Hmm, your tinnitus must be a very high pitch but very soft, therefore not intrusive enough so you dont pay attention to it. It is not aggressive tinnitus. Its like a kitty cat tinnitus.
Instead of complaining and feeling sorry for yourself try and seek help by seeing the health professional that I have mentioned. Change your negativity by accentuating the positive things in your life, then you will begin to feel better about yourself.