Hi guys.
Man, I can't go a day without posting. I'm more in love with this forum than facebook and all my friends have been asking me if I'm ok coz I'm never on facebook anymore! Haha.
Anyway, a few questions:
1) I've been reading all I can about benzo withdrawal causing tinnitus and I'm still unsure. Surely if my tinnitus was from benzo withdrawal then I'd have it in both ears? (I only have it in my left). I was only on the bezo for about 3 weeks before stopping it and I've read that withdrawal only happens with chronic use? If benzo's caused it, I'll be so mad at myself coz I shouldn't have taken them in the first place
2) The noise is constant to matter what I do. If I sleep less, eat sugar, MSG, caffeine, anything it has zero effect on my tinnitus. I was hoping that if I changed my diet things might be different but they're not.
3) I have some Phonak hearing aids set to zero amplification. When I wear them I can still hear my tinnitus but not as bad. Why doesn't everyone with tinnitus get hearing aids? Wouldn't it help everyone a little bit? Is there a disadvantage in wearing aids?
4) I bought a ticking clock in an effort to prove to myself that you can habituate to new sounds. It's only been up for about 2 weeks and I already don't notice it ticking unless I think "oh yer, is the clock still ticking?" And then I hear it again, until I next forget about it. How come I can't do that with my tinnitus? I'm trying to be as emotionless as possible and just try to observe the noise without placing negative thoughts onto it. Hasn't helped.
5) I only got 2 hours sleep last night, ugh. I'm tired.
6) It's nearly been half a year and it hasn't gotten even a tiny bit better. I'm losing all hope.
7) How come I can be fine one day. Then BAM get tinnitus, then have my life change within the matter of one day.
8) Did I mention I was tired yet?
9) This number only exists so I can have ten questions!
10) Will it ever go away? It came in a day, will it go away in a day? One day? Be gone? Or will my life suck forever? I want to talk about it every day somehow to try to make it better and it doesn't and I have no one to talk to and I'm sad and when I say I'm sad my family says I'm just seeking attention and that I choose to be sad. That makes me even more sad.