@Tweaker he man, i feel you, we actually all do here. I have high pitched T in both ears 24/7, some times its louder and there are times when its a little less intrusive.
Its hard, we all strughle here, but i personally stopped showing my daily tourcher to people that surround me. I dont get angry or give much emotions to my T at this point (6 months ago when it started i really wanted to put 9mm in my head), but i choose to push forward, because thats how i am. I used to get angry all the time and was very unfair to my relatives and etc (largely because they say things like "its your imagination"/"it will go away"/etc). I should also mention that one of my co-worker (damn love that kid, great guy) who had AN in his right ear and now is deaf on it + has hissing T. I remember when i told them that i got T - he kinda made a face like in these indian movies when they find their twin or whatever, lol! He gave me few advices and was always easy on talking to me about it is just really uderstanding what i am going through. That kid by the way is very positive and AN made him realize that life is short and you gotta realy live it.
Right now, i am not talking to any body about it, only thing is that i always wear my custon earplugs in venues/loud-is places and just tell people that loud nosises irretate my ears and everyone is cool (good think that my earplugs are very low-profile with either 17db or 29db reduction).
That being said, please give yourself time. Quitting is easy, pushing forward - not so much. Right now there arw few companies out there that are working on winning 20 billion $ / year market for regenerative medicine/therapies for ear problems (hearing loss and all that). Damn 20 billion $ is sh*t ton of money mate! I can tell you that they dont care about us, who suffer from all of this hearing bs, but in order for them to make that kind of money - they gotta make us spend $. Since sufferers went through hell lot of scam procedures/theralies and etc - they now that we won't "eat" something that does not work (at least it should kill T & H), therfore they are really getting on to development of stuff that really works.
Why should you believe in what i have written ? You should't blindly do that, just do the math and see how financial market works,a bit.
5 years ago, there was no pill that could give you even %5 chance of avoiding catching HIV if you have unprotected "sexy time". Now there is pill that give you about 90% chance...i am not sure but it also serves as medicine that slows progression of HIV. And HIV medecine is damn big market too!
So please keep that in mind. There are companies that want to make big $ and are indeed working in that direction.
Also, please remember few things:
1)stop eating non-gmo products (as much as possible)
2) check your blood for difficiency
3) up your omega-3 fatty acids
4) keep omega-3 to omega-6 in 1:4 ratio
5)drink slowly pressed juices (veggie with mix of some fruits)
6) supplement on what are you defficient
7) no alcohol (except some occasional read wine (make sure its good quality, organic)), cut smoking. If you vaping, turn it down to moderate amouns and make sure you use only 100% VG juice (fda approved)
You want to make sure your blood is as "clean" as possible. Body has regenerative potential, but if you stress it with bad food/habbits - ut won't have strong enough immune system to fix what is broken, not even a chance. I really like this guy John Bergman (you can find him on youtube), very good stuff.(i have scoliosis and excercises for restoration/coreection that he shows in his videos really work! Current "hospital medecine" will put you under knife and screw few metal rods in your spine to make few buks on you).
Please PM if you wanna chat, i got your back.
P.S.
Sorry for typos, on the go from cell.