And the actual in-person interviews themselves went smoothly. Tinnitus was not at the forefront of my mind when I was answering their questions and meeting the people who work there. The previous time I failed, I ran into issues dealing with phonophobia and the fear of my tinnitus getting worse from noise threats around me. It's more difficult to function normally when these thoughts occur too.
I think many of us still feel the same and it's totally normal. It's not your fault what happen to you, remember that. The best thing we can do now is try to build on something new. That's all we can do really.
It's definitely the most challenging things I've ever faced too. I had no idea how sophisticated tinnitus can get. Such a rude awakening.
I really feel for you. I would say, try not to compare yourself to others. It's easier said than done especially with something like reactive tinnitus, but it doesn't do you any good to keep ruminating about it. These people you're comparing yourself to, are you really sure their lives are all good and happy? They could be hiding some hardships that they don't want people to know. The only person you should be competing with is yourself. We are all products of our situations. We're all dealt with a different set of cards and the only thing we can do is make the most of what life has given us. Don't beat yourself up over it.
Hey, I apologize since my response is late because I haven't been on here much. I hope you had an awesome Halloween by the way. I haven't had time to post because of work and other stuff in my life but I'll give an update.
Reactive tinnitus sucks. I'm still in disbelief that such a thing could actually exist. No one should have to deal with that. But it's good to hear you are coping and managing more better as time goes by. That's all we can ask of ourselves at this point.
It seems like you have an interest in problem solving which I must say is a great way to distract oneself from tinnitus. Diamond panting sounds neat. If I could offer you some more hobbies to try, might I suggest building model kits? I used to build Gundam model kits when I was younger and it was a great way to pass the time (stress free too). You focus on the steps in the directions and you build something from nothing. There are beginner kits for newcomers, but the more advanced ones allow for more creativity (requires you to paint). You could also get yourself a Rubick's cube and try mastering it. Pick it up anytime you feel like solving it.
Video games is in my DNA. If I had all the free time in the world, that's all I'd be doing to be honest. It has been one of the best ways for me to cope with tinnitus. Unfortunately, I don't have much time for it anymore, but I do try to keep myself up to date with the latest gaming news.
Yeah I know the feeling. The reactivity in music sucks the enjoyment out of it sometimes. I just power through those moments. Maybe you could try muting the music volume and just keep the sound effects on. I think it'll have less impact on your reactivity. Not sure though.
Don't listen to these people. It all really depends on the genre. If it's a rhythm game, then yes sound is important, but most genres you can get by with no sound. These people don't realize there are many gamers out there who are completely deaf and it hasn't stopped them from finding enjoyment in the hobby. Music is great in video games, that's true but it doesn't make or break a game IMO. There's lots of other things that go into making a great video game. You could have good music, but if the gameplay design sucks, then I won't be playing it.
I've said it before and I'll say it again: Slay the Spire. I clocked in 300 hours last year. I believe it's available on mobile. No volume is needed. I actually prefer if there's no volume for that game because the music and sound effects isn't anything special. But the gameplay is fantastic.
Thank you so much for your response ZFire
I really appreciate it. Yeah I was thinking of also buying one of those miniature doll house kits from this arts and crafts store that I really like, it's called Hobby Lobby. They have great things for crafts. I wanted to also learn sewing. I heard that it's best to take a class on how to sew but I worry how well I'll be able to concentrate with the reactivity but I figured maybe I can learn how to do it from books. I know there's YouTube videos on how to sew too but yeah I'd have to really concentrate since I would also have to listen while I'm watching so hopefully I can still learn by listening despite the reactivity but I guess I'd have to concentrate harder than if I didn't have it. You can also do other things with fabric besides sewing. I look at different ways to use stuff when reading on the internet. If I do ever learn to sew, I'll probably stick with making pillows and maybe blankets because it just seems easier to sew. I have sewed before but only sewed a few simple things and it's been years.
Absolutely, it's okay to play those games on mute.
To be honest with you, I don't even know anymore myself. But I'm starting to lean towards there being a distinction between reactive tinnitus and hyperacusis as time goes on. It's been over a year for me and while my loudness hyperacusis has improved in dramatic fashion, the reactivity of my tinnitus can still be very much perceptible daily. We then have people like you and others who don't experience any of the common symptoms that is known for hyperacusis like sensitivity issues and ear pain, but have reactive tinnitus solely. I think reactive tinnitus might not always be hyperacusis. It can be separate.
Interesting question. No, I don't experience any reactivity in people's voices IRL as far as I know. I do experience tinnitus reactivity when people snore though. And strangely, my tinnitus does react to people's voices on TV sometimes. It doesn't happen that often though. My reactivity competes the most when I'm taking a shower, when cars pass by, any white noise, and listening to certain music, But like you, I try to focus elsewhere despite it reacting.
Much appreciated... I hope you''ll find some real enjoyment out those jigsaw puzzles and house kits.
Hi @brixenbrixen, the job is pretty good. I found out real quick that my job is actually a managerial position (it wasn't advertised as that at the time). It was a bit shocking and nerve wracking at the time because I've never worked in management ever. I had to learn the ropes fast and quick. I manage the company's entire payroll operation.
It's going to look good on my resume if I decide to look for a new job.
This is hilarious and so typical! I was a nervous wreck for my PhD interview but went in with some novel ideas, such as providing colour-blind accessible presentation slides, that landed well with the panel.
Are you still taking the Nortriptyline, @ZFire?
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