Dehydration, dry air, allergens. These were the things responsible for my tinnitus.
Starting with an incident on a school bus half a life time ago, I'd live with ringing in my right ear. Pressure also built up, sometimes to the point of pain. Recently I've learned that the outer edges of the cochlea - especially the part facing the eardrum - is responsible for detecting higher frequencies. It works like the opposite of a wind instrument in that the largest part detects the highest pitch, and the smallest part detects the lowest pitch. Since this is a sensory organ rather than a brass instrument, I can understand why.
What also makes sense is the idea that perhaps packed mucus can affect blood circulation in that region of the cochlea, maybe killing delicate hair sells there or at least rendering them dysfunctional. It's worth noting that in addition having tinnitus, my right ear is weakened and can't hear much over 8000 khz.
In any case, I had habituated to the noise, and possibly the pressure, and I wasn't bothered unless it became truly awful or painful. Over the years I'd have good times and bad, but lately that variation has become more severe than not:
In 2014 I awoke to a building pressure in my left ear, the good one, that would turn out to be an ear infection. This was after sleeping under the air current of a fan placed across the room. I liked sleeping under fans - the noise and wind was soothing. I haven't done that since...
Between 2014 and 2016 I'd hear an intermittent ringing in that ear, usually at a low frequency - around 3khz. Tensing the muscles around my euchastian tubes such that they made a slight popping noise cleared that up in seconds... so I wasn't worried about it.
On one morning in 2016, that stopped working. It's been ringing ever since at varying intensities. At one point I thought it had gone away, but it stabilized at an easily masked level that I only notice when I'm in a quiet room, and only if I focus on it. The tinnitus frequency between ears are very similar and at around 8 khz. It's louder on the right, and thus feels like it's still on that side of my head. Unless it gets bad...
Christmas Eve 2017, I had a spike brought on by severe congestion. Everything sounded weird and tinny, and even a little painful. I was fearful of another impending infection, so I immediately ran out and bought Benadryl Cold and Sinus, which has a decongestant. By the end of that day I could feel it draining and getting back to normal. From then on I considered that medication to be my "Nuclear Option" for dealing with that situation.
So when last month I experienced a tinnitus spike so severe it brought me to tears, I thought that I knew what to do, and it almost worked. The next few days was off and on... but I was never sure and I was always aware of the side effects (Benadryl makes you sleepy and negatively affects your memory), so I was reluctant to take the maximum safe dosage. Eventually the tinnitus settled at a constant frightening level despite that initial effort to control it. Adding insult to injury, it would worsen as soon as I attempt sleep, and if I managed to actually fall asleep, it would wake me up early the next morning.
Sleep deprived, distracted, and anxious, for a few days it felt like I was falling apart. At the darkest point, when I was thinking of something I shouldn't be thinking about, it helped to consider what my Dad is currently going through - he has a form of ALS. Though the prognosis isn't as dire as someone with the traditional variant, he's still severely weakened. This is a man who made a career out of physical labor. He's an expert martial artist and Air Force veteran. He was a landscaper, a bricklayer, a roofer, and so on. His asset was his ability to move and keep going until the job was done. This disease has taken that from him.
I've been depressed about that anyway, but in the midst of my own issue, I realized something - Dad's still strong. Mentally he's undefeated. Half of his strength was always his mind, it's what allowed him to push his body further than most, and his disease won't ever take that.
I decided that if he can do it - if he can wake up every day with nerve pains and muscle weakness and keep going - to continue do things that others in his situation wouldn't even consider - I can take some ringing in my ears. What I have is nothing compared to what he's going through.
The way I think of it - tinnitus is pain. We may not perceive it as such until it gets bad, but that's what it is. In addition, there's no cure for most to suffer it. But know that you're not alone. You're not limited to relating to those with the same condition either - Many people suffer different, incurable pains, often severe, and they manage to deal with it. They keep going. If you need strength, think of these people. Chances are, you already know someone.
As for me, that put an end to my dark thoughts and spurred a renewed resolve to get to the bottom of things.
So after a lot of thinking and more trial and error, I've concluded that it was my environment and the bad habits that encouraged it:
The ringing in the second ear began at the previous apartment in 2016. One reason I moved is that I suspected that the place was infested with mold or some other allergen. There was also a gaping hole above the blower and behind the filter - meaning that nasty above-ceiling air was being blown all throughout the apartment. Any time the AC ran, my tinnitus would spike. When I left, I felt a massive improvement.
So when I saw that filter just lying there this month, I got kinda mad. Nearly a month of struggling at that point may have been triggered by that one thing... though if I were honest, it was much more than that. I was living in filth, and my body had finally had enough.
And while rectifying that helped a great deal, I decided to start taking Dayquil to forcibly drain my ears, as I had begun to notice they were feeling pressurized. Dayquil contains a compound called Phenylephrine, which is also in Benadryl Cold and Sinus. I originally bought the Dayquil to sooth the extremely sore throat I get when I catch a cold. When I noticed it had the same active ingredient for decongesting that the special Benadryl had (normal Benadryl does not have it - and no, it did not help), I decided to start taking that instead.
This was the start of a sort of "Great Awakening" in the understanding of my tinnitus. That... at least in my case, it's probably entirely mucus related. It's worth mentioning that during the worst of it, I was constantly coughing up flem. I had a persistent cough in general that I learned to just ignore... and all of this was that negligence coming to a head. All the allergens, the bad habits, the dehydration, made for a gross thick mucus generating machine... in my face.
For the past three days that I have taken Dayquil, I have felt it draining from my eustachian tubes, and I can tell you that the sensation feels very alien to me... it's like having a runny nose inside your head. I can also lie down without the tinnitus worsening, and last night, I had my first normal, non-melatonin assisted nights rest in about five or six weeks!
So I think what happened is that both my ears were already clogged up. All that is needed each time was the littlest push from the season changing, an unclean bachelor lifestyle, the AC drying the air up or pushing around dust, stupid kids, and things like that. When the mucus builds up, the ringing intensity increases. In ears without tinnitus, it starts. Sometimes it goes away, but eventually it doesn't.
Suffice it to say, I've developed a new appreciation for the delicate structures of the middle and inner ear. I'm 31 and could live another 50 years, so I don't want things to get worse than they already are. I'm going to take this more seriously now and report the situation to my ENT.
Though the tinnitus continues, I am in control, and for sure... it's a great feeling.
Starting with an incident on a school bus half a life time ago, I'd live with ringing in my right ear. Pressure also built up, sometimes to the point of pain. Recently I've learned that the outer edges of the cochlea - especially the part facing the eardrum - is responsible for detecting higher frequencies. It works like the opposite of a wind instrument in that the largest part detects the highest pitch, and the smallest part detects the lowest pitch. Since this is a sensory organ rather than a brass instrument, I can understand why.
What also makes sense is the idea that perhaps packed mucus can affect blood circulation in that region of the cochlea, maybe killing delicate hair sells there or at least rendering them dysfunctional. It's worth noting that in addition having tinnitus, my right ear is weakened and can't hear much over 8000 khz.
In any case, I had habituated to the noise, and possibly the pressure, and I wasn't bothered unless it became truly awful or painful. Over the years I'd have good times and bad, but lately that variation has become more severe than not:
In 2014 I awoke to a building pressure in my left ear, the good one, that would turn out to be an ear infection. This was after sleeping under the air current of a fan placed across the room. I liked sleeping under fans - the noise and wind was soothing. I haven't done that since...
Between 2014 and 2016 I'd hear an intermittent ringing in that ear, usually at a low frequency - around 3khz. Tensing the muscles around my euchastian tubes such that they made a slight popping noise cleared that up in seconds... so I wasn't worried about it.
On one morning in 2016, that stopped working. It's been ringing ever since at varying intensities. At one point I thought it had gone away, but it stabilized at an easily masked level that I only notice when I'm in a quiet room, and only if I focus on it. The tinnitus frequency between ears are very similar and at around 8 khz. It's louder on the right, and thus feels like it's still on that side of my head. Unless it gets bad...
Christmas Eve 2017, I had a spike brought on by severe congestion. Everything sounded weird and tinny, and even a little painful. I was fearful of another impending infection, so I immediately ran out and bought Benadryl Cold and Sinus, which has a decongestant. By the end of that day I could feel it draining and getting back to normal. From then on I considered that medication to be my "Nuclear Option" for dealing with that situation.
So when last month I experienced a tinnitus spike so severe it brought me to tears, I thought that I knew what to do, and it almost worked. The next few days was off and on... but I was never sure and I was always aware of the side effects (Benadryl makes you sleepy and negatively affects your memory), so I was reluctant to take the maximum safe dosage. Eventually the tinnitus settled at a constant frightening level despite that initial effort to control it. Adding insult to injury, it would worsen as soon as I attempt sleep, and if I managed to actually fall asleep, it would wake me up early the next morning.
Sleep deprived, distracted, and anxious, for a few days it felt like I was falling apart. At the darkest point, when I was thinking of something I shouldn't be thinking about, it helped to consider what my Dad is currently going through - he has a form of ALS. Though the prognosis isn't as dire as someone with the traditional variant, he's still severely weakened. This is a man who made a career out of physical labor. He's an expert martial artist and Air Force veteran. He was a landscaper, a bricklayer, a roofer, and so on. His asset was his ability to move and keep going until the job was done. This disease has taken that from him.
I've been depressed about that anyway, but in the midst of my own issue, I realized something - Dad's still strong. Mentally he's undefeated. Half of his strength was always his mind, it's what allowed him to push his body further than most, and his disease won't ever take that.
I decided that if he can do it - if he can wake up every day with nerve pains and muscle weakness and keep going - to continue do things that others in his situation wouldn't even consider - I can take some ringing in my ears. What I have is nothing compared to what he's going through.
The way I think of it - tinnitus is pain. We may not perceive it as such until it gets bad, but that's what it is. In addition, there's no cure for most to suffer it. But know that you're not alone. You're not limited to relating to those with the same condition either - Many people suffer different, incurable pains, often severe, and they manage to deal with it. They keep going. If you need strength, think of these people. Chances are, you already know someone.
As for me, that put an end to my dark thoughts and spurred a renewed resolve to get to the bottom of things.
So after a lot of thinking and more trial and error, I've concluded that it was my environment and the bad habits that encouraged it:
- I have a long haired cat and I let him sleep on my bed. I've put a stop to that, washed the sheets, and ran over them with a sticky lint roller. There was a lot of hair.
- I vacuumed the carpet and mopped the kitchen floor.
- I bought a different kind of litter and refreshed the litter box. (The old kind had strong aroma chemicals and was a little too clumpy anyway.)
- I took out the trash - in the course of this, discovering a mold growing inside the can that practically took my breath away (insta-asthma - I'm very allergic to this). So...
- I cleaned the trash can with bleach.
- I washed the dishes - in the course of this, discovering a sour smell coming out of the disposal. So...
- I cleaned the disposal by running it under hot water for a while with a dash of lemon dish soap.
- I cleaned the shower curtain, the shower head, the toilet...
- I bought an air purifier.
- I cleaned and ran the humidifier.
- I drank more water and started eating bananas/taking magnesium (good for ear health).
- To help me sleep, I also took melatonin. Though it couldn't keep me asleep longer than six hours during the worst of it, I did have some awesome dreams.
The ringing in the second ear began at the previous apartment in 2016. One reason I moved is that I suspected that the place was infested with mold or some other allergen. There was also a gaping hole above the blower and behind the filter - meaning that nasty above-ceiling air was being blown all throughout the apartment. Any time the AC ran, my tinnitus would spike. When I left, I felt a massive improvement.
So when I saw that filter just lying there this month, I got kinda mad. Nearly a month of struggling at that point may have been triggered by that one thing... though if I were honest, it was much more than that. I was living in filth, and my body had finally had enough.
And while rectifying that helped a great deal, I decided to start taking Dayquil to forcibly drain my ears, as I had begun to notice they were feeling pressurized. Dayquil contains a compound called Phenylephrine, which is also in Benadryl Cold and Sinus. I originally bought the Dayquil to sooth the extremely sore throat I get when I catch a cold. When I noticed it had the same active ingredient for decongesting that the special Benadryl had (normal Benadryl does not have it - and no, it did not help), I decided to start taking that instead.
This was the start of a sort of "Great Awakening" in the understanding of my tinnitus. That... at least in my case, it's probably entirely mucus related. It's worth mentioning that during the worst of it, I was constantly coughing up flem. I had a persistent cough in general that I learned to just ignore... and all of this was that negligence coming to a head. All the allergens, the bad habits, the dehydration, made for a gross thick mucus generating machine... in my face.
For the past three days that I have taken Dayquil, I have felt it draining from my eustachian tubes, and I can tell you that the sensation feels very alien to me... it's like having a runny nose inside your head. I can also lie down without the tinnitus worsening, and last night, I had my first normal, non-melatonin assisted nights rest in about five or six weeks!
So I think what happened is that both my ears were already clogged up. All that is needed each time was the littlest push from the season changing, an unclean bachelor lifestyle, the AC drying the air up or pushing around dust, stupid kids, and things like that. When the mucus builds up, the ringing intensity increases. In ears without tinnitus, it starts. Sometimes it goes away, but eventually it doesn't.
Suffice it to say, I've developed a new appreciation for the delicate structures of the middle and inner ear. I'm 31 and could live another 50 years, so I don't want things to get worse than they already are. I'm going to take this more seriously now and report the situation to my ENT.
Though the tinnitus continues, I am in control, and for sure... it's a great feeling.