It's quite sad that you are having the same problems and making the same points that I made a long time ago. What Leigh doesn't understand, clearly, is that being in a suicidal state lowers one's self-esteem. I know some may not think it's a big deal to click "funny" on someone's post about suffering. Like, it's just an internet forum, right? Yeah, back when I was healthy I would view it the same way.
When you are extremely disabled, you genuinely feel like a burden to everyone in your life, you can't work so you can't provide anything, you constantly inconvenience everyone -- even if they don't complain. You feel like a worthless piece of shitty biological meat just holding people back. So yeah, when you log onto a support forum and someone thinks it's funny that you have no control over your disability, it's pretty hurtful. I'm not ashamed to admit that.
He will never understand, which is why I placed him on ignore. I am revisiting a Leigh post for the first time in a while. I suggest that you place him on ignore and be done with it. The forum experience really is better with his content hidden. I do, however, feel bad for the people who are going to injure themselves from his advice.