@Telis i completely agree with you.. Most people on here have very mild T and will never know what real severe T is.. A lot claim that their is really horrible when its not but for the ones that actually do have it bad get overlooked for the reason that everyone says that their T is severe when its not and just being over dramatic.. I would give a leg just to have my mild t back.. When i had mild t . I still had a life. But with really bad H its making my T even worse and crippling my life. Some of you have no idea what we go through on a daily basis because you base your T with ours.. I heard that only 10% of T patients will develop it severe so the rest of you consider yourselves lucky. That you still have lives.. And yes i had to stop working my job is outside and my bad H killed that its been over 8 months and havent returned yet..but before that i was working two year with T before the H came.. The H is the killer and mixed with T it is hell..
I have mild T and mild H but when it all started it was realy bad...and that is an understatement. So I know what you guys are going through. Yes I hate my mild T and mild H. Although my mild T is screaming berserc when it is in a silent room. The only thing I can say is that during the day...it can be easly masked so I consider that mild. At night when it is silent it is very loud, but still ... I had spikes that were much worse and remembered me how it was on the beginning of this monster.
That being said...with all the things I posted I keep in mind what you guys are going through. Do I consider myself lucky? No, because I still hate it but have to live with it.
Is it a disability for me...yes it is...it effects my whole life...even when habituated it does.
There is not a day that goes by that I do not think about the likes of you and Telis... because I think I have it bad I know it can me much worse like it was in the beginning.
I am scared for my future and should live more day by day...but I am only human so of course I think about my future. What if T becomes worse? What if my H becomes worse? It scares the shit out of me ...
From being an healthy person who has nothing and I mean realy nothing....I went from severe eyefloaters to severe backpain...to tinnitus to hyperacusis....to anxietydisorder and a depression. Like a train that never stops......
So yes it's a disability because my whole life turned up side down....
And my T is not severe....I'm just a perfectionist which makes me hate everyting out of the ordernairy ...as long as my T can be masked I'm will never say it is severe. That does not mean I hate it as much as it was in the beginning. It is easier to deal with...that is a fact. I know people with mild T can sound ignorant saying T is not the worst thing in the world. But I guess you should read it like..."It is not the worst thing in the world for them".
They cannot speak for you. Last night ...and this is no joke... an old girlfriend called me out of the blue and asked me how I was doing so I told her about my "mild" T.
First she acted like she cared and shit.... but after a while she started to make jokes about it. Thinking that it is just some minor thing that bothers me. If people never experienced "mild" T they do not know what they are talking about.
If people with mild T act like T is nothing speaking to a person with severe T...they also do not know what they are talking about.
I realy think that people with severe T should have their own thread where people with mild T cannot post stupid stuff like saying T can easly be ignored. Severe T is speaking out of a total different perspective.
I cannot tell you to put a van on so your T can me masked.... for severe T it would be stupid to say that.
Mild T can easly masked perhaps with a van on or some birdsounds or what ever.
When people like Telis , you and other severe T sufferers are talking.... I am listening..... and I try to understand what you are going through..... Sometimes I feel ashamed that I am complaining about my mild T and H.
But at the end of the day I am still stuck with my mild T and H and it does effect my life.... I know it can be much worse, but I still have to deal with the stuff I experience at this moment and for me with the anxiety and depression it is kind of hard every day.
Should we watch out what we say regarding T in combination with people with severe T....Yes .... but it will not happen here. Because people who just got T...even if it is mild or minor....for them it is the worst thing that ever happend to them... When after a month or 6 they got used to it ...they sound like they overcome severe T and make the severe suffers feel like they are crybabies , but they just overcame mild or minor T.
Since my T was of the charts at the beginning I can relate ..... A friend who also has T told me on the onset ....Put a van on and you can mask your T.... well the van was 1 centimeter from my ear and my T was still screaming and went through everything....My T became less and my H came up a bit....form 6 different tones I still got two left... I know they will never go away. But knowing how bad it can be is always in the back of my mind.
If you ever feel offended by a post of me......please do not...because I have the upmost respect for you, Telis and otherd with severe T. When I give an opinion...it is out of my own experience and I can never tell if T is the worst thing in your life or not, because mild T do not have to be, but severe T does.
I wish you all the best and if there is a god I wish he would help you guys first instead of me....because I can wait until it is my turn, but i think you people should be helped sooner than us mild sufferers.