Member(firstly, apologize might mine English grammar not been good all the time since English is not my native tongue and the long story/intro ahead 
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Hi dear members,
Let me introduce myself;
I'm a 38 year old guy (Dennis) from the Netherlands with a lovely girlfriend (Hanneke) and two wonderful boys (Mees, 5 years and Tijn, 3 years).
End august, when listening to music via ear buds (not to loud) I suddenly felt a kind of deafness in my left ear.
I thought ooops not good and rested my ears the days after. However, on the Sunday after when watching TV suddenly I heard a high frequency pitch (later I found out this was a 4 kHz tone) became noticeable and like the most of you I started to stress (what the f#! this can't be true, why me). During the days after the beep became louder and louder and was always noticeable (even when in a crowded environment). Get to sleep at a certain point was a nightmare!!!
At a certain point a became really anxious and frustrated, blaming myself (why didn't I take enough care of my own ears, too much exposure to loud noises over a prolonged time which I believe is the cause for my ringing !) WHY WHY… (and yes the ringing became even worse) I told my girlfriend about my constant ringing and told her that with this level of sound I couldn't live anymore (I never ever had this kind of thoughts
in my precious life before which at the same time freaked me out even more… I always loved and still love life but that constant ringing, buzzing WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!)
After a lot of internet search (yep like the most of us do, otherwise we weren't here
which made me even more anxious of my future life ahead DAMN A LOT OF DOOM STORIES CIRCULATE THE INTERNET!)
Anyway, I decided to follow an infusion therapy treatment (this was in my 3rd/4th week of onset) in Germany (of which the effects are not confirmed). After the treatment it seemed that the noise level reduced to half of what it was during first noticing it. Whether or not it came because of this therapy or a kind of placebo effect, I dunno, but it helped!). Giving me some relief but it was still making me uncomfortable at certain moments (although I didn't had real issues anymore going to sleep). Bad and good days followed (and still go own), when I had a good day I wasn't happy as one would expect but it made me worry about the days after. I feel better but tomorrow I may be worse again (this leaded to real spikes of my tone (what a contradiction isn't it) and moments of tears
My girlfriend was a real help during those moments (putting me together again and told me to come back to sense!)
.
It is now a bit more than 2 months ago that the electric storm started in my head!
I have been realizing slowly that I already had for a longer time low level of electrical/buzzing sounds (kind of buzzing, like when putting a seashell against your ear) but it never annoyed me or think I had to be careful with my ears (damn why didn't my brain warned me then!
)
Some questions/concerns;
Since I now realize that I have had tinnitus already longer do I have to worry that my tinnitus worsens the coming years (that is my main concern and I believe for the majority of us) since I believe I got it already for a prolonged period of time (at a lower level).
These thoughts still cause some anxieties at certain points as well moments of tears (I never had such emotional rollercoaster feelings before).
For me, this level is acceptable, not fun
but acceptable! However, I fear it worsens and get to a level that I really will break down (unable to handle any longer) 
.
For example, sometimes I have the feeling that a high pitch tone is developing in my right ear as well (since it pops in sometimes for a few seconds!) Thus some more tones are luring to break in!!!
Anyway I feel (much) better lately despite that the ringings still be heavy at moments), is this already a kind of habituation or isn't this possible after 'only' two months and is it possible that the sound level drops even more in the weeks ahead? (I do not mean habituation but actual lowering of the sound).
Is it possible to measure by certain devices when I need to start wearing hearing protection (hearing threshold so to say). Of course I understand that when it gets noisy (club, crowded pub) I have to wear them for the rest of my live but what about cinema's, theather's, swimming pools, running events (all of which enjoy(ed) soooo much). It makes me feel so down.
I wonder if my threshold has shifted (lowered) and that I'm more sensitive to certain noise levels (e.g 83 or 86 dB???)
E.g. sometimes I also have the feeling that when driving the car and coming home the buzzing and beep is worse (do some have the same sensation after certain activities or noise exposure and does it normalize again after a certain amount of time?)
I want to avoid further risk but as well want to avoid to get an hermit.
If I knew that those increased buzzing was only temporary I would be relieved but I can't let loose the idea/feeling that at one point it keeps at a new higher level!
I'm also concerned that I can't go to events with my girlfriend and little boys anymore (like football matches etc…). That is also something which makes me down at moments. My lovely family ruined by myself. Sorry for the self pity but that is how I currently feel!
I will marry next year May (with a big party of course
) but hey you know my fear by now… what if… (isn't this a ridiculous mindset!!!). It should become one of the finest days in life but I'm worried about my damn Tinnitus!
BOTTOMLINE (if not already noticed
); my biggest fear is the future ahead and how well I have to protect myself (I want to avoid over protection but of course even more under protection!)
Thanks in advance for some advice etc…
I will add a profile photo soon
!
Kind regards & all the best wishes fellow sufferers,
Dennis
Ps I.m currently testing on my phone Audio Notch music and white noise. It seems it helps but it could easily be an placebo effect as well. As well sound at night (rain).
I never realized silence could be golden
!
)Hi dear members,
Let me introduce myself;
I'm a 38 year old guy (Dennis) from the Netherlands with a lovely girlfriend (Hanneke) and two wonderful boys (Mees, 5 years and Tijn, 3 years).
End august, when listening to music via ear buds (not to loud) I suddenly felt a kind of deafness in my left ear.
I thought ooops not good and rested my ears the days after. However, on the Sunday after when watching TV suddenly I heard a high frequency pitch (later I found out this was a 4 kHz tone) became noticeable and like the most of you I started to stress (what the f#! this can't be true, why me). During the days after the beep became louder and louder and was always noticeable (even when in a crowded environment). Get to sleep at a certain point was a nightmare!!!
At a certain point a became really anxious and frustrated, blaming myself (why didn't I take enough care of my own ears, too much exposure to loud noises over a prolonged time which I believe is the cause for my ringing !) WHY WHY… (and yes the ringing became even worse) I told my girlfriend about my constant ringing and told her that with this level of sound I couldn't live anymore (I never ever had this kind of thoughts
in my precious life before which at the same time freaked me out even more… I always loved and still love life but that constant ringing, buzzing WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!)After a lot of internet search (yep like the most of us do, otherwise we weren't here
which made me even more anxious of my future life ahead DAMN A LOT OF DOOM STORIES CIRCULATE THE INTERNET!) Anyway, I decided to follow an infusion therapy treatment (this was in my 3rd/4th week of onset) in Germany (of which the effects are not confirmed). After the treatment it seemed that the noise level reduced to half of what it was during first noticing it. Whether or not it came because of this therapy or a kind of placebo effect, I dunno, but it helped!). Giving me some relief but it was still making me uncomfortable at certain moments (although I didn't had real issues anymore going to sleep). Bad and good days followed (and still go own), when I had a good day I wasn't happy as one would expect but it made me worry about the days after. I feel better but tomorrow I may be worse again (this leaded to real spikes of my tone (what a contradiction isn't it) and moments of tears
My girlfriend was a real help during those moments (putting me together again and told me to come back to sense!).It is now a bit more than 2 months ago that the electric storm started in my head!
I have been realizing slowly that I already had for a longer time low level of electrical/buzzing sounds (kind of buzzing, like when putting a seashell against your ear) but it never annoyed me or think I had to be careful with my ears (damn why didn't my brain warned me then!
)Some questions/concerns;
Since I now realize that I have had tinnitus already longer do I have to worry that my tinnitus worsens the coming years (that is my main concern and I believe for the majority of us) since I believe I got it already for a prolonged period of time (at a lower level).
These thoughts still cause some anxieties at certain points as well moments of tears (I never had such emotional rollercoaster feelings before).
For me, this level is acceptable, not fun
but acceptable! However, I fear it worsens and get to a level that I really will break down (unable to handle any longer) .For example, sometimes I have the feeling that a high pitch tone is developing in my right ear as well (since it pops in sometimes for a few seconds!) Thus some more tones are luring to break in!!!
Anyway I feel (much) better lately despite that the ringings still be heavy at moments), is this already a kind of habituation or isn't this possible after 'only' two months and is it possible that the sound level drops even more in the weeks ahead? (I do not mean habituation but actual lowering of the sound).
Is it possible to measure by certain devices when I need to start wearing hearing protection (hearing threshold so to say). Of course I understand that when it gets noisy (club, crowded pub) I have to wear them for the rest of my live but what about cinema's, theather's, swimming pools, running events (all of which enjoy(ed) soooo much). It makes me feel so down.
I wonder if my threshold has shifted (lowered) and that I'm more sensitive to certain noise levels (e.g 83 or 86 dB???)
E.g. sometimes I also have the feeling that when driving the car and coming home the buzzing and beep is worse (do some have the same sensation after certain activities or noise exposure and does it normalize again after a certain amount of time?)
I want to avoid further risk but as well want to avoid to get an hermit.
If I knew that those increased buzzing was only temporary I would be relieved but I can't let loose the idea/feeling that at one point it keeps at a new higher level!
I'm also concerned that I can't go to events with my girlfriend and little boys anymore (like football matches etc…). That is also something which makes me down at moments. My lovely family ruined by myself. Sorry for the self pity but that is how I currently feel!
I will marry next year May (with a big party of course
) but hey you know my fear by now… what if… (isn't this a ridiculous mindset!!!). It should become one of the finest days in life but I'm worried about my damn Tinnitus!BOTTOMLINE (if not already noticed
); my biggest fear is the future ahead and how well I have to protect myself (I want to avoid over protection but of course even more under protection!)Thanks in advance for some advice etc…
I will add a profile photo soon
!Kind regards & all the best wishes fellow sufferers,
Dennis
Ps I.m currently testing on my phone Audio Notch music and white noise. It seems it helps but it could easily be an placebo effect as well. As well sound at night (rain).
I never realized silence could be golden
!
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