First bad day in a while

[caffclifton]

So I haven't had T for very long. In the beginning I was distraught and crying all the time feeling sick and awful.

The last couple of weeks I have been OK... i have been waking up not worrying, working OK, socialising OK and doing normal things. I have been put on some anti anxiety tablets which I think has helped and also have a while noise generator in my ear. I can still hear the T all the time but was less bothersome...

... until today... I just felt a massive wave of emotion and burst into tears. All my fears came back that i couldn't cope, I would be like this forever and that T was going to destroy my life. I think I'm more upset that I was doing so well. I don't know thaws happened today

Hopefully I wake up tomorrow with a better outlook

 

[washashore]

@caffclifton

Your story sounds like my story. I go weeks where I feel like I'm making steady progress towards habituation then BAM, for some reason my T is back front a center of my mind and bothers me every second of the day. Today, for example, I'm really fixating on it for some reason.

I've been dealing with this for a few months now and I know I'll be fine eventually, it just times time. When that doubt or anxiety creeps back into your mind the T can really take over.

When I'm having a tough day (like today) I just have to force myself to get through it even if it sucks. Go to work, go for a jog, have drink with friends. Do whatever you normally do. It will help you feel like you're not letting T win.

 

[caffclifton]

@washashore thanks for your reply. I know deep down I will be fine and I'll just get on with it but it's just annoyed me how well I was doing. I thought I wouldn't feel this low again then all of a sudden today it's hit me.

Kind of makes you feel like your not making progress anymore and I have been so proud of myself the last few weeks for being so strong and just getting back to normal

 

[Christian_B]

No worries guys! you will get better.. it's just a silly sound in the end, mine is very new and for every day that goes by i'll get more and more used to it.. Think about it, nothing has really changed? has it? you can still work, be social, listen to music, having fun in general! ok, we would have to use earplugs when noises are too loud, but in the end everyone should do that..

When you have these days, just think about how many in the world that has tinnitus, and some even worse than yourself... and most of those have learned to live with it!

We are the masters of our life, don't let a stupid T sound ruin your life... that's what i've learned for the past 3-4 weeks.

Hang in there guys!

Sidenote: All the studies going on will (in my opinion) give us a cure someday! maybe in a few years?

 

[Marlene]

Hi Caff,just work through the day your in,you had some good days,there come again,less bothersome,tomorrow another day,we get days as your having now,you've experienced that before,so don't get dishearted.
We've all got a tendency to dwell,but I believe it drags you down further,so just say I'm here today ,I can deal with it,and you will Caff I promise.If I can you can,I'm down in Poole,just down the road from you,so we've got the sun out,get out in it Caff,lift your spirits,take your mind off any sadness your feeling,if you got a dog,go walk it.
Shopping ( clothes ) even better idea.Do you drive ? Chin up for rest of day okay.Were all coper's on here one way or another and live to tell the tale.XX

 

[washashore]

Kind of makes you feel like your not making progress anymore and I have been so proud of myself the last few weeks for being so strong and just getting back to normal

It sounds like you've made a ton of progress it a short time. Setbacks do suck but they are to be expected. Hang in there and I'll do the same.

 

[caffclifton]

Thanks guys @Marlene I would get out In the sun but I'm stuck in the office however I could online shop..... x

 

[Marlene]

There you go Caff ,online shopping,go treat yourself ,say I deserve it,then much later on when you wear it your think yea that was a difficult day I bought this,smile and think boy have I moved on.Thats what happens.
Shame your stuck inside on a day like today,but can go out later ,sit in the sun. Recharge your batteries,and relaxxxxxx,any chance you maybe work with someone who has T ?as some don't mention it ,and some do,that's what I've found in my dealings with it.Your be okay X

 

[Marlene]

Hi Caff hope today your lot happier,new day.How old are you Caff ? If you don't mind answering that question.
Life can beat you up,that's for sure,but it's how you handle these days we all get,hard I know.
Always here to listen,speak for all of us,that's what TT does the best.Listen then get the coping tips amongst other things,things to try,I'm always amazed by what I read on this site Caff,clever fellows whose put lots into T and what goes along with it .lets know how you are today

 

[caffclifton]

Hi Marlene, better today yes, been a very long day. Drove from Oxford to Truro and back. 500 miles in one day

I'm 23 but it's my birthday soon . X

 

[LadyDi]

Hey @caffclifton: Glad things are better now. Having rough days, and feeling like you aren't getting anywhere, is very normal. I felt like that all the time in the beginning. Still do now, every now and then. Like you, when I had those days, I would think: I am not getting any better. Why am I not making progress? But I was. I just didn't realize it. You are making progress, too, a lot of it.

 

[Teri]

Ditto, Ditto, Ditto.....I, too, have good days and then bad days.
The good news is that the good days seem to be more and more.
I love coming to TT to get all the support and encouragement I need.

 

[Marlene]

Hiya Caff glad you had better day,one day up next so,so.T has it's own rules,in its behaviour.but it's not letting T dominate your days,just one of the hardest things that's came along in my life,so were out there Caff hey,
Look how many join this site alone in a week,month,said to my husband whose got T. Like an epidemic of Tinnitus out there,makes me feel sad,as to the young ages with it.
What a fair old run down to Truro,from Oxford,and back as well,weathers been hot to.Got you out that was the best thing as you did feel sad yesterday .Did you get in a Cornish Pasty ?
I lived down in Plymouth Devon ,bought our first house there whist hubby still in Royal Marines my daughter born a Janner( nickname for someone born in Devon) .Love that county.
Hey Caff my birthday on 24th August I'm a Virgo who dislikes the sun. Go figure
I can give you a fair few years though. You go and have some good days don't let T beat at you. Get in an early night,been long day.Your start to pick up again just wait and see we all do promise X

 

[UserID]

No worries guys! you will get better.. it's just a silly sound in the end, mine is very new and for every day that goes by i'll get more and more used to it.. Think about it, nothing has really changed? has it? you can still work, be social, listen to music, having fun in general! ok, we would have to use earplugs when noises are too loud, but in the end everyone should do that..

When you have these days, just think about how many in the world that has tinnitus, and some even worse than yourself... and most of those have learned to live with it!

We are the masters of our life, don't let a stupid T sound ruin your life... that's what i've learned for the past 3-4 weeks.

Hang in there guys!

Sidenote: All the studies going on will (in my opinion) give us a cure someday! maybe in a few years?

Absolutely right. It's all about attitude, and your's sounds on the mark, Christian.

When I was a boy, I could laugh so hard my sides and cheeks would hurt. It was a medicine, those moments, which came most from watching comedians on the Ed Sullivan show. A hard life prior to T making its appearance in '72, and then T's entrance into my life, seems to have melted away whatever funny bone I once had. But I am at least longing for its return, and think there's a pretty good chance of it showing up again.