Feeling Desperate...

[jjflyman]

@jjflyman thank you so much for your post. It gives me such hope to hear positive outcomes. I really appreciate you taking the time to stop by. Good luck with your T xxx

Try to stay positive and realize it will take time to fade. Don't set expectations because it will fade on it's own time schedule, not ours. Maybe keep a journal to help chart your progress, because you may not notice progress except when measured in weeks. I keep a journal and when I feel like I'm not getting better, I can look back a month or 2 and see how much it has improved. I just read today a study that said most T takes between 3 and 18 months to fully fade away.

 

[Samantha R]

@Michael Leigh
Thank you for your kind words, it does mean a lot.
You are a great support to others as well, you helped me a lot early on.
I feel very disillusioned when others make rude, mocking and downright hurtful posts, when others are just trying to help people. Alas, that seems to be the nature of forums in general and those people are best ignored.

 

[Michael Leigh]

@Michael Leigh
Thank you for your kind words, it does mean a lot.
You are a great support to others as well, you helped me a lot early on.
I feel very disillusioned when others make rude, mocking and downright hurtful posts, when others are just trying to help people. Alas, that seems to be the nature of forums in general and those people are best ignored.

I fully agree with you Samantha. Ignoring them is the best policy.
Take care
Michael

 

[Makrohn]

@Jaybeee

How are you doing theese days?
Still on AD and how is your T?

 

[Flamingo1]

Imagine being a musician where your entire life revolves around sound and noise, and then fearing or being totally unable to play. My life was in the bin and I saw no way out; it was just so cruel.

@Ed209, how did you deal with having to give up music? Playing and being around music was my life outside of work and now I'm absolutely miserable and depressed because I've had to give it up due to T. I've tried going to see shows but even with the best ear plugs inserted, the music still gets into my ears. It was both my creative outlet and my social life. I really don't know what to do with myself now.

 

[GregCA]

I've tried going to see shows but even with the best ear plugs inserted, the music still gets into my ears. It was both my creative outlet and my social life. I really don't know what to do with myself now.

What happens when you try to listen to music at low volume?

 

[Flamingo1]

What happens when you try to listen to music at low volume?

I can listen to music at home or in my car without causing problems because I can control the volume. It's going to live shows that I miss. :/

 

[GregCA]

I can listen to music at home or in my car without causing problems because I can control the volume. It's going to live shows that I miss. :/

Cool, so it can still be a creative outlet. Not everything is lost: you can still listen and create.

 

[Flamingo1]

Cool, so it can still be a creative outlet. Not everything is lost: you can still listen and create.

What's the point of creating something if you can't perform it or otherwise get it out to an audience? So I've been thinking of creating videos to my music and posting them to YouTube instead of doing live shows. The nice thing about that route is that I could reach a larger audience (theoretically!) and photoshop the hell out of the images! Haha.

 

[GregCA]

What's the point of creating something if you can't perform it or otherwise get it out to an audience? So I've been thinking of creating videos to my music and posting them to YouTube instead of doing live shows.

Sounds like you found a solution!
You may be able to do live gigs if you use custom in-ear-monitors and find a strategic location behind the "audience speakers" while you perform. Something to think about if you really are into it.

 

[Flamingo1]

Sounds like you found a solution!
You may be able to do live gigs if you use custom in-ear-monitors and find a strategic location behind the "audience speakers" while you perform. Something to think about if you really are into it.

Thanks for the kind thoughts. I would be afraid of getting a permanent spike though. Too many horror stories on here about people going to a club or concert with good ear plugs and still having their tinnitus go from mild to worse. I've been a few times to small venues since getting T and I've noticed that even with ear plugs and my hands over my ears, I still hear everything loud and clear. And that's with the sound meter peaking at 85. Fortunately, my tinnitus didn't get any worse after those experiences. Come to think of it, most of the horror stories involved ear plugs and sound levels above 90 dB, so maybe 80-85 peaks are okay. Nevertheless, I'm too scared to go out of my way to risk it.