6 days and 13 hours ago on 5/31/2019 I went to an extremely loud metal concert in a small confined bar. No earplugs. I'd been to many concerts before with no effects past the next morning, although I hadn't been to a concert in at least... I'm going to guess 8 to 9 months before the one in question.
Here's my stupid ear diary:
Day 0 (day of show): After the show I basically go right to sleep because it's like 3 AM by the time I get home.
Day 1: Left ear hurts a ton (no ringing). Right ear ringing (no pain) at what I'll call 100% volume. Sound extremely muffled all day. At night, I go to sleep, but wake up around midnight (so 12:30-1 AM on day 2 technically) with a ton of ear pain, also feels like pressure in my forehead.
Day 2: Left ear pain mostly stopped. Pressure has gone away. Right ear down to maybe 80%. Everything sounds like it did before except with the ear ringing added. For the first time in probably ten years I sleep without earplugs because with them, the ringing seems too isolated. I run a fan in my room instead which doesn't totally drown it out but it makes it a bit more bearable. I haven't worn earplugs since.
Day 3: Same very minor left ear pain as day 2. Ringing down to maybe 50%. Sleep terribly, partially due to ringing, partially due to anxiety about the ringing. I spent basically all day in my apartment with some video of a waterfall looping because I notice that sort of makes me ignore the ringing. It seems loudest right when I wake up, fades throughout the day, I stop panicking and thinking "well it's getting quieter" but then when I try to go to sleep it gets back to 50% again and I start freaking out again.
Day 4: Same as day 3. Wake up at 50%, fades through the day to where I start to gain false hope, then goes back up to 50% when I try to go to sleep.
Day 5: Same as day 4, until late in the day, when the left ear pain suddenly comes back quite severely. Right ear still at maybe 50% ringing volume.
Day 6: I start to panic that the ringing has stopped decreasing and go to an ENT. He looks in my ears and sees a ton of earwax which he scoops out. He says that can be a contributing effect and that he's encouraged that he sees earwax because that's a fixable problem that may have a good effect on my other problems. He doesn't think he sees any fluid, perforation, or infection in either ear. I also get a test from an audiologist which shows up all normal. For a few hours after the earwax coming out, the left ear pain stops completely and the ringing goes down even more (still there). However by the time I go to bed, the pain has started again and the ringing is back to about 50%.
Day 7: That's today. It's been nearly a whole week. I don't know if I should give up on this ringing going away. I'm more concerned about the ringing than the pain. I can deal with the pain, it's not too bad even at its worst. But the ear ringing has stopped me from getting more than maybe 5 hours of sleep per night since day 0. Partially it's the ringing and partially it's the fear about it not going away. I know everybody is going to say "tinnitus is made worse by psychology" and that seems true but I can't stop the fear... I don't know when it would be prudent to stop hoping it'll fade and accept it's forever (i.e. bridge jump time).
I am seeing another ENT/MD next week (that'll be day 10), one who my mother (who is not an ENT, but works in another health sector) thinks is the best one around (the first one I saw was just the person who could see me fastest). But I'm not expecting good news to be honest.
If I don't blow my brains out by that point, I do have tickets to two more concerts in about 7 weeks and 7.5 weeks respectively but I'm almost 100% sure I'm not going to go to either of them.
Here's my stupid ear diary:
Day 0 (day of show): After the show I basically go right to sleep because it's like 3 AM by the time I get home.
Day 1: Left ear hurts a ton (no ringing). Right ear ringing (no pain) at what I'll call 100% volume. Sound extremely muffled all day. At night, I go to sleep, but wake up around midnight (so 12:30-1 AM on day 2 technically) with a ton of ear pain, also feels like pressure in my forehead.
Day 2: Left ear pain mostly stopped. Pressure has gone away. Right ear down to maybe 80%. Everything sounds like it did before except with the ear ringing added. For the first time in probably ten years I sleep without earplugs because with them, the ringing seems too isolated. I run a fan in my room instead which doesn't totally drown it out but it makes it a bit more bearable. I haven't worn earplugs since.
Day 3: Same very minor left ear pain as day 2. Ringing down to maybe 50%. Sleep terribly, partially due to ringing, partially due to anxiety about the ringing. I spent basically all day in my apartment with some video of a waterfall looping because I notice that sort of makes me ignore the ringing. It seems loudest right when I wake up, fades throughout the day, I stop panicking and thinking "well it's getting quieter" but then when I try to go to sleep it gets back to 50% again and I start freaking out again.
Day 4: Same as day 3. Wake up at 50%, fades through the day to where I start to gain false hope, then goes back up to 50% when I try to go to sleep.
Day 5: Same as day 4, until late in the day, when the left ear pain suddenly comes back quite severely. Right ear still at maybe 50% ringing volume.
Day 6: I start to panic that the ringing has stopped decreasing and go to an ENT. He looks in my ears and sees a ton of earwax which he scoops out. He says that can be a contributing effect and that he's encouraged that he sees earwax because that's a fixable problem that may have a good effect on my other problems. He doesn't think he sees any fluid, perforation, or infection in either ear. I also get a test from an audiologist which shows up all normal. For a few hours after the earwax coming out, the left ear pain stops completely and the ringing goes down even more (still there). However by the time I go to bed, the pain has started again and the ringing is back to about 50%.
Day 7: That's today. It's been nearly a whole week. I don't know if I should give up on this ringing going away. I'm more concerned about the ringing than the pain. I can deal with the pain, it's not too bad even at its worst. But the ear ringing has stopped me from getting more than maybe 5 hours of sleep per night since day 0. Partially it's the ringing and partially it's the fear about it not going away. I know everybody is going to say "tinnitus is made worse by psychology" and that seems true but I can't stop the fear... I don't know when it would be prudent to stop hoping it'll fade and accept it's forever (i.e. bridge jump time).
I am seeing another ENT/MD next week (that'll be day 10), one who my mother (who is not an ENT, but works in another health sector) thinks is the best one around (the first one I saw was just the person who could see me fastest). But I'm not expecting good news to be honest.
If I don't blow my brains out by that point, I do have tickets to two more concerts in about 7 weeks and 7.5 weeks respectively but I'm almost 100% sure I'm not going to go to either of them.