Hi Martin ,yes T does get you down ,don't think anyone on here would disagree with you .
Same for the anxiety ,and the life you get after it ,I believe you need counselling ,it's sometimes easier to talk your fears over with a complete stranger,then work from there .
Putting thing off won't get you going forward Martin .So go make that start .Just maybe again that maybe what's been needed in relation to your T situation .Help you get settled .
If you need a pill or two ,then that's what you need to be doing ,if they help .You will only be come addicted if you let it .Plenty take them Martin ,and don't get addicted ,if short term .
This has been my hardest challenge ,so your not on your own ,I get the anxiety ,it engulfs you ,on your worst of days .Friends I know locally say exactly the same .Its what it does ,any illness will do it to .Its not printed on our foreheads in capital letters,... I suffer from anxiety ,it's an unseen illness that others don't see ,unless told .
So as from Monday you make that call,and go get some help .thats your first step .
Things will get better ,if you work on it ,with outside help .You know you can do it Martin X