Hi everyone. I hope none of you are going through a rough time right now. I am wondering if there is something I should try or do, I'm confused.
My tinnitus started with a sudden high pitched ringing and a noticable feeling in my left ear, maybe pressure, accompanied with a feeling of temporary deafness. I had ringing before but it would come and then subside within a few seconds.
This time, the ringing stayed. It mixes in with mid to higher pitched sounds. Everything mid to higher pitched sounds like my pain threshold for the sound has been lowered. The ringing sometimes shifts to the right ear. Whenever something higher pitched like my AC unit or the fridge (the worst of the two) kicks on, I can't take it.
The disorienting feeling of everything sounding off and whistly combined with my perceived sense of pain to these sounds, like everything mid to high pitched triggers the same feeling of hearing one of those mosquito phone apps, has made the sounds and thinking about my life before this instantly start to trigger a panic attack. I used to be so carefree. Now I'm either numb or having an anxiety attack.
The doctors cleaned my ears out with water and peroxide, got some earwax out but didn't do much. I came back two days later and was desperately seeking help. They put me on atarax. That just made me sleepy. Woke up and had another panic attack.
I can feel my chest tighten and I can't sleep. The doctors put me on xanax and celexa. I am taking Prilosec for heartburn, even though I heard it can make it worse, I can't take the extreme heartburn combined with this, it's because I barely eat because of the emotional stress this is putting on my body. I can barely sleep. I have to take melatonin to just get like two hours. I've lost 12 pounds. In 12 days.
How am I supposed to habituate to a tone that piggybacks onto mid and high range frequencies which also has the feeling of a high frequency noise? What does Jastreboff or whoever say about that? Anyone else have this? Had it for 11 days. This is absolutely hell, not just annoying but mentally debilitating. I can't focus on anything else. They say do something you love and distract yourself. I tried but I love programming, video games, and watching YouTube. Try programming on 2 hours of sleep, I don't have enough of a carefree feeling to play games, and tv hurts my damn ears and just causes me pain. I started pacing and talking to myself to try to solve this problem but it isn't able to be solved. Unless I can find a specific pill, which I hear wears off anyway if it DOES work, or if someone can help me do my own specialized TRT.
I'm worried what being in fight or flight more on than off for 11 STRAIGHT DAYS will do to my body besides not being able to keep the little food I do eat from going right through me. I stopped worrying about whether I'll get better, which was a huge source of stress, nobody knows. I am just worried about the physical effects this will have. I can't take puking on top of this. This will manifest into a heart attack if I keep this up.
Please, someone help. This isn't just regular old T. It reacts. It hurts. My pain tolerance is already low. I tried meditation and it makes me just feel frustrated that I can't get into it anymore. Has anyone had this before? Did you habituate? How do I speed up my process? How do I make the stress stop when whenever I listen to the sounds, another panic attack starts up? How do I open if I'll ever habituate? Lastly, these medications. What am I going to do? I don't want to become addicted. Or get off of them and have the t or h get worse. It gets worse at night.
My tinnitus started with a sudden high pitched ringing and a noticable feeling in my left ear, maybe pressure, accompanied with a feeling of temporary deafness. I had ringing before but it would come and then subside within a few seconds.
This time, the ringing stayed. It mixes in with mid to higher pitched sounds. Everything mid to higher pitched sounds like my pain threshold for the sound has been lowered. The ringing sometimes shifts to the right ear. Whenever something higher pitched like my AC unit or the fridge (the worst of the two) kicks on, I can't take it.
The disorienting feeling of everything sounding off and whistly combined with my perceived sense of pain to these sounds, like everything mid to high pitched triggers the same feeling of hearing one of those mosquito phone apps, has made the sounds and thinking about my life before this instantly start to trigger a panic attack. I used to be so carefree. Now I'm either numb or having an anxiety attack.
The doctors cleaned my ears out with water and peroxide, got some earwax out but didn't do much. I came back two days later and was desperately seeking help. They put me on atarax. That just made me sleepy. Woke up and had another panic attack.
I can feel my chest tighten and I can't sleep. The doctors put me on xanax and celexa. I am taking Prilosec for heartburn, even though I heard it can make it worse, I can't take the extreme heartburn combined with this, it's because I barely eat because of the emotional stress this is putting on my body. I can barely sleep. I have to take melatonin to just get like two hours. I've lost 12 pounds. In 12 days.
How am I supposed to habituate to a tone that piggybacks onto mid and high range frequencies which also has the feeling of a high frequency noise? What does Jastreboff or whoever say about that? Anyone else have this? Had it for 11 days. This is absolutely hell, not just annoying but mentally debilitating. I can't focus on anything else. They say do something you love and distract yourself. I tried but I love programming, video games, and watching YouTube. Try programming on 2 hours of sleep, I don't have enough of a carefree feeling to play games, and tv hurts my damn ears and just causes me pain. I started pacing and talking to myself to try to solve this problem but it isn't able to be solved. Unless I can find a specific pill, which I hear wears off anyway if it DOES work, or if someone can help me do my own specialized TRT.
I'm worried what being in fight or flight more on than off for 11 STRAIGHT DAYS will do to my body besides not being able to keep the little food I do eat from going right through me. I stopped worrying about whether I'll get better, which was a huge source of stress, nobody knows. I am just worried about the physical effects this will have. I can't take puking on top of this. This will manifest into a heart attack if I keep this up.
Please, someone help. This isn't just regular old T. It reacts. It hurts. My pain tolerance is already low. I tried meditation and it makes me just feel frustrated that I can't get into it anymore. Has anyone had this before? Did you habituate? How do I speed up my process? How do I make the stress stop when whenever I listen to the sounds, another panic attack starts up? How do I open if I'll ever habituate? Lastly, these medications. What am I going to do? I don't want to become addicted. Or get off of them and have the t or h get worse. It gets worse at night.
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