"One mistake" can change your life forever. Unfortunate but true. The simple truth is most of us here probably made that "one mistake" and ended up here. Nobody chose to live with this disease, for lack of a better term. Life throws you a curve and you have to deal with it the best you can. Does it suck? Absolutely. Some days are worse than others. The pain of tinnitus is real, even if no one can see it. There have been days on end, where I have often wondered why I go on. I think most of us here have grappled with that question. It would be easy to end it all, and end our own misery. There's just one problem with that. In doing so, you would be creating the misery that your loved ones would have to endure forever. I'm not willing to do that to them, and if that means I have to suffer, well so be it. Life is not fair. Decisions you make have consequences. They are not always good ones. Nobody asks for the hand they are dealt. Sometimes it just happens that way. I can't say that I'm thankful for my tinnitus, but I am thankful that I still have all my limbs. I'm thankful that I can still get out of bed in the morning. I'm thankful that I can still sit here and type this. My point is, there are so many things for us to be thankful for, it almost seems selfish for us to focus on the one issue that we have. Life is more than just being able to listen to music (which I really can't anymore. Well I can, but then I pay a high price, with louder tinnitus.), or being able to enjoy a quiet morning. (I miss those too.) No life is about enjoying the things you can, and realizing that you have limited time, and you should make the most of it. You owe it to your family to go on, but most importantly, you owe it to yourself. You have so much to live for, to let "one mistake" determine the outcome of your life.