- Oct 23, 2018
- 3
- Tinnitus Since
- 01/2016
- Cause of Tinnitus
- probably noise induced, but not sure, 50dB hering loss 4K
Hi fellow sufferers
I first had tinnitus in December 2016, with some hyperacusis. I got habituated to it pretty easily, and after 6 months it wasn't really an issue anymore.
Then, in January 2018, came the big hammer. Unbearable tinnitus set in, and my hyperacusis became so severe, that I couldn't do anything anymore. No bars, no restaurants, no music, no TV, my 4-year-old daughter talking to me made my head explode. I got severely depressed, was home sick for 8 months, lost 25 kilos. I slept 1 to 2 hours a night for almost 3 months. I thought my life was over. I took antidepressants and Xanax, which I know some people are not that fond of, but they definitely helped me get through the darkest days.
After a couple of months it took to get my head around it I started fighting back. I found a great psychotherapist who is specialized in tinnitus cases, who immediately reassured me that hyperacusis can always go away or get better, whatever the reason of the onset. If she's right or wrong, I don't know, but I believed her and that helped me a lot.
ENTs of course could not help me, and I quickly started giving up consulting them. One day I said enough of this. I started going for a drink here and there again. It was really tough, sometimes I left after 10 minutes. I got custom made hearing protection that takes away 20 dB, that helped a lot. The tinnitus perception when you wear them of course is louder, that is not easy to bear, and god mine was loud, I heard it screaming when I was driving my car 150km/h on the highway. I started going to restaurants again. It was tough, I won't deny that, but you need to get going. I'm a metal aficionado. 8 months after the hyperacusis onset I went to my first concert. Life had to come back. Man was I frightened, but I put on my hearing protection, stood at the very back of the room, and had a great evening in the end.
Step by step life came back. My hyperacusis got better, but it was still a major pain in the ass. So was tinnitus. I had some great day here and there where tinnitus was barely noticeable, with very low hyperacusis, just to wake up the next day in hell, and it lasted weeks sometimes, before the next good day.
9 month after onset I went back to work. I started living a healthier lifestyle too. Better food, almost no alcohol, not because I think alcohol makes tinnitus worse, but because you need a clean head to fight back. I go to the sauna and swimming twice a week. I spend time in the nature, I focus on the really important things in life. I focus more on what my needs are, I learned to say no. I still drink a shitload of coffee though, no way in this world am I gonna switch to tea
3 & 1/2 years later, I'm sitting here, I still have tinnitus, but it isn't that much of an issue anymore. Hyperacusis got better to the point that a month ago I went to the fireworks with my now 8-year-old daughter. I had my hearing protection with me, but I didn't really need it, I put it on after 2 minutes just to be on the safe side, but I could have done without. I have bad days here and there, then I put headphones on and listen to "Cicadas" on the ReSound Tinnitus Relief app which imho is amazing. This is not some bullshit advertising, apparently there are in-app purchases there, but the basic app comes with everything I need and you probably too. I even use it on great ear days sometimes just to relax. This app really helped me a lot. What helped me a lot too during really tough hyperacusis days were a pair of in ear Bluetooth headphones with hear through function (I own the Jabra 85t Elite but plenty of other choices out there). If you're in a noisy environment you can decide how much volume you want to let through, while listening to any kind of white noise simultaneously if you feel the need to do so.
As I'm writing this article I have my headphones on and listen to some solid heavy metal of course not on nosebleed volume!
What I want to tell you all is never give up, do not let people tell you that this is permanent, do not let people tell you to stay away from any loud noise permanently. You will end up in isolation, you will become miserable and depressed. Protect your hearing when needed and live your best life, there will be ups and downs, but there will be most probably more and more better days around the corner. It's not an easy journey. Go out though, do what you love.
And when I say protect your hearing, I mean protect when there's a high dB level that can really hurt your hearing. Don't get paranoid, or run around measuring dB's nonstop. I did that, it's utter bullshit. You're common sense tells you what is too loud.
I learned so much about myself through this up and down journey, and you know what, I can say with confidence, that I am a happier and better person now. If somebody would say today ,"I'll take away your tinnitus & hyperacusis in 3 seconds! OK?" I'll say yes without hesitation. If somebody though would say "I'll take away your tinnitus & hyperacusis in 3 seconds! OK?, but you'll become the person you were before" it would probably after some hesitation be a no.
Sounds strange I know but that's the way I feel about it. A lot of good in the bad for me there was actually.
I now live what I consider a normal life, I mostly have good ear days. I have shitty days here and there, but I don't give a flying fuck anymore, because I learned how to deal with it and because I know better days will always be around the corner, and because I'm absolutely convinced that it will get better and better over time.
Don't give up and don't listen to negative people and some of the charlatans on this site, and man there are a lot of them.
I wanted to keep this short, but it seems that didn't work out well
Feel free to ask questions, if you have some, I'll come back to you 100 %, I'll be more then happy to help.
Steve
I first had tinnitus in December 2016, with some hyperacusis. I got habituated to it pretty easily, and after 6 months it wasn't really an issue anymore.
Then, in January 2018, came the big hammer. Unbearable tinnitus set in, and my hyperacusis became so severe, that I couldn't do anything anymore. No bars, no restaurants, no music, no TV, my 4-year-old daughter talking to me made my head explode. I got severely depressed, was home sick for 8 months, lost 25 kilos. I slept 1 to 2 hours a night for almost 3 months. I thought my life was over. I took antidepressants and Xanax, which I know some people are not that fond of, but they definitely helped me get through the darkest days.
After a couple of months it took to get my head around it I started fighting back. I found a great psychotherapist who is specialized in tinnitus cases, who immediately reassured me that hyperacusis can always go away or get better, whatever the reason of the onset. If she's right or wrong, I don't know, but I believed her and that helped me a lot.
ENTs of course could not help me, and I quickly started giving up consulting them. One day I said enough of this. I started going for a drink here and there again. It was really tough, sometimes I left after 10 minutes. I got custom made hearing protection that takes away 20 dB, that helped a lot. The tinnitus perception when you wear them of course is louder, that is not easy to bear, and god mine was loud, I heard it screaming when I was driving my car 150km/h on the highway. I started going to restaurants again. It was tough, I won't deny that, but you need to get going. I'm a metal aficionado. 8 months after the hyperacusis onset I went to my first concert. Life had to come back. Man was I frightened, but I put on my hearing protection, stood at the very back of the room, and had a great evening in the end.
Step by step life came back. My hyperacusis got better, but it was still a major pain in the ass. So was tinnitus. I had some great day here and there where tinnitus was barely noticeable, with very low hyperacusis, just to wake up the next day in hell, and it lasted weeks sometimes, before the next good day.
9 month after onset I went back to work. I started living a healthier lifestyle too. Better food, almost no alcohol, not because I think alcohol makes tinnitus worse, but because you need a clean head to fight back. I go to the sauna and swimming twice a week. I spend time in the nature, I focus on the really important things in life. I focus more on what my needs are, I learned to say no. I still drink a shitload of coffee though, no way in this world am I gonna switch to tea
3 & 1/2 years later, I'm sitting here, I still have tinnitus, but it isn't that much of an issue anymore. Hyperacusis got better to the point that a month ago I went to the fireworks with my now 8-year-old daughter. I had my hearing protection with me, but I didn't really need it, I put it on after 2 minutes just to be on the safe side, but I could have done without. I have bad days here and there, then I put headphones on and listen to "Cicadas" on the ReSound Tinnitus Relief app which imho is amazing. This is not some bullshit advertising, apparently there are in-app purchases there, but the basic app comes with everything I need and you probably too. I even use it on great ear days sometimes just to relax. This app really helped me a lot. What helped me a lot too during really tough hyperacusis days were a pair of in ear Bluetooth headphones with hear through function (I own the Jabra 85t Elite but plenty of other choices out there). If you're in a noisy environment you can decide how much volume you want to let through, while listening to any kind of white noise simultaneously if you feel the need to do so.
As I'm writing this article I have my headphones on and listen to some solid heavy metal of course not on nosebleed volume!
What I want to tell you all is never give up, do not let people tell you that this is permanent, do not let people tell you to stay away from any loud noise permanently. You will end up in isolation, you will become miserable and depressed. Protect your hearing when needed and live your best life, there will be ups and downs, but there will be most probably more and more better days around the corner. It's not an easy journey. Go out though, do what you love.
And when I say protect your hearing, I mean protect when there's a high dB level that can really hurt your hearing. Don't get paranoid, or run around measuring dB's nonstop. I did that, it's utter bullshit. You're common sense tells you what is too loud.
I learned so much about myself through this up and down journey, and you know what, I can say with confidence, that I am a happier and better person now. If somebody would say today ,"I'll take away your tinnitus & hyperacusis in 3 seconds! OK?" I'll say yes without hesitation. If somebody though would say "I'll take away your tinnitus & hyperacusis in 3 seconds! OK?, but you'll become the person you were before" it would probably after some hesitation be a no.
Sounds strange I know but that's the way I feel about it. A lot of good in the bad for me there was actually.
I now live what I consider a normal life, I mostly have good ear days. I have shitty days here and there, but I don't give a flying fuck anymore, because I learned how to deal with it and because I know better days will always be around the corner, and because I'm absolutely convinced that it will get better and better over time.
Don't give up and don't listen to negative people and some of the charlatans on this site, and man there are a lot of them.
I wanted to keep this short, but it seems that didn't work out well
Feel free to ask questions, if you have some, I'll come back to you 100 %, I'll be more then happy to help.
Steve