- Apr 17, 2019
- 396
- Tinnitus Since
- 12.04.2019
- Cause of Tinnitus
- Loud concert
Hey guys
Having a tough time...
After I got used to my mild visual snow somewhat, I'm down in the dumps again. It recently worsened and is now more noticeable. On top my trailing is now clearly noticeable when before I had to check for it and depth perception is weird (like I have to concentrate to perceive depth).
How are you other guys here with VS doing? What symptoms do you have? Mild, severe? Tied to your tinnitus level? Do you have "VS spikes"? I hope that my worsening is just temporary because of screen time (I have a desk job).
I long back for the time where I had only tinnitus. I remember this weekend I spent with my mum hiking and even if I was down due to tinnitus I miss it to much now. It was so beautiful. I wished I would just get to point where my symptoms didn't continue to worsen. Why do I, who actually appreciated silence and seeing the world as it is, have to be deprived from that?
It's really difficult going on when things just pile up and up and up. I was at a point where I was content with living with tinnitus (even when it spiked after being essentially gone). Then I got VS, but got used to it. Now I have worse VS, and I have to adapt yet again? This is such horseshit.
Worst thing is that VS will take at least 10 years more for the definite cure. I feel like @fishbone or our other veterans at the beginning of the 90s getting loud tinnitus and no cure in sight.
I'm still grateful for my life, even if had to go through many difficulties. I'm even more appreciative for what remains. It is humbling. Still I hope I can keep going with this for the next 20 years and not crack.
Having a tough time...
After I got used to my mild visual snow somewhat, I'm down in the dumps again. It recently worsened and is now more noticeable. On top my trailing is now clearly noticeable when before I had to check for it and depth perception is weird (like I have to concentrate to perceive depth).
How are you other guys here with VS doing? What symptoms do you have? Mild, severe? Tied to your tinnitus level? Do you have "VS spikes"? I hope that my worsening is just temporary because of screen time (I have a desk job).
I long back for the time where I had only tinnitus. I remember this weekend I spent with my mum hiking and even if I was down due to tinnitus I miss it to much now. It was so beautiful. I wished I would just get to point where my symptoms didn't continue to worsen. Why do I, who actually appreciated silence and seeing the world as it is, have to be deprived from that?
It's really difficult going on when things just pile up and up and up. I was at a point where I was content with living with tinnitus (even when it spiked after being essentially gone). Then I got VS, but got used to it. Now I have worse VS, and I have to adapt yet again? This is such horseshit.
Worst thing is that VS will take at least 10 years more for the definite cure. I feel like @fishbone or our other veterans at the beginning of the 90s getting loud tinnitus and no cure in sight.
I'm still grateful for my life, even if had to go through many difficulties. I'm even more appreciative for what remains. It is humbling. Still I hope I can keep going with this for the next 20 years and not crack.