- Nov 17, 2019
- 7
- Tinnitus Since
- August 2019
- Cause of Tinnitus
- Combination of stress and music, still unknown
Hi everyone! 
I, as many other people, didn't think I would sit here and write what I'm going to write now. My progression form a dark hole to brighter days.
I will post my whole "story" later, but I just want to tell ya´ll that IT WILL GET BETTER. My tinnitus appeared in August 2019. I think it was a combination of loud music in earplugs, but also a lot of stress and emotional trauma. I don't know if it was louder in the beginning or that I've just gotten used to it now because it's lower.
I did not believe that it would get better. How on earth were I supposed to live with this sound? This invading sound? I use to think that I was the exception, the only one who would not manage this. This is a very common taught. So if you are a new "sufferer" (which is a word I would not use because after a while, in many cases, it's just like an "allergy."), DO NOT GIVE UP HOPE. It is actually going to be ok. But it takes time. And it's not easy. At all. But everyday it gets a little better although it doesn't feel like it.
I struggled hard for around 3 months. I quit school, moved back home and taught my life was OVER. Some days I even thought that I didn't want to live. Days went by and I did everything to try and get rid of it. I still do believe that tinnitus is a reaction of the central nervous system and being hyper alert over a long time. I've watched a lot of Julian Cowan Hill´s videos and have decided to believe in what he is saying. I think that it can resolve even if it's loud noise exposure. But I'm not a doctor or anything. I've just chosen to believe, but instead of TRYING everything you can to get rid of if, I think it's a gradual process. A slow one. I wanted it to be gone "this second." It does not work like that. I have no guarantee that it will ever be completely gone, but I'm pretty sure that it will become very neutral and a part of my body. I know that newbies doesn't want to hear this. I did not. Because when you are in "crisis mode" or in a huge grief it's very hard to think rational or have hope about it. I've been in contact with many wonderful professionals who has told me that IT'S GOING TO BE OK. Some even say that they think it will vanish. I don't know. As long as I can feel satisfied with my life (which I´m starting to feel more and more) I´m happy. Very happy. Anyways, seek help! Talk to someone who can help you with your feelings around it. It's actually a very crucial thing because when you start dealing with reactions, emotions and so on, you gain strength over your body and mind again. I have days now where I can go hours without thinking about my tinnitus. I still have it, it's not loud, it's like a static sound. When I´m overwhelmed, tired or sad it gets a bit louder, but I try to see it as a "healthometer." I´m not saying that everything is roses and violets now, but it is much better. Life has good and bad days. Tinnitus will hopefully not haunt you forever.
I´ll list some things that helped me get to where I am today. 3,5 months later. I still have some hard times, but if I´m doing "this fine" after such a short time, I think that in 6 months or a year, it will be just fine. I´m at a place now where the sound isn't as bothersome anymore and a bit lower. It does not give me the chills or makes my chest tight. Some days are of course more troubling, but they are less and less threatening. I´m at a stage now where I actually believe that I will get married and have kids. I did not believe in this for 2 months ago. Who wants to be married to a young woman crying every other second. And sitting on her mother's lap!
1. Talk to someone about your feelings. Find professionals, read success stories, and ONLY success stories. Watch videos on YouTube of people either living FINE with it or completely recovered. Julian Cowan Hill is a very wise man.
2. I started taking a medication called "Cipralex". It has helped me ALOT. At first I was very scared because I've read that it's "ototoxic for your brain" and bla bla. But there are a lot of studies that it's not dangerous, rather beneficial for people in crisis. But be aware of what medication you are prescribed. Talk to your doctor. I also take vitamins, but I don't know if it helps. Just bought Ginkgo biloba and have tried magnesium, omega 3 and selenium.
3. Practice calming down. Body awareness. Get out of the head and in to your body. I know it sounds like bullshit, but it's very helpful. And exercises. Be careful in the beginning because tinnitus can get louder after a workout. But a gradual process.
4. Give yourself mercy. It´s not your fault that you have tinnitus. Even if you went to a concert. Being stressed, harsh and bitter only makes it worse. It's very helpful to use tools to handle you're thinking. When you stop reacting to the sound in a bad way, it gets better. You get tired of listening to it and filters out. When you don't think about it you are not aware of it. And that is a proof that you did not "hear" it with the brain. THE BRAIN IS AMAZING. And I think that it really can heal you with time.
5. Here are some "rules" that I've been telling myself which I have received from my audiologist and other people. (These points are very crucial for either a good recovery or a full one.)
* Shift your focus
* Don't monitor it or give it attention
* Listen through your tinnitus and over to other sounds
* React in another way that you have before (it is hard)
* Have faith
* Don't obsess with it - You are not your tinnitus
* Don't talk about it all the time
* Don't mask it! Use sound enrichment that makes you listen to your tinnitus at the same time because when you get used to the sound it gets more natural and easier to filter out.
* Don't read horror stories about tinnitus
* I fall asleep with a little bit of waterfall, but it has an alarm that turns it off after an hour. The brain is listening while you are sleeping, and I think it's important to make them adapt to silence.
It may seem that I'm trivializing this. I know it's hard. I've been here. But it will get better. I believe that you will feel hope and zest for life again.
Wish you the best. And I do wish you a full recovery. We all do. But I think it will be ok!
I, as many other people, didn't think I would sit here and write what I'm going to write now. My progression form a dark hole to brighter days.
I will post my whole "story" later, but I just want to tell ya´ll that IT WILL GET BETTER. My tinnitus appeared in August 2019. I think it was a combination of loud music in earplugs, but also a lot of stress and emotional trauma. I don't know if it was louder in the beginning or that I've just gotten used to it now because it's lower.
I did not believe that it would get better. How on earth were I supposed to live with this sound? This invading sound? I use to think that I was the exception, the only one who would not manage this. This is a very common taught. So if you are a new "sufferer" (which is a word I would not use because after a while, in many cases, it's just like an "allergy."), DO NOT GIVE UP HOPE. It is actually going to be ok. But it takes time. And it's not easy. At all. But everyday it gets a little better although it doesn't feel like it.
I struggled hard for around 3 months. I quit school, moved back home and taught my life was OVER. Some days I even thought that I didn't want to live. Days went by and I did everything to try and get rid of it. I still do believe that tinnitus is a reaction of the central nervous system and being hyper alert over a long time. I've watched a lot of Julian Cowan Hill´s videos and have decided to believe in what he is saying. I think that it can resolve even if it's loud noise exposure. But I'm not a doctor or anything. I've just chosen to believe, but instead of TRYING everything you can to get rid of if, I think it's a gradual process. A slow one. I wanted it to be gone "this second." It does not work like that. I have no guarantee that it will ever be completely gone, but I'm pretty sure that it will become very neutral and a part of my body. I know that newbies doesn't want to hear this. I did not. Because when you are in "crisis mode" or in a huge grief it's very hard to think rational or have hope about it. I've been in contact with many wonderful professionals who has told me that IT'S GOING TO BE OK. Some even say that they think it will vanish. I don't know. As long as I can feel satisfied with my life (which I´m starting to feel more and more) I´m happy. Very happy. Anyways, seek help! Talk to someone who can help you with your feelings around it. It's actually a very crucial thing because when you start dealing with reactions, emotions and so on, you gain strength over your body and mind again. I have days now where I can go hours without thinking about my tinnitus. I still have it, it's not loud, it's like a static sound. When I´m overwhelmed, tired or sad it gets a bit louder, but I try to see it as a "healthometer." I´m not saying that everything is roses and violets now, but it is much better. Life has good and bad days. Tinnitus will hopefully not haunt you forever.
I´ll list some things that helped me get to where I am today. 3,5 months later. I still have some hard times, but if I´m doing "this fine" after such a short time, I think that in 6 months or a year, it will be just fine. I´m at a place now where the sound isn't as bothersome anymore and a bit lower. It does not give me the chills or makes my chest tight. Some days are of course more troubling, but they are less and less threatening. I´m at a stage now where I actually believe that I will get married and have kids. I did not believe in this for 2 months ago. Who wants to be married to a young woman crying every other second. And sitting on her mother's lap!
1. Talk to someone about your feelings. Find professionals, read success stories, and ONLY success stories. Watch videos on YouTube of people either living FINE with it or completely recovered. Julian Cowan Hill is a very wise man.
2. I started taking a medication called "Cipralex". It has helped me ALOT. At first I was very scared because I've read that it's "ototoxic for your brain" and bla bla. But there are a lot of studies that it's not dangerous, rather beneficial for people in crisis. But be aware of what medication you are prescribed. Talk to your doctor. I also take vitamins, but I don't know if it helps. Just bought Ginkgo biloba and have tried magnesium, omega 3 and selenium.
3. Practice calming down. Body awareness. Get out of the head and in to your body. I know it sounds like bullshit, but it's very helpful. And exercises. Be careful in the beginning because tinnitus can get louder after a workout. But a gradual process.
4. Give yourself mercy. It´s not your fault that you have tinnitus. Even if you went to a concert. Being stressed, harsh and bitter only makes it worse. It's very helpful to use tools to handle you're thinking. When you stop reacting to the sound in a bad way, it gets better. You get tired of listening to it and filters out. When you don't think about it you are not aware of it. And that is a proof that you did not "hear" it with the brain. THE BRAIN IS AMAZING. And I think that it really can heal you with time.
5. Here are some "rules" that I've been telling myself which I have received from my audiologist and other people. (These points are very crucial for either a good recovery or a full one.)
* Shift your focus
* Don't monitor it or give it attention
* Listen through your tinnitus and over to other sounds
* React in another way that you have before (it is hard)
* Have faith
* Don't obsess with it - You are not your tinnitus
* Don't talk about it all the time
* Don't mask it! Use sound enrichment that makes you listen to your tinnitus at the same time because when you get used to the sound it gets more natural and easier to filter out.
* Don't read horror stories about tinnitus
* I fall asleep with a little bit of waterfall, but it has an alarm that turns it off after an hour. The brain is listening while you are sleeping, and I think it's important to make them adapt to silence.
It may seem that I'm trivializing this. I know it's hard. I've been here. But it will get better. I believe that you will feel hope and zest for life again.
Wish you the best. And I do wish you a full recovery. We all do. But I think it will be ok!
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