Hello,
This is the first time I have really spoken about my T. I have only briefly mentioned my condition to close family members in the past.
I always felt that by talking about it I increased my awareness of it and started a new cycle of noticing-anxiety-sleep problems-increased awareness etc.
I developed T when I was 17, pretty loud 24/7 and most likely from an infection following a bad head cold. I've had it around 24 years now I guess, and don't know of a life without it.
First few years were tough, especially since doing my A levels and degrees, but I ignored it when focussed and came away with top marks.
Then I had many years of living with it very much pushed into the background, I guess you could say I habituated and it would only resurface now and again and I would go in a T cycle for a few days/weeks.
I have never sought any help before and just waited these episodes out.
I have a high-flying career now, kids and responsibilities and I've had my first episode after a very long time. It's been tough as it hit me out of the blue. It has really affected my sleep and anxiety is pretty high.
I'm hopeful I will habituate again and start living again like I used to a couple of months back, running marathons, being a dad and travelling the world. Lately, most I can manage is struggling through work, getting some medicated sleep and living for the better days sandwiched between the tough ones.
Glad I found this forum and sorry for going on. This is very therapeutic.
Jay
This is the first time I have really spoken about my T. I have only briefly mentioned my condition to close family members in the past.
I always felt that by talking about it I increased my awareness of it and started a new cycle of noticing-anxiety-sleep problems-increased awareness etc.
I developed T when I was 17, pretty loud 24/7 and most likely from an infection following a bad head cold. I've had it around 24 years now I guess, and don't know of a life without it.
First few years were tough, especially since doing my A levels and degrees, but I ignored it when focussed and came away with top marks.
Then I had many years of living with it very much pushed into the background, I guess you could say I habituated and it would only resurface now and again and I would go in a T cycle for a few days/weeks.
I have never sought any help before and just waited these episodes out.
I have a high-flying career now, kids and responsibilities and I've had my first episode after a very long time. It's been tough as it hit me out of the blue. It has really affected my sleep and anxiety is pretty high.
I'm hopeful I will habituate again and start living again like I used to a couple of months back, running marathons, being a dad and travelling the world. Lately, most I can manage is struggling through work, getting some medicated sleep and living for the better days sandwiched between the tough ones.
Glad I found this forum and sorry for going on. This is very therapeutic.
Jay