- Aug 2, 2015
- 189
- Tinnitus Since
- (2008 initially) 2015 as I know it today
- Cause of Tinnitus
- Initially stress, but noise exposure made it worse
I'm really reaching out for any help/advice/personal experience from people here.
I (absolutely stupidly) kicked my bedroom door in anger 19 days ago (unrelated to tinnitus). The actual door cracked under the pressure of the kick and the door swung into the bedroom resulting with the handle banging against the wall, creating a huge bang.
The bedroom also was completely empty (since I'm redecorating it), and the echo from the bang was just as painful as the noise created by the pressure of the door handle hitting the wall.
As soon as this happened my tinnitus immediately shot up for several seconds, and only receded to a level that is much higher than my baseline.
As of now 19 days later it is still bad. This new level of tinnitus is intruding into areas of life that it previously didn't, and I feel truly and completely hopeless and constantly upset. I will not lie about the fact that now every day the only salvation I feel I have is by forfeiting my life. I will not do this though, as I can't upset my loved ones like that, plus I still am hanging onto a thread of hope that it may subside.
Usually, whenever my tinnitus spikes from a loud noise (car horn, door slam etc), it takes no longer than a week to recover. I am on day 19 now with no recovery, and with every day that passes I am extremely worried that this will be a permanent increase.
Sure, the door bang was loud, but I don't understand how it could have been loud enough to cause such a surge in my tinnitus? It was no gun shot by any means. I really thought that I would have recovered now by this.
The only glimmer of hope I perhaps have noticed is that maybe the pitch of the tinnitus has slightly lowered since the first week. However, this is really just me grabbing at straws, as there is not much of a tangible difference that I can tell. I may be trying to convince myself this, because it means that if there has been a change then that could mean that it has more potential to improve.
I am also incredibly angry with myself for doing something so stupid. I have gone to great lengths over the past year to protect my ears whenever I go anywhere too loud, and I have unpicked all my hard work with one stupid, self inflicted momentary lapse in my temper.
Right now, I feel no optimism for the future, plus I don't feel like I will be able to do any of the activities that I love to do (landscape photography, camping, travel, relaxing, and generally just being!). I am also angry at feeling like it has all been taken away from me. I'm only 29, have a wonderful life and had such optimism for the future.
I keep telling myself to give it 3 months to have a full chance to recover. It's just that I feel no hope that it will improve, given that my ear usually would have recovered by now. Plus, right now I am in agony and am a truly awful person for my partner to be around.
Has anyone experienced something like this loud bang or can offer any type of help/advice?
Thank you so much in advance all.
R
I (absolutely stupidly) kicked my bedroom door in anger 19 days ago (unrelated to tinnitus). The actual door cracked under the pressure of the kick and the door swung into the bedroom resulting with the handle banging against the wall, creating a huge bang.
The bedroom also was completely empty (since I'm redecorating it), and the echo from the bang was just as painful as the noise created by the pressure of the door handle hitting the wall.
As soon as this happened my tinnitus immediately shot up for several seconds, and only receded to a level that is much higher than my baseline.
As of now 19 days later it is still bad. This new level of tinnitus is intruding into areas of life that it previously didn't, and I feel truly and completely hopeless and constantly upset. I will not lie about the fact that now every day the only salvation I feel I have is by forfeiting my life. I will not do this though, as I can't upset my loved ones like that, plus I still am hanging onto a thread of hope that it may subside.
Usually, whenever my tinnitus spikes from a loud noise (car horn, door slam etc), it takes no longer than a week to recover. I am on day 19 now with no recovery, and with every day that passes I am extremely worried that this will be a permanent increase.
Sure, the door bang was loud, but I don't understand how it could have been loud enough to cause such a surge in my tinnitus? It was no gun shot by any means. I really thought that I would have recovered now by this.
The only glimmer of hope I perhaps have noticed is that maybe the pitch of the tinnitus has slightly lowered since the first week. However, this is really just me grabbing at straws, as there is not much of a tangible difference that I can tell. I may be trying to convince myself this, because it means that if there has been a change then that could mean that it has more potential to improve.
I am also incredibly angry with myself for doing something so stupid. I have gone to great lengths over the past year to protect my ears whenever I go anywhere too loud, and I have unpicked all my hard work with one stupid, self inflicted momentary lapse in my temper.
Right now, I feel no optimism for the future, plus I don't feel like I will be able to do any of the activities that I love to do (landscape photography, camping, travel, relaxing, and generally just being!). I am also angry at feeling like it has all been taken away from me. I'm only 29, have a wonderful life and had such optimism for the future.
I keep telling myself to give it 3 months to have a full chance to recover. It's just that I feel no hope that it will improve, given that my ear usually would have recovered by now. Plus, right now I am in agony and am a truly awful person for my partner to be around.
Has anyone experienced something like this loud bang or can offer any type of help/advice?
Thank you so much in advance all.
R