Hi everyone, my name is Joseph and this might be a long story so bear with me. For some time I have been looking at various ways to cope, to treat and to even forget about what I hear. I have had my T for a little more than a month now and I like to believe that it has gone down. It was almost the end of May when I started to develop a fullness of ear and I had hearing loss too just on my left ear. At first I didn't think much of it because I have had this ear feeling before like as if water gets stuck and you just need to get it out for it to be normal once more.
I had finished my spring semester of college and was back home most of the time, cabin fever was sure getting to me. I didn't sleep much the last days of finals and I was so exhausted I felt like collapsing. During the weekend in which the hearing loss started to appear I was overly anxious, frustrated and depressed. I went swimming on the Monday after the weekend and I still felt like my left ear was shut, could hear but sounded strange. On Tuesday I was still very much the same and I closed off my affected ear for much of the afternoon and it popped and could hear well once more, perhaps it just solved itself at the time I was trying to stay busy and mowed the lawn.
I kept thinking to myself that things must be getting better but then the ringing arrived for real at first I thought it would go once my left ear popped. The ringing was steady and very persistent, it made me panic and I searched for anything that could help. I saw vitamins could help, sound therapy, some said that it could be an infection, I searched online for anything I thought would lead me to a cure. At about 12:50am I had difficulty going to sleep, I had tightness feeling in my chest and I felt like my heart was beating way too fast.
Was living at home with parents and woke up my Dad but when I tried to explain what was wrong I couldn't speak actual words, it took me a while but I finally explained. Went to ER, ears were examined and wax was taken out of both, doctor said my left ear one in which I hear the T was sort of inflamed and red so I was prescribed amoxicillin for 10 days. The fast heart rate I had was due to me having heart palpitations most likely due to anxiety over own issues and fear of my ear getting worse and leading to not hearing anymore.
I didn't sleep after I went to the hospital all I could manage is to just lie there waiting to fall into deep sleep but I couldn't. To make thinks worse I had a dentist appointment in the afternoon and had to deal with high pitched buzzing sounds as they pretty much invade everywhere
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For the next 4 days I tried my best to sleep by taking sleeping pills, sometimes it worked and sometimes I used a sound device playing red noise to sleep. I maintained a positive attitude that the T would go after my middle ear infection was treated and my life would be back to normal. I have my good days where I am distracted and worry less about it and days in which I find myself doing nothing but worrying about it therefore letting it intrude in my life. This week has been the worst because a couple days ago I stopped caring but then it got worse or at least my brain perceives it like so. There has been times in which I feel the tone or pitch drops to a lower volume but it still stays sometimes more manageable.
I know that I sort of rambled on about my situation, I just feel like here is the only place that there are people who understand what this feels like. I don't really hear my T outside unless I look for it, I hear it inside my home unless the A/C is on and not in the shower either if I could describe it it would be a constant static sound subtle but once I try and sleep in a quiet room its sharper. Sometimes I feel depressed over it and I become my worst enemy, I should eat more and do more activities to distract myself because I can't keep worrying about it forever. I hope that with time it gets better and I adapt to it or it leaves out the door and can continue on, I am 21 and also a student who hopes it doesn't get in the way of my studies and life.
I had finished my spring semester of college and was back home most of the time, cabin fever was sure getting to me. I didn't sleep much the last days of finals and I was so exhausted I felt like collapsing. During the weekend in which the hearing loss started to appear I was overly anxious, frustrated and depressed. I went swimming on the Monday after the weekend and I still felt like my left ear was shut, could hear but sounded strange. On Tuesday I was still very much the same and I closed off my affected ear for much of the afternoon and it popped and could hear well once more, perhaps it just solved itself at the time I was trying to stay busy and mowed the lawn.
I kept thinking to myself that things must be getting better but then the ringing arrived for real at first I thought it would go once my left ear popped. The ringing was steady and very persistent, it made me panic and I searched for anything that could help. I saw vitamins could help, sound therapy, some said that it could be an infection, I searched online for anything I thought would lead me to a cure. At about 12:50am I had difficulty going to sleep, I had tightness feeling in my chest and I felt like my heart was beating way too fast.
Was living at home with parents and woke up my Dad but when I tried to explain what was wrong I couldn't speak actual words, it took me a while but I finally explained. Went to ER, ears were examined and wax was taken out of both, doctor said my left ear one in which I hear the T was sort of inflamed and red so I was prescribed amoxicillin for 10 days. The fast heart rate I had was due to me having heart palpitations most likely due to anxiety over own issues and fear of my ear getting worse and leading to not hearing anymore.
I didn't sleep after I went to the hospital all I could manage is to just lie there waiting to fall into deep sleep but I couldn't. To make thinks worse I had a dentist appointment in the afternoon and had to deal with high pitched buzzing sounds as they pretty much invade everywhere
. For the next 4 days I tried my best to sleep by taking sleeping pills, sometimes it worked and sometimes I used a sound device playing red noise to sleep. I maintained a positive attitude that the T would go after my middle ear infection was treated and my life would be back to normal. I have my good days where I am distracted and worry less about it and days in which I find myself doing nothing but worrying about it therefore letting it intrude in my life. This week has been the worst because a couple days ago I stopped caring but then it got worse or at least my brain perceives it like so. There has been times in which I feel the tone or pitch drops to a lower volume but it still stays sometimes more manageable.
I know that I sort of rambled on about my situation, I just feel like here is the only place that there are people who understand what this feels like. I don't really hear my T outside unless I look for it, I hear it inside my home unless the A/C is on and not in the shower either if I could describe it it would be a constant static sound subtle but once I try and sleep in a quiet room its sharper. Sometimes I feel depressed over it and I become my worst enemy, I should eat more and do more activities to distract myself because I can't keep worrying about it forever. I hope that with time it gets better and I adapt to it or it leaves out the door and can continue on, I am 21 and also a student who hopes it doesn't get in the way of my studies and life.
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