Hello everyone,
I was very hesitant to be posting here as I am 3 weeks into this thing and am doing my best to habituate, but after lurking for these last few days decided to bite the bullet so here I am.
I want to keep this as brief as possible, but I have a feeling it will get lengthy
Age: 26
Occupation: Cubicle dweller
Sounds I hear: cicadas in both ears, occasional ringing in right ear that sounds like when someone plays music with wine glasses full of water, sometimes like a truck backing up. I also have the sensation of electricity (kinda like when you walk into a house and can sense the TV is on even if you don't hear it)
Sometimes like a mosquito is dying in my ear
Sometimes like a little bell (think of the people who stand outside the mall around Christmas time for donations dressed up as Santa with a bell)
At it's worst, I have the cicadas, plus multiple tones of ringing in both ears.
Medications/supplements currently taking: Melatonin (10G every night), Valerian Root (1 pill 3x a day for anxiety) Benadryl (occasionally replacing melatonin as frequent use gives me headaches), Glycerine supplement (also for anxiety)
Flonase Spray 1x a day
Purchased Claritin D which I've taken once but I think it made ringing worse
Similarly to many on this forum, I love music and I believe it is that love that got me here in the first place.
Never heard of wearing ear plugs to concerts, never heard of tinnitus before I developed it.
Chain of events that I believe led to my development of tinnitus (besides the usual wear and tear such as bars, sports events, etc):
Beginning of October - I am a frequent user of noise cancelling headphones due to VERY noisy upstairs neighbors. I would wear them 4-5 hours daily but at a relatively quiet volume. One Saturday I stayed home and watched movies - and probably used the headphones a bit too long because the next day my hearing was a bit muffled. I also went to the movie theater this day. Everything was fine the next day. No ringing.
Concert on October 11th - was on the balcony so not on the floor by the speakers, felt fine.
Had another one on the 15th - this was in a huge arena and I did notice my ears felt uncomfortable from the bass, but stupidly I stayed through the concert and figured it would also be fine. No ringing/hearing loss the next day.
A few weeks after, I caught a really bad cold, but had plans to go to Austin, TX for Halloween which involved a relatively short flight. I've had 2 other experiences flying with a cold before (no fun) so this time I was prepared with Sudafed, Nasal Spray, and cough drops to prep myself for the pressure changes. Looking back I probably should have stayed home, but I was really excited about this trip with my friends. Of course throughout the weekend we did a bar crawl, went to lots of loud bars and I had no issues other than the cold itself, ears never rang. The cold was pretty damn bad at the end, but I had no issues clearing my ears after the flight back. This cold lingered for a week into November.
About three weekends ago, I had a busy weekend where I went to a concert on a Friday night. It was at a tiny venue/no loud bass or anything like that and we stood in the very front but my ears never felt uncomfortable.
Saturday night - had some water stuck in my ear after a shower. I did all the usual methods to get it out, jumping on my left foot, thinning out the cotton on a q-tip to try to alleviate the water. STUPIDLY I used a fan on my ear briefly to try to dry it out ( all of these methods I got from a forum where people frequently got swimmers ear) UGH, probably the dumbest things I've ever done to this day.
Sunday night - spent a good amount of time in a dive bar, although I don't recall it being super noisy
The following Wednesday, I am sitting at work with my head down looking at my phone, and I hear a loud WOOOSHHHH, and it was almost as if my ears popped and clogged up (kinda that sensation you get on planes) and got a bit of vertigo. I freaked out and went outside and called my mom. I don't recall if I got the ringing then and there, but I definitely noticed it that day.
My mom was convinced it was either the water in my ear or just a side effect from the cold as my left ear felt very stuffed up for the next few days. About 8 days later, I began to panic so I made an appointment with an ENT (the Monday of thanksgiving week). Findings were - no water in the ear, no wax buildup, no infection and my hearing is perfect. He did notice some slight swelling in my left nostril and told me to get Flonase (which I did). He handed me some "reading to do" on my way out - 2 papers describing what Tinnitus was. He did not even bother going over it with me, just laughed it off and said 2 weeks is nothing, come see me if it gets worse.
($800 dollar appointment to see an ENT for less than 10 minutes, what a joke)
I thought I had experienced anxiety and depression before, but boy was I wrong. Over that week, I was in a very very dark place. Of course I started reading Reddit/this forum and started freaking out, and started getting suicidal thoughts. I thought being home for Thanksgiving would make me feel better, but that Saturday night I had a panic attack after some fleeting Tinnitus. Felt a tiny bit better on Sunday.
Monday after Thanksgiving was absolutely terrible. I had hardly gotten any sleep. It didn't help that my coworkers were discussing someone who had jumped in front of their train that morning (suicide). I was sitting at my desk, shaking from my anxiety, cried in the bathroom and my whole body was tensing up and I could not get warm, it was terrifying. I went home that day and slept all day. Could not eat anything for nearly 3 days. That Wednesday, I searched "tinnitus" on Twitter and DM'ed a bunch of people who tweeted about it to find out their experiences. This made me feel a ton better and I think I was almost in a manic state on Wednesday as I felt great/happy again.
I am now writing this exactly a week out and can't say I am in a much better place. Ringing has stayed consistently loud, I think I have developed hyperacusis and I am still unable to sleep through the night without waking up at least 3 times. My anxiety has gotten a tiny bit better after doing a ton of research and finding out how many others live with this condition.
I feel like as if a rug has been pulled out from underneath myself. I feel lost, hopeless, and very low. I can no longer go out to get a drink with my friends as bars/restaurants feel too loud. I have not listened to music/used headphones in the last 3 weeks. I have not had any alcohol as I feel my suicidal thoughts will get worse. I am not only stressing out myself, but my poor mother as well. I studied psychology in school, so I am well aware that depression and medications are nothing to play around with, and fear that this is the life I am facing and will end up alone and in a mental facility. I have been putting on a brave face at work, but I am slowly dying on the inside and already feel myself drifting from my friends.
I had a rough year overall, and had a surgery done in July for which I was bed bound for three weeks. Prior to this surgery was months of being miserable, and being misdiagnosed by THREE doctors until I found one that could help me. Tons of $$ down the drain. A few weeks before getting the tinnitus, I was diagnosed with Achilles Tendinitis (couldn't wear closed heeled shoes for weeks from the pain) which brought on a ton of stress. I'm convinced all of this had a ton to do with my development of tinnitus as well. In general, I am not a very optimistic person, and have had a rough few years and now that I think about it have been anxious and mildly depressed for some time now.
If you made it this far, I applaud you. Thank you for reading my story, and any advice/comments would be greatly appreciated. I've found much comfort in communicating with others who have this condition so hopefully this forum will bring me some peace as well.
I was very hesitant to be posting here as I am 3 weeks into this thing and am doing my best to habituate, but after lurking for these last few days decided to bite the bullet so here I am.
I want to keep this as brief as possible, but I have a feeling it will get lengthy
Age: 26
Occupation: Cubicle dweller
Sounds I hear: cicadas in both ears, occasional ringing in right ear that sounds like when someone plays music with wine glasses full of water, sometimes like a truck backing up. I also have the sensation of electricity (kinda like when you walk into a house and can sense the TV is on even if you don't hear it)
Sometimes like a mosquito is dying in my ear
Sometimes like a little bell (think of the people who stand outside the mall around Christmas time for donations dressed up as Santa with a bell)
At it's worst, I have the cicadas, plus multiple tones of ringing in both ears.
Medications/supplements currently taking: Melatonin (10G every night), Valerian Root (1 pill 3x a day for anxiety) Benadryl (occasionally replacing melatonin as frequent use gives me headaches), Glycerine supplement (also for anxiety)
Flonase Spray 1x a day
Purchased Claritin D which I've taken once but I think it made ringing worse
Similarly to many on this forum, I love music and I believe it is that love that got me here in the first place.
Never heard of wearing ear plugs to concerts, never heard of tinnitus before I developed it.
Chain of events that I believe led to my development of tinnitus (besides the usual wear and tear such as bars, sports events, etc):
Beginning of October - I am a frequent user of noise cancelling headphones due to VERY noisy upstairs neighbors. I would wear them 4-5 hours daily but at a relatively quiet volume. One Saturday I stayed home and watched movies - and probably used the headphones a bit too long because the next day my hearing was a bit muffled. I also went to the movie theater this day. Everything was fine the next day. No ringing.
Concert on October 11th - was on the balcony so not on the floor by the speakers, felt fine.
Had another one on the 15th - this was in a huge arena and I did notice my ears felt uncomfortable from the bass, but stupidly I stayed through the concert and figured it would also be fine. No ringing/hearing loss the next day.
A few weeks after, I caught a really bad cold, but had plans to go to Austin, TX for Halloween which involved a relatively short flight. I've had 2 other experiences flying with a cold before (no fun) so this time I was prepared with Sudafed, Nasal Spray, and cough drops to prep myself for the pressure changes. Looking back I probably should have stayed home, but I was really excited about this trip with my friends. Of course throughout the weekend we did a bar crawl, went to lots of loud bars and I had no issues other than the cold itself, ears never rang. The cold was pretty damn bad at the end, but I had no issues clearing my ears after the flight back. This cold lingered for a week into November.
About three weekends ago, I had a busy weekend where I went to a concert on a Friday night. It was at a tiny venue/no loud bass or anything like that and we stood in the very front but my ears never felt uncomfortable.
Saturday night - had some water stuck in my ear after a shower. I did all the usual methods to get it out, jumping on my left foot, thinning out the cotton on a q-tip to try to alleviate the water. STUPIDLY I used a fan on my ear briefly to try to dry it out ( all of these methods I got from a forum where people frequently got swimmers ear) UGH, probably the dumbest things I've ever done to this day.
Sunday night - spent a good amount of time in a dive bar, although I don't recall it being super noisy
The following Wednesday, I am sitting at work with my head down looking at my phone, and I hear a loud WOOOSHHHH, and it was almost as if my ears popped and clogged up (kinda that sensation you get on planes) and got a bit of vertigo. I freaked out and went outside and called my mom. I don't recall if I got the ringing then and there, but I definitely noticed it that day.
My mom was convinced it was either the water in my ear or just a side effect from the cold as my left ear felt very stuffed up for the next few days. About 8 days later, I began to panic so I made an appointment with an ENT (the Monday of thanksgiving week). Findings were - no water in the ear, no wax buildup, no infection and my hearing is perfect. He did notice some slight swelling in my left nostril and told me to get Flonase (which I did). He handed me some "reading to do" on my way out - 2 papers describing what Tinnitus was. He did not even bother going over it with me, just laughed it off and said 2 weeks is nothing, come see me if it gets worse.
($800 dollar appointment to see an ENT for less than 10 minutes, what a joke)
I thought I had experienced anxiety and depression before, but boy was I wrong. Over that week, I was in a very very dark place. Of course I started reading Reddit/this forum and started freaking out, and started getting suicidal thoughts. I thought being home for Thanksgiving would make me feel better, but that Saturday night I had a panic attack after some fleeting Tinnitus. Felt a tiny bit better on Sunday.
Monday after Thanksgiving was absolutely terrible. I had hardly gotten any sleep. It didn't help that my coworkers were discussing someone who had jumped in front of their train that morning (suicide). I was sitting at my desk, shaking from my anxiety, cried in the bathroom and my whole body was tensing up and I could not get warm, it was terrifying. I went home that day and slept all day. Could not eat anything for nearly 3 days. That Wednesday, I searched "tinnitus" on Twitter and DM'ed a bunch of people who tweeted about it to find out their experiences. This made me feel a ton better and I think I was almost in a manic state on Wednesday as I felt great/happy again.
I am now writing this exactly a week out and can't say I am in a much better place. Ringing has stayed consistently loud, I think I have developed hyperacusis and I am still unable to sleep through the night without waking up at least 3 times. My anxiety has gotten a tiny bit better after doing a ton of research and finding out how many others live with this condition.
I feel like as if a rug has been pulled out from underneath myself. I feel lost, hopeless, and very low. I can no longer go out to get a drink with my friends as bars/restaurants feel too loud. I have not listened to music/used headphones in the last 3 weeks. I have not had any alcohol as I feel my suicidal thoughts will get worse. I am not only stressing out myself, but my poor mother as well. I studied psychology in school, so I am well aware that depression and medications are nothing to play around with, and fear that this is the life I am facing and will end up alone and in a mental facility. I have been putting on a brave face at work, but I am slowly dying on the inside and already feel myself drifting from my friends.
I had a rough year overall, and had a surgery done in July for which I was bed bound for three weeks. Prior to this surgery was months of being miserable, and being misdiagnosed by THREE doctors until I found one that could help me. Tons of $$ down the drain. A few weeks before getting the tinnitus, I was diagnosed with Achilles Tendinitis (couldn't wear closed heeled shoes for weeks from the pain) which brought on a ton of stress. I'm convinced all of this had a ton to do with my development of tinnitus as well. In general, I am not a very optimistic person, and have had a rough few years and now that I think about it have been anxious and mildly depressed for some time now.
If you made it this far, I applaud you. Thank you for reading my story, and any advice/comments would be greatly appreciated. I've found much comfort in communicating with others who have this condition so hopefully this forum will bring me some peace as well.