Help I'm Suicidal (Wall of Text)

@Contrast
The emergence of your tinnitus seems to be very similar to my story as well as the character of the tinnitus. In short: I had an accident with my headphones too. I have often listened to podcasts and sadly they vary a lot in sound volume. So I listened to a podcast with a low sound volume and had to set my smartphone to max volume to understand something in a moderate noisy environment. A few days later I wanted to listen to another podcast but I forgot to lower the volume of my headphones. I don't understand why there isn't some kind of safety mechanism which lower the headphones at least when you disconnect and reconnect them to your smartphone. Anyway...the podcast was much too loud for my ears for one second. But as in your case I thought nothing serious happened. I only noticed a weak sensitivity against noise and a very quite beep noise in my left ear which disappeared a few hours after the incident. Sadly I listened a bit to low volume music via my headphones a few days later which was for sure not the best idea in retroperspective. And then 8-10 days later my tinnitus started and increased in the following days. After two horrible weeks where I couldn't get a lot of sleep the tinnitus improved but with several setbacks until now. So I have now one good day with tinnitus level of 1-2/10 followed by a bad day with level of 5-6/10. In the morning after wake up my tinnitus is sometimes barely audible but increases during the day. The tinnitus is very reactive and worsens during sport or moderate noise. Sometimes my own voice is too loud for me. That's the reason why I am wearing ear plugs the whole day. Furthermore I have hearing loss between 2 and 6 khz range which has worsened until now which is a bit scary. Which kind of treatments did you do?
 
Repair the auditory nerve and regrow cochlear hair cells

PROBLEM SOLVED.


I spent four (arguably five) years of my life as a loser introvert and finally decide to go back to school and get a life I was really excited that my life was finally starting to stop sucking. It's all fun and games until I get T/H and hearing loss all because of some mind garbage earrape meme ruining all everything special, my favorite music, sleep, panic attacks for two months straight.

Just as I was recovering from a really dark place in life and escaping depression I was shot down into a hell far worse then I ever imagined. I don't want time to heal this wounds because rationally even if it does the quality of my life will still be total shit. In the mean time yes I will protect my hearing as much as possible because I'm patiently waiting for a scientific breakthrough for everyone.

THE SAME MUSIC THAT MOTIVATED ME TO NOT BE A TOTAL FÜCKING LOSER AND MAKE GOOD CHOICES IN LIFE IS RUINED. I'M COMPLETELY LOST!
Sorry mate I know this thing is tough
 
Well my father got better after 2 and a half years of bad tinnitus. Even at the age of 93. He had had tinnitus before but it was not as bad. Some ear drops he took under recommendation of a doctor worsened his case. His story may be cold comfort for those suffering badly. But I have tried.

Everyone else I know with tinnitus have mild cases so they always tell me that they got used to it eventually .

Marco
 
I dont like therapies, we need a treatment. Cancer patients do not have mindfulness therapies but treatment. Tinnitus is pretty much like cancer, it is a serious disease.

Not really true. 5 of the 10 people in my IOP had cancer and were there for CBT and DBT.
 

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