- Apr 4, 2021
- 88
- Tinnitus Since
- 2019 - mild, 03/2021 - the real shit
- Cause of Tinnitus
- Something that cannot be identified by 21st century tech
I have multiple sounds along with some reactive tones.
I'm 7 weeks in and none of the tones decreased by single bit, and I'm already trying to deal with the fact that it might stay there until a cure is found.
It sucks but I feel that I'm able to tolerate majority of the sounds, again, till the cure is found. I'm just 19 so I really hope I will hear silence in my later life (of course not by going deaf). And I also hope it won't take more than ten years, till we all get the ultimate relief.
But there is one pseudo-tone I feel I will never get used to. Because it is not only very loud and super intrusive, it is so high pitched I hear it almost everywhere, because almost nothing can mask it. And it is not static, but rather it is randomly firing awful noises every few seconds. And it is physical. I can feel that I have it, even when I don't actually hear it, therefore I am aware of it most of the time. And it is super nasty, it sounds and feels a bit like grinding blackboard with chalk.
Sometimes I think that if I got rid just of this one particular tone, it would solve 99% of my life problems.
Of course, even the thought of having the volume of this tone decreased is amazing but sadly, life doesn't always give us what we want. Which sucks because now I'm really depressed not just because of having tinnitus, but rather the fact that it is not getting any better! If I got a tiny bit of improvement, I would be crying out of joy that something is actually happening and I'm actually going forward, but I'm not.
But I still think about my future. It cannot go that way. The tone is so aggressive that I feel like I get constant electrocutes to my brain. I'm really curious if any of you has experienced a change of awful tone to something more acceptable, that doesn't make your head hurt when you hear it.
I look at my tinnitus as a sharp stone that has been recently thrown into a river. The question is, will it eventually turn into a pebble?
What are your experience on this? Has your tinnitus changed to something more "soothing" to your ears over time?
I'm 7 weeks in and none of the tones decreased by single bit, and I'm already trying to deal with the fact that it might stay there until a cure is found.
It sucks but I feel that I'm able to tolerate majority of the sounds, again, till the cure is found. I'm just 19 so I really hope I will hear silence in my later life (of course not by going deaf). And I also hope it won't take more than ten years, till we all get the ultimate relief.
But there is one pseudo-tone I feel I will never get used to. Because it is not only very loud and super intrusive, it is so high pitched I hear it almost everywhere, because almost nothing can mask it. And it is not static, but rather it is randomly firing awful noises every few seconds. And it is physical. I can feel that I have it, even when I don't actually hear it, therefore I am aware of it most of the time. And it is super nasty, it sounds and feels a bit like grinding blackboard with chalk.
Sometimes I think that if I got rid just of this one particular tone, it would solve 99% of my life problems.
Of course, even the thought of having the volume of this tone decreased is amazing but sadly, life doesn't always give us what we want. Which sucks because now I'm really depressed not just because of having tinnitus, but rather the fact that it is not getting any better! If I got a tiny bit of improvement, I would be crying out of joy that something is actually happening and I'm actually going forward, but I'm not.

But I still think about my future. It cannot go that way. The tone is so aggressive that I feel like I get constant electrocutes to my brain. I'm really curious if any of you has experienced a change of awful tone to something more acceptable, that doesn't make your head hurt when you hear it.
I look at my tinnitus as a sharp stone that has been recently thrown into a river. The question is, will it eventually turn into a pebble?
What are your experience on this? Has your tinnitus changed to something more "soothing" to your ears over time?