I'm struggling to be able to concentrate properly. Since my tinnitus onset I'm not able to think or be my old self. I'm simply 'not here....' I used to be a great chess players, played against LM's and IM's and win regularly. Nowadays I can't see anything. Can't calculate or concentrate like I used to. I'm simply not myself. During the day I easily get irritated and angry with the most minimum annoyance.
I seem to care less about everyone else and only focus on my daily tinnitus nightmare. The other day a mate of mine sprained his ankle, I felt sorry for him, but I just wasn't really there for him. Thinking in the back of my mind that I'm worse off than you. In a week or two you're gonna be running around and having fun and me on the other hand I don't know what cruel reality will be waiting for me. That's what tinnitus does to you. Scared not knowing what is round the corner. Another crappy horrible life changer.
People that have managed to habituate did they also manage to concentrate, be themselves afterward? Will I have to give up the game for ever? No serious-deep thinking any more? The only thing left is ping-pong and doing cardio like a mad-man?
I seem to care less about everyone else and only focus on my daily tinnitus nightmare. The other day a mate of mine sprained his ankle, I felt sorry for him, but I just wasn't really there for him. Thinking in the back of my mind that I'm worse off than you. In a week or two you're gonna be running around and having fun and me on the other hand I don't know what cruel reality will be waiting for me. That's what tinnitus does to you. Scared not knowing what is round the corner. Another crappy horrible life changer.
People that have managed to habituate did they also manage to concentrate, be themselves afterward? Will I have to give up the game for ever? No serious-deep thinking any more? The only thing left is ping-pong and doing cardio like a mad-man?