I Destroyed My Hearing — How Can I Forgive Myself?

[coffee_girl]

I could've avoided this. This was my own stupidity for doing too long hours and not letting my ears rest.

I hate myself for this. I've done pretty stupid things in the past but this..

I can't enjoy anything. I've even noticed I have been more distant to my girlfriend. If I hug her, I don't concentrate on the feeling, only this high pitch in my head.

It feels I am not "here" anymore. I feel detached from the world, I cannot connect to it anymore. I see things, taste things, hear things, but it feels unreal.

I have barely smiled during the week.

I destroyed my hearing. How do I forgive myself?

Forgiveness takes time, and time heals all. Focus on other things for a while and give your ears a break.

 

[Jack Straw]

I'm sure others have said this but you have had it less than a month. There is a very good chance it will fade or get better.

It also does get better over time. Your emotional response to it will change slowly and you will be able to live with it.

 

[dellwas]

I'm sure others have said this but you have had it less than a month. There is a very good chance it will fade or get better.

It also does get better over time. Your emotional response to it will change slowly and you will be able to live with it.

I can attest to that. Mine started on Feb. 7th. I had five good days last week in a row, barely noticable. Bad day three days days ago, next day it totally disappeared for 6 hours. Up again yesterday, but manageable. Today very slight hum in one ear only, could hardly detect it. So there is hope. For the record I have an inflamed eustachian tube, and suffering from BPPV. My concussion doc who also has tinnitus, is optimistic for recovery in my case.