Feeling Suicidal — Need Some Positive Thoughts

[worriedd]

Just when I started thinking maybe I could deal with this I went to an ENT, who told me I just need to ignore and basically that it will never go. Ive had it for almost 10 weeks and have been trying to hold onto the hope that it would go? I really need some positive cases where it has gone right now. I'm only 18, and I really don't know how to live like this.

 

[glynis]

Some ENT specialists need a better attitude to patients instead of hitting them with that saying.

For some people tinnitus can go and for some people they adjust over time and their attitude to Tinnitus changes as they learn to cope with their tinnitus sound.

For some people they need help with their feelings like-anxiety and depression and not sleeping.
With help and support they learn in time to cope with tinnitus better.

Sound therapy,talking therapy,forums,
White noise generators,hearing aids,medication and with good family and doctor support we learn to cope better.

Chin up and stay positive.
We have no magic wand but time is a great healer....lots of love glynis

 

[undecided]

You're still very young and you actually have a good chance of getting better.
I would hold out on that suicide for 5-10 years and take it from there.

 

[Beste]

You're still very young and you actually have a good chance of getting better.
I would hold out on that suicide for 5-10 years and take it from there.

And in 10 years we may have an efficient treatment, right undecided?
Like SF0034 will come out.

 

[undecided]

Well, I don't know if there is gonna be an effective treatment @Beste but drugs are being improved all the time.
I wouldn't know if there's going to be a specific drug for tinnitus, maybe some other drug like Lyrica or a benzo will be improved upon and will bring much need relief.
All I know is that we are on the right track.

 

[Dana]

Just when I started thinking maybe I could deal with this I went to an ENT, who told me I just need to ignore and basically that it will never go. Ive had it for almost 10 weeks and have been trying to hold onto the hope that it would go? I really need some positive cases where it has gone right now. I'm only 18, and I really don't know how to live like this

I call the kind of ENT doctor that you met "criminal". No exagerration!
He has absolutely no basis to make such kind of statements and what he is doing is a crime. I suggested here, on TT (to no avail), that we, the T sufferers, should get together and do something about it, to stop this criminal habit that some ENT doctors have to say things like that. He does not even know why you have T now and he makes statements like "you will never heal"? On what grounds he is entitled to say that? Does he hAve any? He just heard about cases of people whose T stayed with them for a long time? So what? EACH CASE IS DIFFERENT! HIS APPROACH IS NOT EXACTLY "SCIENTIFIC", IS IT?
You suffered the Nocebo effect. That may block now your healing if it entered deep in your brain that you will never cure from T, and what the ENT doctor did is a crime.
You rather need the opposite effect, the Placebo effect, which is the power of the body to heal itself if the psyche is boosted.

For some infusion of positivity in your psyche I recommend Julian Cowan Hill's videos about tinnitus, that you can find on youtube.

What that criminal ENT told you is FALLACY which makes his crime double.
Even if that was true, which is NOT, he should not have told you that. He robbed your right to hope, and that is a crime, and it wasn't an unrealistic hope, but a hope with high chances to get fulfilled.

You CAN cure completely or IMPROVE so much that you won't mind the little tinnitus left after it will diminish considerably.

And there are also the drugs for hopefully treating T that are researched right now, or that will be researched in the future.

Nothing even major happened to you, like severe damage to your ear, so you have all the reasons to hope.

 

[Path Maker]

 

[Path Maker]

@worriedd Please go onto youtube and search for all the videos made by Julian Cowan Hill. They will help you enormously, both on a practical level and with your feelings. Please do this!! It will be so helpful!!!

And yes, disregard the ENT's comments. Totally unethical to speak that sentence to patients. And just plain WRONG.

Hang in there. Hang here with this forum and seek out the helpful, supportive comments. You have every reason to hope and you will learn to cope. And most importantly, feel better!!

 

[Alue]

I call the kind of ENT doctor that you met "criminal". No exagerration!
He has absolutely no basis to make such kind of statements and what he is doing is a crime. I suggested here, on TT (to no avail), that we, the T sufferers, should get together and do something about it, to stop this criminal habit that some ENT doctors have to say things like that. He does not even know why you have T now and he makes statements like "you will never heal"? On what grounds he is entitled to say that? Does he hAve any? He just heard about cases of people whose T stayed with them for a long time? So what? EACH CASE IS DIFFERENT! HIS APPROACH IS NOT EXACTLY "SCIENTIFIC", IS IT?
You suffered the Nocebo effect. That may block now your healing if it entered deep in your brain that you will never cure from T, and what the ENT doctor did is a crime.
You rather need the opposite effect, the Placebo effect, which is the power of the body to heal itself if the psyche is boosted.

For some infusion of positivity in your psyche I recommend Julian Cowan Hill's videos about tinnitus, that you can find on youtube.

What that criminal ENT told you is FALLACY which makes his crime double.
Even if that was true, which is NOT, he should not have told you that. He robbed your right to hope, and that is a crime, and it wasn't an unrealistic hope, but a hope with high chances to get fulfilled.

You CAN cure completely or IMPROVE so much that you won't mind the little tinnitus left after it will diminish considerably.

And there are also the drugs for hopefully treating T that are researched right now, or that will be researched in the future.

Nothing even major happened to you, like severe damage to your ear, so you have all the reasons to hope.

Agreed, although it may not be criminal, what the ENT did is not helpful to the patient.

When I first got T I went to see 2 ENTs. This was 6 days after my acoustic trauma. The first was sympathetic, put me on Prednisone and even offered to do an intratympanic injection that day. I figured I had the other appointment already and would hold off on the injection (I regret not doing it then).

The 2nd ENT crushed all the hopes I had. He told me it's permanent and to not waste my time looking for a cure because there never will be one. He told me to learn to live with it and tried to sell me some inner ear maskers that his colleague next door sold.
Ironically he has T himself, the other doctor who was more helpful does not have T.
I wonder if my outcome could have been better had I not seen the second doctor and had gotten the steroid injections less than a week after the injury (2 days after T onset).

T is a fickle thing, and to this day I wonder if how we react to it early on can effect the long term prognosis.

 

[hoper]

Just when I started thinking maybe I could deal with this I went to an ENT, who told me I just need to ignore and basically that it will never go. Ive had it for almost 10 weeks and have been trying to hold onto the hope that it would go? I really need some positive cases where it has gone right now. I'm only 18, and I really don't know how to live like this.

suicide is not an option, never.

you have to live your life, make your dreams come true, make things that make you happy.

 

[hoper]

You're still

i fly to rhodos for 1 week holliday

 

[Cristian Ro]

I came to this forum today because right now I was thinking of my tinnitus and the sound "started".
I'm a student, it's a busy week/month, I almost forgot about my T.
Today I was listening P.O.D - Youth Of The Nation... on my headphones. I was thinking if the music will affect my tinnitus - and IN THAT MOMENT I started to hear it. Before that, all day, it wasn't there.

Is this a "positive thought" or not?
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In January I also wanted to jump over the balcony.

 

[Dana]

In January I also wanted to jump over the balcony.

That is very very very bad, because people who have thoughts like that crossing their minds are in the huge danger of doing such an unrepairable terrible thing (probably the worst thing a person can do to himself) in a moment of weakness or in a moment when they are seeing things in darker colors than they are and when they are not thinking correctly. Watch out! You must delete the memory of that moment when you had that intention and reject this idea at once shoul it come again.
It seems that you are habituated to your tinnitus, because you heard it only when you thought about it, which is the very definition of "habituation".
So if your brain habituated with your tinnitus, what is the problem? Never think/look about/for tinnitus ever and continue your life only thinking about postive things, about the best things that you can do. There are so many...

 

[hoper]

In January I also wanted to jump over the balcony.

but you did not, because you heard the voice in you ,,don't do it''
all you have to do is listen to your inner voice.
what is your voice saying to you?

i don't think your inner voice says you should do suicide.
the thing with suicode was just a stupid thought.

 

[Tommi_boi]

18? You really don't have to worry ,you are just not used to this yet.

Tinnitus does get better with time, either by itself or you learning to deal with it - if it does stay, don't think of it as the world's worst thing - the brain is amazing.

Over time it will literally lose interest in your T and push this into the back of your mind,best advice I can give just relax and ignore this and ur mind will do the rest

 

[Cristian Ro]

I didn't do it because here I found people with the same problem like mine.
I found you, your advices gave me hope. Really. In three weeks my spike was gone... my problem was half solved.

Now I came on his forum to share this hope: THERE IS HOPE.
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My spike was so bad I couldn't sleep. It woke me up in the night, I was sleeping 3 hours a night.
I am used to loud noises, but that noise was... like a car alarm. I really didn't find any solution to my life...
Today is a different story. But only couple of months apart. Think about that.
That's why ALWAYS you have to answer to "maybe tomorrow" to any thought of ending your life.
If you like procrastination (I guess everybody like it), do it also with bad things.

 

[hoper]

I didn't do it because here I found people with the same problem like mine.
I found you, your advices gave me hope.

you meant me?

 

[worriedd]

I think my problem is that loads of people say tinnitus becomes chronic after 3 months, and actually gets worse. Does anyone else get a week long spike every month? Because that's what is really screwing me up at the moment, everytime it improved, suddenly it gets worse.

 

[Cristian Ro]

I found "you" - as this community.
Believe it or not, in the moment of crysis, ANY positive thought is good.
Sharing your problems/solutions will help a hopless guy (like I was).
I was reading and I was thinking: "Oh, many people struggles every day. Am I a coward? How can THEY do it? Am I that strong or not?"
It helped me, really.
Thanks guys!
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I was so hopless I filmed my will, in case of... you know.


To the guy who started this topic: Let's talk in 6 months about your thoughts.
Try to survive for 6 months. If you feel the time passing too slow, cut a line for every day, count the remaining time... think that you're in jail; just try to "survive" for (at least) 6 months.
BTW, you are 18? Don't you have exams in this period? FILL YOUR TIME with challenging things.

From where are you? Have you been to Rome, Paris, London, New York, Amsterdam, Moscow...?
Visit those cities before having suicidal thoughts.
End your life in style! [a serious joke]

 

[fishbone]

Just when I started thinking maybe I could deal with this I went to an ENT, who told me I just need to ignore and basically that it will never go. Ive had it for almost 10 weeks and have been trying to hold onto the hope that it would go? I really need some positive cases where it has gone right now. I'm only 18, and I really don't know how to live like this.

You have an advantage, being young can and will help you cope and adapt. People of all ages can do this, but being younger can make it easier. Don't give up, life is not over at all, my tinnitus is severe and super loud and I manage it and don't think about it.

Sound therapy and counseling can be very helpful to you...be well