Some of you may know me as Hotaru. I've had tinnitus for 6.5 months now. Whether it was caused by the ear infection or the coming off anxiety medication has not been confirmed. It hasn't gotten better. It's still there.
I tried the AM-101 trial, most likely didn't get the real thing. I tried acupuncture, supplements, nothing.
I got so desperate I contacted "magic users" through spell sites and the like. I never believed in that stuff before, but since I had no other option, I looked into it. I paid four different healers; one even convinced me to give him my bank info. All that cost me about $4,000, including buying herbs from John of God, who is supposed to be the greatest healer in the world. Again, nothing. I fell for it.
Other health problems plague me: TMJ, bladder pain, and depression caused by these things. I went to the dentist two months ago, and she told me I had eight cavities. I don't understand how that could've happened. That broke me completely. I cried for a day until my parents called a suicide hotline and forced me to go to useless therapy and take depression meds that aren't working. Unless they can erase the ringing in my ears, I will not be okay.
I'm suicidal but yet can't find the courage to do it. I ask "God" for death everyday. I didn't deserve this. None of us do. I took great care of my ears and hearing. I was a good person before this. But now that I know this happens to people, I no longer see positives. I'm an empty shell, and unless the T goes away completely, there's no hope for me.
This disease should be taken seriously. There should be a cure by now. There is nothing worse than ringing in your skull. Why isn't there a cure? It makes no sense.
I tried the AM-101 trial, most likely didn't get the real thing. I tried acupuncture, supplements, nothing.
I got so desperate I contacted "magic users" through spell sites and the like. I never believed in that stuff before, but since I had no other option, I looked into it. I paid four different healers; one even convinced me to give him my bank info. All that cost me about $4,000, including buying herbs from John of God, who is supposed to be the greatest healer in the world. Again, nothing. I fell for it.
Other health problems plague me: TMJ, bladder pain, and depression caused by these things. I went to the dentist two months ago, and she told me I had eight cavities. I don't understand how that could've happened. That broke me completely. I cried for a day until my parents called a suicide hotline and forced me to go to useless therapy and take depression meds that aren't working. Unless they can erase the ringing in my ears, I will not be okay.
I'm suicidal but yet can't find the courage to do it. I ask "God" for death everyday. I didn't deserve this. None of us do. I took great care of my ears and hearing. I was a good person before this. But now that I know this happens to people, I no longer see positives. I'm an empty shell, and unless the T goes away completely, there's no hope for me.
This disease should be taken seriously. There should be a cure by now. There is nothing worse than ringing in your skull. Why isn't there a cure? It makes no sense.
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