teacher? haha no I'm far from it, I barely know what zen stands for. I will probably lose credibility for that, but all what I can tell you, I know by looking. I'm trying to convey this because I notice how many people are suffering from this Tinnitus thing.
Look around you, pay full attention and you will see it. Everything, absolutely everything, we got all wrong. We name things too fast. We cannot possibly "know" anything, but we keep doing it thousands times a day in automatic mode. And every single time we do it we are wrong, we just decide the "most convenient" meaning for things for practical reasons I guess, to go through life, but they are all traps.
The "knowing" process, at least in my subjective experience, is kinda messy. I look at a new thing, and somehow, I understand it. Than I look again and see that my understanding of that thing is polluted with a lot of previous "understandings". It gets more obvious when I compare my understanding with the person next to me. I noticed that I see the world around me the way I am. I noticed that no one is capable of really understanding anything.
What do I mean by "anything"? By anything I guess I mean everything. We say that born is good and death is bad, we have words to project an imagination in someone's head like "It would have been" or "I may have done", and we take these imaginations as another "possible realities", and although we always see only one thing happening, always one, we think there are other ways and we "choose" them. Can you see it? If we misunderstood such fundamental things, imagine the whole.
This place, my beloved friends, is a game of perceptions. There are no actual "things" around you. You create those things. It is no magic. There's nothing glamorous about it. But once you realize that, you get free from trusting yours "understandings".
I read some of the threads in this forum, people trying to find the "cure" for Tinnitus, assuming it is bad. Don't get me wrong, I will also try to hear again, I miss music and talks with friends, flirting with girls. But I am not attached to the idea that it is bad. How do I do that? By accepting that I cannot possibly know anything.
Did you noticed that most of people here got actually healthier? They changed their lifestyle to eat better, have supplements and vitamins, started reading more, became more social and have compassion? Maybe for that they avoided getting cancer, maybe for that some found the love of their lives.
Everything is a matter of perspective. Everyone has their own. Everyone is wrong.
Next time you think you know something, put it to the test. See it without understanding it. That is the closest you can get to what it really is. Maybe you will see it now, maybe tomorrow. Maybe you will find out the difference between "normal" and "real".
I decided to believe that I will, someday, be able to convey this to people, and I also decided to believe that this is good. Am I right? Most certainly not. But I will experience this decision every second of my life.
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