Hi everyone...first for me on a blog. 3 weeks ago on Halloween I got out of the shower and thought I had water in my ear. Well it didn't go away and after 3 visits to my ENT, a MRI and CT Scan (all which showed nothing )my doctor who is head of USC told me today that I probably had a virus and like a thief in the night, came in and took my high frequency hearing away, gave me pulsatile tinnitus, and makes my voice echo in my head like a kazoo or broken speaker. He said it's most likely permanent and I'll need to learn to live with this. Well my friends, that is quite the punch to the gut, especially having young daughters and being in sales for a living. I am all ears (no pun) to anyones advice or insights. My doc says I will get use to this (wants to put me on Nortriptyline which he wants me to take 2 hours before bed. I am trying to get my arms around this so any help will be much appreciated.
Jim
Welcome to the group! I've had severe and invasive T for a year now and have just recently joined this group -- smart move, there are a good 'bunch of bananas' here; I wished I'd found it soon after my T affliction began. I went through some real dark days at the onset (and months into) the advent of my T. Had I joined a group like this, perhaps my anxiety levels would have gone down substantially (anxiety is a critical factor with T sufferers).
Unfortunately you have learned (the hard way) the medical community is basically dead on this issue -- there's no pill and no surgery (no money to be made) and it's WAY subjective (hard to get real scientific data, although they are making great progress). So, basically you get an office call and the 'learn to live with it' answer (the quintessential and ubiquitous attitude and answer from the medical community). I have to give them credit for their uniformity on the topic; however, I choose give it the respect due (very little). Discovering their attitude caused my anxiety to shoot through the roof; there was an echo in my head ' no cure, no cure, no cure...', and then I paid the fee for the office visit and they said 'have a nice day'. As you stated, a gut punch indeed!
Tinnitus is a hearing problem (with a psychological/behavioral component -- and, no, I'm not implying that T sufferers are psycho). Therefore, see an audiologist (especially one well versed/trained to deal with T). Also, I've heard great things about Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT); essentially, you retrain the brain to deal with the new (and foreign/aberrant) neural-network (neuroplasticity) and the associated anxiety that is fueling the negative feedback loop (that is your T). T is one squirrely, and annoying, bugger indeed! However, even though you may feel overwhelmed right now, you MUST know that T is very manageable (on all levels of your life); you don't need to be discouraged.
Since you are new to T, I feel compelled to warn you about the myriad snake-oil products (one of the cruelest endeavors on this planet). Some of them sound so reasonable and are usually based in an element of truth; always remember, there are millions of T sufferers so if someone has come up with a cure, why aren't there millions of people lined up at their door (duh!). I'm not saying you will get pulled into these schemes (not insulting you) just letting you know there are marketeers out there more than willing to cash in on desperate situations -- T is one of those situations.
In my limited research, I discovered that T finds its pathology within the following components; outer ear, inner ear (cochlea), auditory nerve (physical data to electrical impulses), limbic system (emotional seed), memory, and your central autonomic nervous system. Disrupt/frustrate T in any of these areas and you can began to take it down; maybe not get rid of it entirely; but take it down to manageable (even laughable) levels. If you're curious I can expound more.
A primary offender, if not THE primary offender, for T sufferers is the anxiety component; that's a tough one. Anxiety is a killer. I found that I can get stressed about my stress levels (yikes!). For someone like me (high strung, high energy, idealistic) I can achieve anxiety heights (tongue in cheek) from which I can observe star formations better than Hubble.
I'm not saying 'just relax' and your T will go away (that's silliness and is no more then the medical community is telling you); I am convinced the anxiety component is a big player in managing your T; but it takes a lot of practice.
At the onset, I got hooked up with what I'm finding out (now) to be are state of the art hearing aids with white noise generators from Nebraska Hearing Instruments (Omaha, NE). At first, my T was so loud (70+ db that sounded like a dental tool in the center of my head) that the max 60 db white noise couldn't quite cut it; however, over time we have brought it way down and have changed its nature to a 'hiss' vice a dental tool. The white noise really helped get my anxiety down (gave me a sense of control and precious sleep at night) and it really helped my brain habituate -- they were a God send!
Sorry if this is too long; I just remember the days when I first started out (I was desperate/dark) and it's my hope I can help someone avert some of the pitfalls I fell into (unnecessary, debilitating).
T is manageable, your life can and WILL be normal again...
Mark