I´m sorry to tell I have had to postpone the whole thing.
In addition to my severe benzo withdrawal I experienced the greatest shock of my life two weeks ago.
My dear father, best friend and caretaker/supporter had a cardiac arrest and was clinically dead for ten minutes.
For three days, when he was in induced coma nobody could tell if there would be brain damage or not. Or if he would even wake up at all.
It seems now everything have worked out well and he will be ok after they put a stent in his vein.
My life now is a constant panic attack and I'm unable to leave my apartment, even my bed really.
Noxacusis is worse than ever and I´m extremely suicidal.
I hang on just because I can´t disappoint my dad.
I´m sorry!
I am sorry to hear that, and also glad that i seems to be OK. This spring I was 100% dependent on my mother for surviving and she was there for me every day.
Losing that person... I can't imagine. I was a shock when I read the first paragraph.
Take care and hope that you and your dad both get better.