Hi forum,
Feels like a huge let down for myself to post in this thread after posting a positive '6 month story' a year back.
About the tinnitus: Started a year and a half ago for no apparent reason. I've heard about it before on the news - which was about a horror story of a Dutch woman with T & H ending her life, and that story always stuck with me. Maybe sounds weird but next to Alzheimer's, Tinnitus was on top of my list of most scary diseases.
So when I got it I totally freaked out, of course. Even though it was mild.
I think around the 6 months mark I started to get used to the tinnitus and started to calm down a bit.
In the mean time I went to an ENT, masseuse, psychiatrist, cleaned my aura, did yoga, bowen and fysio.
Didn't really help, so quit that except for the psychiatrist.
It did change my life in a positive way in the sense that I became a lot healthier and made choices based on what was good for me. Also took a bit off from art school and that was very good for my creativity and my general sense of self as well.
Now in December I moved to a new house and when in January all the hype of that settled, I started focusing on the T again. The T was louder, but I saw that coming and it made sense. In answer to that I started eating even healthier (no more E numbers, way less meat, 1 cup of coffee a day) and working out more. I don't take meds.
I am an anxious person tough. I've visited multiple psychiatrists for that (still visiting one) and I kinda learned to deal with it being a genes thing that I can't do much about.
Anyway I feel that I am doing everything in my power to keep my body healthy, keep my mind occupied as much as possible (I'm on a big animation assignment, so I tend to work on that because that's what I like to do) and deal with me being anxious in a accepting state of mind.
But damn, the T is just getting worse. And it freaks me out. It's tiring to stay strong, because it's such a lonely problem. I sometimes feel that my anxious nature is making it worse and I just simply can't reprogram myself. Taking time off just stresses me out. Life stresses me out.
So now I'm positing here. Looking for a bit of help.
Edit: 10000% fingers crossed Elon Musk's neuralink will become a real thing
Feels like a huge let down for myself to post in this thread after posting a positive '6 month story' a year back.
About the tinnitus: Started a year and a half ago for no apparent reason. I've heard about it before on the news - which was about a horror story of a Dutch woman with T & H ending her life, and that story always stuck with me. Maybe sounds weird but next to Alzheimer's, Tinnitus was on top of my list of most scary diseases.
So when I got it I totally freaked out, of course. Even though it was mild.
I think around the 6 months mark I started to get used to the tinnitus and started to calm down a bit.
In the mean time I went to an ENT, masseuse, psychiatrist, cleaned my aura, did yoga, bowen and fysio.
Didn't really help, so quit that except for the psychiatrist.
It did change my life in a positive way in the sense that I became a lot healthier and made choices based on what was good for me. Also took a bit off from art school and that was very good for my creativity and my general sense of self as well.
Now in December I moved to a new house and when in January all the hype of that settled, I started focusing on the T again. The T was louder, but I saw that coming and it made sense. In answer to that I started eating even healthier (no more E numbers, way less meat, 1 cup of coffee a day) and working out more. I don't take meds.
I am an anxious person tough. I've visited multiple psychiatrists for that (still visiting one) and I kinda learned to deal with it being a genes thing that I can't do much about.
Anyway I feel that I am doing everything in my power to keep my body healthy, keep my mind occupied as much as possible (I'm on a big animation assignment, so I tend to work on that because that's what I like to do) and deal with me being anxious in a accepting state of mind.
But damn, the T is just getting worse. And it freaks me out. It's tiring to stay strong, because it's such a lonely problem. I sometimes feel that my anxious nature is making it worse and I just simply can't reprogram myself. Taking time off just stresses me out. Life stresses me out.
So now I'm positing here. Looking for a bit of help.
Edit: 10000% fingers crossed Elon Musk's neuralink will become a real thing
