Yeah, I think the middle ear stuff can be more controlled to neck and face pain. I read the Stapedius and Tensor Tympani can be connected to nerves all over. I mean if something causes me pain at this point, I completely avoid it. Pushing through, will result in worsening. I'm not in complete silence all day, the only way for my days to be quiet from road noise is for me to sit in my living room near the kitchen. The fridge is kinda loud. But I try to not wear earplugs as much as possible. Seems we have to gently push when our ears are ready. I have been struggling not being able to watch TV on any volume and discovered I can watch only on my living room TV from a very specific stereo.
Only comedy shows with voices just on a volume I can barely hear them. I found some days it even eases some of the inner ear pain. Don't know how. I guess that's the spot I need to gently push. I mean on any other audio from anything I get that inner ear gnawing and the pain gets worse in until I get a setback and have an episode. I think finding the sweet spot our ears can handle is important because my pain from other artificial audio is still bad but not catastrophic.
Sound therapy for this noxacusis crap is Russian roulette, you need to pay very close attention to how your ears handle it. I think there will be more research in the future but it makes you think, if every one of us has that sweet spot that our ears like, can it help. Maybe, some people think only complete silence works, others think sound therapy works. I think it could definitely be both. All my life I have been working out and studying the body. Every single thing can be improved. I tore my peck off the bone from benching. What did i do? Take years off chest, let it heal and slowly built it back up. This is a nerve, not a muscle, but I think it could be the same idea. This ear shit is tricky because for any other injuries it's like ok, don't do what makes it worse, but if every single noise makes it worse than what can you do?
I can tell you I won't be living at this level forever, if I don't off myself and drugs don't work I'll find something. Be cause some people like ourselves just stay inside and never leave again. Fuck that bro. I am perfectly happy living a quiet life but I need to leave the house with earplugs in and be ok. I think you agree. I definitely will not go to loud places ever again. But improving from ground 0 is a must. Our lives are not designed to be lived like this, they just are not. Humans need to be social, exercise, make money, to be able to be okay. I mean in order to get better from this you literally need money, or a silent job, live alone, have family and friends near by to help get your stuff.
I'm glad you've found something you can do with the Comedy audio for now. Another poster said at one point that when they listened to music their hyperacusis started to feel better.
It's weird because in the past sometimes, rarely, I would have that too. Like the muscles tensed up initially, but then eased off and it actually felt somewhat good. I still avoided pushing it at that time because I figured it was ultimately something that would still lead to a setback and sometimes it still did lead to some pain.
Before, once I started to get better, going to physical therapy and getting neck massage helped me a lot. I wish I could do that now just for the massage. I can't really afford to pay someone to come in regularly to my house and I don't know if I could tolerate it anyway. I'm often having to whisper to my kids right now. So speaking to anyone is difficult. My kids' teachers look at me like I'm crazy with earmuffs on all the time. I hate being looked at like I'm mentally ill when I'm suffering from some rare nightmare that they thankfully don't have to experience.
My youngest son got up angry this morning and came over to me and said sternly several times "you didn't give us as much time to sleep". He wasn't yelling but he got close to my face. I had to ease him back and remind him how sensitive my ears are right now. And sure enough I got deep aching pain in both ears that's been on and off for 2.5 hours now from it.
Yesterday my daughter ran downstairs in the basement room and got her keyboard and brought it to the main living area as soon as we got home from school. She just starts bashing away at it while I'm trying to put up book bags and things before I could escape to the top floor.
Only my oldest son gets it. He is very considerate and respectful of my condition. My 6-year-old twins I have to constantly say please don't do whatever you're doing and they just don't seem to care. It breaks my heart and of course worries me that it will keep me from improving. They've always been this way even when I was in much better condition before.
Sorry for going off on a tangent. I hear you on needing to get out. I mean I felt like I was avoiding loud places for the most part. I did take my kids to the water park this summer, but I wore earplugs and stayed away from the louder rides. I just rode the lazy river and helped them on some kids' rides. I took them to a small Greek festival in town, but I completely avoided the music stage. We just went to the food areas and to see the art.
I really didn't think going in a record store with music at like 70ish dB was gonna ruin my year of improvement. God how I regret it and all subsequent tiny things that then chipped away to the point I'm at now. I'm just in shock honestly. From your story it seems similar with the gradual decline. It's just ridiculous.
Like you said you need money, isolation, family etc to heal from this and I don't have any of that currently. I feel like I'm facing such an uphill battle. And I don't want to basically have to abandon my kids to recover. But I'm not worth much to them right now in this state. I can't hear them through the earplugs so we barely talk. I just take them to school and back, feed them and do their basic needs like make sure they bath. I'm basically like a nanny or home health aide, not a father now.