Thought about it, yes. I think most people have at one time or another. Will I ever do it, never. I will fight this evil monster til the day I die, and that day will not come by my own hand. My life has changed in some respects, like everybody else here, but I'm still a blessed man. So many others, with or without T, that have it worse than me. I think we look too much at the things we have lost, and not at the things we can still do. It might help to make a list of each and compare them. I can say with absolute certainity your list of things you can still do will be longer than the list of things you can't.