I am going through nothing (being unemployed) and a lot at the same time (depression) that I am just tired of reading and reading and not being able to provide myself with help.
Hi Mary oj I hate to disagree with you but not are not going through nothing. Being unemployed is something, especially when it gives you all the time in the world to think of your situation, which just feeds how you feel about your situation, and it thus creates this loop that can, at times, be very hard to get off of. I have as of yet, not gone to a clinic or seen anyone other than an ENT (absolutely no help there), my doctor (he was pretty good, making me somewhat fortunate) and an audiologist at Hearing Canada (she has been really good and a good source of informtion). A friend of mine did forward a note to me recommending Metro Hearing and Tinnitus Clinic, it is in Mississauga. I looked at its website, and it appeared to be interesting. However, I was not thinking of going to it yet as, from what I have been reading in this forum, and from some other sources, that it is best to wait about 3 months before attending clinics as your tinnitus before this time is still settling down and may change. This change period appears to vary tremendously between individuals, with a wide range of timelines for it to settle down. This is just an impression at this point in time. Greg S. or Michael L or Bill B. would be better sources of information on this one. My doctor also told me that it is a good idea to wait three months and then make decisions. Do you have an audiologist who tested your hearing at the onset of your t.? If you do call to see if you can check in with her for a cople of min. and ask. I noticed that the Metro Hearing and Tinnitus Clinic also charges for their service.
To help get me through this time I have turned to this forum for support and thoughts. Have you tried also looking at the Success Stories section on the forum home page? I found it did give me some optimism, in the 'that can be me' category of thinking. Remember, life can be filled with opportunities, however, seeing them during the initial onset of tinnitus is not easy to say the least. The first couple of months, from everyone I have talked to who already have it, agree that this is the hardest period. It is so easy to say, and yet not easy to do, that is to believe in your future, and in yourself. At the start I didn't know how I was going to make it through the weekend, it was hard to believe in anything. Now I am catching my breath and believing in the future again. I know it can be hard, depression is insipid in the way it obscures the good things in life, like believing in your future as well as seeing it, and seeing a positive one. However, the fact that you have gone on to this forum, actually reached out for assistance and support tells me that you can see your future, so start to realize you can come through this, and come through this well.
You have had your t. for two months now. Has it always stayed at the same level or has it begun to fluctuate?
Are you listening to any tinnitus sound therapy websites? I have found that they have helped me a lot, especially at night when I am trying to sleep. My doctor also prescribed me Nortripyline just before I go to bed. It is not designed to deal with the t., but it is supposed to help with the anxiety around it. The two combined have helped me a lot. I have also been meditating for years, and that has also helped me deal with this.
Let me be clear though, I too have days that are not a lot of fun, and are just hard, and slow. I have found, especially at the start I didn't really want to eat, just watched tv and hoped for something good as I tried to protect my ears. Then I realized I also needed to go out just to fight 'cabin fever' as well as not over protect my ears, so I went out for walks to clear my mind, and that helped. I go out in the evening when it is quieter. Sitting at home doing nothing is not easy, as I find it becomes easy to listen to your t., so if you can get out, see a friend, but in a quiet location (avoiding loud coffee shops - I have found Panera Bread coffee shops are quieter than others, though I still wear ear protection) may help you get out and change the focus of your mind. Do you have ear protection? You can buy at Home Depot, Canadian Tire the foam ear plugs, and they are not expensive.
I live out in Oshawa east of Toronto, how about you? If you are out in the west end, you actually are close to the Metro Hearing and Tinnitus Clinic which I believe is out in Mississauga.
As always, best wishes, and you have all my support.
JohnCC