Sorry you're feeling this way. I'm very sorry if I'm not very helpful; I feel the same way most of the time and I can't really console myself all of the time so I'm very sorry if everything I say doesn't sound helpful.
I remember reading a former post of yours where you went into more detail. It's much harder to deal with all of these problems that life has thrown at you, like tinnitus, and severe anxiety, when you feel like you don't have any emotional support from your own family. It's much harder to find the strength to go on when you feel alone. You deserve love from your family and everyone around you. Even if you don't feel it, or you don't feel it is even there, you deserve it. Your life has intrinsic value, and whatever happens, even if you don't feel you're providing any contribution, your existence matters in this world. It would matter if you were no longer here.
Even though it is really hard to face all of these things in life, it helps me personally to remember that pain doesn't last forever. It's hard to assure yourself of that when you're in pain, because you're feeling the pain in that moment, but relief will come one day. Even though it's might be hard to keep going now, sometimes all you have to do is try to get through the day, and that's enough. If you got through the last time you were feeling like this, you can get through this even though it can be so hard sometimes. There's a saying: "If you're going through hell, keep going." Even though it feels like it sometimes, pain won't last forever. There will be a light at the end of the tunnel. Life can be filled with pain, and sadness, and most of the people who face these problems don't deserve them even though they're trying to cope with them, because they have no choice. But one day, everyone will be freed from these things. Whatever faith you follow, whatever religion (or lack of) you believe in, we will be freed of the burdens and shackles of this world in the afterlife. We will find the happiness and peace that eluded us in this life. We'll be relieved one day. No matter what pain you're facing during this life, remember it won't last forever. Life is temporary, and fleeting. People say life is short, but I think that it feels incredibly long while we're facing it because it's the longest thing we've consciously experienced so far. It can feel so overwhelming facing all of the pain. For that reason, it's understandable that it can feel so difficult to get through, along with all of the terrible things that it can throw at us.
Many people who have read your posts care about you, and it would matter to many people if you were no longer here. You're not alone in this, and many people are going through the same thing. I'm very sorry again if this isn't very helpful. But just remember your life matters very much.