my T has been changing so much this past two months i cant cope because it keeps spiking and i cant do nothing about it and i just been home.. Hard to cope when it keeps changing in level and now my right caught the T and its changing at a high rate ..if any of you who have really bad T not mild t ..my days with mild t are over and i did still have a life with mild, but now that it is somewhat severe its been hard hearing this noise through out the whole day every day all night.. I dont think you really habituate after your T gets to a high point.. And i cant go outside not because im scared but because my t will spike over something stupid like a truck passing by...i read how alot of your guys T dont really spike like mine , that some of your guys hasnt spiked in years mine has probably spiked 10+ different times in the past 2 years and half of it my own fault from my work which i worked outside as a meter reader being around barking dogs and loud cars and sometimes slammed gates etc...and just yesterday i barely got haircut after two months and i would get one every week before.. The clippers spiked my t a little last time so ive been scared of them.. So i told the hairdresser only with scissors he said ok.. And towards the end he forgot and turned on the blowdryer and blew in me i panicked and told her to turn it off and my T did spike cause of it and now im like what the heck cant i do my work has me on leave but want to know if im going to return its been 7 months now and i cant keep them waiting and this job was a once in a lifetime opportunity thats why i kept working after one more year i could get in a office position and get paid really good money that was my future but now i see no future.. And i feel lonely i was what u can call a heartbreaker in my party days, didnt much care and just wanted to have fun but its been a year and a half since i was in a relationship Not because i couldnt but i felt like a liability to anyone that wanted to be with me since then.. Now my friends and cousins are having kids and families and i feel sad that i may not have that in my future since i cant even get my t straight and i always imagined myself with a kid by 25 like my dad to take him everywhere ball games, trips etc and that i cant even do.. But yes this is what i think of alot.. I do have a little sister4 and a little brother 8 and they do help me out alot i feel if it wasnt for them i would be in a blacker whole than i already am.. Not trying to sound depressed but this damn t is too loud cant get away from it.. I was too used to one ear t and now hearing it in the other is terrifying for me.. If anyone with