Didn't Really Miss You But I'm Back!

[Onemoreday]

Five years ago I literally woke up one morning with a rumbling noise in my ear like far away thunder or a helicopter. I traveled down the same path as most of you...ENT's, dentists, an MRI, acupuncture, etc. Nothing worked. I unhappily celebrated a 1 year tinnitus anniversary and then a 1 and a half anniversary and then.....it faded or I just got used to it. I had 5 beautiful, peaceful, silent years. And 2 weeks ago my old "friend" returned. I admit the last 2 years have been difficult (for various other reasons) so stress could be a factor.

I'm devastated to have to come back here for support but, God, do I need some!!!!!!!

I'd rather have a broken leg that people could see, and feel and FIX than this.

With the problems of the last 2 years this is the LAST thing I need! When I wake up in the morning (actually when I get out of bed because I never actually sleep)

I'm filled with fear about the next terrible thing that is going to happen. And when that next bad thing happens, with the return of the "rumble" I have little to no strength to deal with it. I have children and I just don't think I can go down this road again. Especially, when other things in my life are worse than they were 5 years ago.

I need something to hang onto but I just can't seem to find it!

 

[glynis]

Im sure you will be fine as soon as you relax and don't let anxiety take hold.
Remembering how it was before can give you a wobble .

Think about how you distracted yourself last time and the things that helped you .
Also talk with your doctor for his/her support ..
Stress you have had can take away your confidence and coping skills but that will come back again ....
Stay positive you will get through it and we are all here to support you....lots of love glynis

 

[Onemoreday]

Dear glynis,

Thank you for your words of support!
I almost hate searching this website because I feel I'm giving into the depression, anxiety, fear, anger and crazinesss that comes with this issue (notice I never say the word....I REFUSE to! I just say "the rumble")

 

[Onemoreday]

Dear glynis,

Thanks again for your words of support. I didn't get to finish my thought from my last post. I don't want to dwell on the rumbling but when you're suffering and other people say "just ignore it", or they don't believe you or maybe they are even sympathetic but don't truly understand the experience....I just have to fine SOMEONE who says "I know....I understand"
Thank you!

 

[Candy]

The BTA has a leaflet for family and friends...print it and give it to them...

 

[glynis]

@Onemoreday ,
I totally understand about tinnitus and every aspect of unwanted emotions it can cause and the dark black hole that is easy fall into and so hard to get out !
BUT you will
Im glad you picked up the courage to come back here where you will get all the support you need around the clock..
Im sure you will have great advise to support others too...
Lots of love glynis